ONLY I CAN FIX ME links are there for a point of reference if you don’t know what I’m talking about.

Facebook subscription

Email subscription

Do you have a question about stage 4 brain cancer?  Ask if you do!

260 Curls w/ 20 pound dumb bells

120 Shoulder raises/Chest presses w/ 10 pound dumb bells

600 Crunches

450 Leg lifts

300 Squats while balancing on my toes.

300 Back flexes

32 stairs up & down.  8 with the railing and my cane which was not pretty!

179 meters = 587.27 feet walking distance with no rest periods.  Quality not quantity!

2 days of yoga

I fell asleep to “Metallica” the album “Master of Puppets”

I exercised to “Foo Fighters” the album “There is Nothing Left to Lose”

I learned a good chunk of the Foo Fighters song on the 7 string & I’ll tackle the main riff & verse of the Metallica song shortly.  I’m doing most of this by ear & memory.  I’m sure some of it will need to be looked up.


Here’s the Canadian Red Cross website if you’d prefer to donate please.  My birthday is over, I did extend the Facebook donations until Feb. 13th though!


I could easily sit around & complain about anything.  I’ve been there & done that.  Nobody is about to swoop in & make everything OK.  So it is what it is.  I’m in a wheelchair, I have an iPatch.  My eye has to fix itself, it’s a nerve problem that I went to see a specialist about & she couldn’t guarantee anything.  I’m in a wheelchair, nobody else can fix that for me.  My therapists gave me the tools & knowledge of what to do & got me to a point where it was up to me.  Everybody can help & does help, I have to put their knowledge & assistance into action & apply it.

Here’s an example.  When I go walking I have to think about am I standing up straight, are my heels hitting the floor first, is my stride too big, are my feet the proper distance apart, am I kicking my walker, etc.  I’m at a point where Kim doesn’t have to hold me but she’s there to help me make sure I’m remembering to do everything properly.

When I do stairs it’s completely different.  She’s there to make sure I don’t fall.  Nothing is perfect about my form, it’s about building my leg muscles to walk up & down the stairs properly.  I tried doing stairs with the railing & a cane once, that didn’t work out very well.  I’ll try it again a different way until I can get into a decent form and practice that.  Nobody is going to do that for me, they can suggest other ways to approach it, I have to try it & see if it’s a possibility.

We live on the 3rd/top floor of a condo.  There was an evening the elevator wasn’t working & I had tickets to see “Big Wreck” in concert.  I was standing at the top of the stairwell holding the railing & Brewster’s leash.  An older woman came in to use the stairs.  She had a broken foot & was complaining about the elevator & how it affected her evening.  She made it down the stairs & I’m sure it hurt and wasn’t easy.  I could hear her talking to Kim at the bottom of the stairs who had carried my wheelchair down for me.  Kim told the lady she was carrying my chair.  “Oh!  He’s in a wheelchair?  That’s his?”  I wasn’t going to miss “Big Wreck” because of a broken elevator.  Whatever plans the lady had, she wasn’t about to sit around and complain about her broken foot and the broken elevator.  We both had things that required more effort to do than we originally thought.  The world’s not perfect, we all have to deal with something.

I didn’t even think of this on the day, I’m editing this on Thursday right now.  February 5th 2008 was a Tuesday.  That was the day I passed out at work.  I was a printing press operator.  I had nearly finished setting up what I think was my 2nd printing job of the day, so it would have been in the morning.  Two of my co-workers came to see me as I was making some adjustments to the colour.  They both commented on how pale I looked.  I felt fine & thought nothing of it.  Within 5 minutes I had everything ready to go & I laid down on the catwalk of the press.  I knew something wasn’t right.  I called for one of my co-workers, who had taken over my press for me, to call 911 for me.  The Paramedics were there ASAP, I was still conscious.  I couldn’t stand up to get into the wheelchair they had for me.  They wheeled me out the front door on a gurney into the back of the ambulance.  Somebody had called Kim at work.  She came into the back of the ambulance just before we left from my work.  As she entered the ambulance I said to her “Don’t worry sweetie, everything will be OK” then I lost consciousness as soon as I finished the sentence.  From what I’m told I was talkative until I went into emergency surgery for the bleeding mass in the back of my head.  4 or 5 weeks after 2 days of 3 brain surgeries, I came out of a coma that the doctors said I had a %5-%15 of ever coming out of.  The story’s not done yet, but that’s how it started.

Well Kim & my in-laws swooped in & took care of my oops.  She ordered the Epiphone Matt Heafy custom 7 string Les Paul for my birthday.  It came in on Tuesday and she gave it to me that evening after supper & helping me with stairs.  What she said to me was the best gift I could receive.  She told me she was proud of me & how much work I’ve been putting in to my recovery!

After almost 4 hours of playing the 7 string on Wednesday I can confirm my suspicion…..IT IS ABSOLUTELY INCREDIBLE!

I’ve ordered a PRS guitar already that should be here in mid-April.  No we’re not rich.  I saved up by asking only for money, a watch, & a few minor guitar related things for Christmas & my birthday.  Kim of course helped me save as well.  Her overtime cash was spent on the 7 string.  I was constantly kicking myself about it when it went out of production 2 or 3 days after I placed my order for the PRS.  That is the end of my guitar purchasing.  I have an acoustic guitar & once the PRS comes in that will make 5 electrics.  All different body styles, colours, sounds, & tunings other than the 2 Les Paul body styles & 2 black Epiphones, 1 is the 7 string.  Yes I play all of them for as long as I can after my exercise every day.  If it’s ever a possibility to rent a Dave Grohl signature 335 Gibson hollow-body, a Chris Shiflett signature Telecaster deluxe (that I’d likely fall in love with), or if I ever see a Telecaster with a single coil pickup in the neck & a humbucker pickup at the bridge, those would be my rentals.  I love Foo Fighters so the Chris Shiflett (lead guitarist of Foo Fighters) Telecaster would be AMAZING to try!

If they made them & I couldn’t even imagine spending over $5000 on a guitar, I would have ordered a full on PRS McCarty 594 in a semi-hollow body.  This guitar, but semi-hollow!  This is likely just over $6000 in Canada already!  This one does 16 pickup combinations, the one I ordered will do 6 and it is semi-hollow.

I am more than happy with what I have now!  Even playing one of these is a VERY distant pipe dream!  I used to play guitar & after more than an 11 year hiatus due to cancer, I’ve started again & forgot how much I missed it.  I’m SO lucky to be able to get my life back after surviving brain cancer.

There’s a photo of me with the guitar & a video of me doing stairs, just to exercise my legs.  Tried doing stairs with a cane & railing, I’m not there yet, I need more strength & practice.


HOLY CRAP!  A  TOOL Lego set!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

New Lamb of God album out on May 8th

Also great news to hear is that Megadeth front man, Dave Mustaine, is cancer free after a battle with throat cancer.

Another couple of tunes from the upcoming album by Haley Williams of Paramore.  I would think by now she’d have a release date announced?


If you’re getting this through Facebook, give it a like or other reaction, or share it.  That’s the only way of promoting this site, since I’m not profiting from this in any way.


 “I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-David Grohl 

We’re all Global Citizens,


“Be kind to one another”-Ellen Degeneres

FEELING STRONGER & MORE DETERMINED EACH DAY!!!! links are there for a point of reference if you don’t know what I’m talking about.

Facebook subscription

Email subscription

Do you have a question about stage 4 brain cancer?  Ask if you do!

I went for 3 days of weights & yoga instead of 2 this week just to try it.  Regularly scheduled programming for the next while.

375 Curls w/ 20 pound dumb bells

170 Shoulder raises/Chest presses w/ 10 pound dumb bells

400 Crunches

300 Leg lifts

200 Squats while balancing on my toes.

200 Back flexes

150.5 meters walking distance = 493.7 feet

3 days of yoga


I fell asleep to “Alter Bridge” the album “Walk the Sky” followed by “Tool” the album “Fear Inoculum”

I exercised to nothing.  I didn’t sleep more than 2 hours for a reason you’ll read about later.  It’s WAY too early to listen to music.


Here’s the Canadian Red Cross website if you’d prefer to donate there for my birthday.  Donate whatever amount you like whenever you like please or donate to your country’s Red Cross.  It doesn’t have to be just for my birthday, whenever you can spare the cash!


I’m sure I’ll get tired & a little grouchy at some point.  Not yet though!  I like this & being able to play/practice my guitar gives me something other than exercise to look forward to the next day.  Life’s much better than it was last year or even a weeks into December.  Whenever I made my decision to push myself more.  I didn’t realize it, but I was firmly planted in a rut.

I tweaked a small muscle in my back while doing curls on Wednesday.  Nothing too serious, I made sure to stretch it better before my exercise on Thursday & kept stretching.  The more I keep it active, the less it seems to nag at me.

My biggest worry about this exercise is my left arm & hand are still quite shaky.  Until I get them used to being in a certain position, usually resting partially on something they still shake.  Even when I play guitar.  Before I’d just pick up a guitar & play, now I need to warm up just to play rhythm stuff, I always considered warming up a thing for lead & solo players.  It is getting better though.

All of these little mile stones adding up to me getting my life back, exercising harder, playing guitar, cooking (poorly), being helpful with house hold chores, walking with my walker, practicing stairs, etc.  I actually started to sing a bit again with a guitar in my hands.

Exercise is going great & my body feels better than ever.  I had chicken wing size calves before & now it’s like “Oh, Hello there lil’ muscle.  I haven’t seen you in over a decade!!!”  Even my humble man boobs are transforming, which is pleasing.

If I haven’t gained weight in muscle already, I’d be shocked.  There will be a video of me walking with my walker on Facebook.  Sorry about the Facebook only photos & videos.  The brace on my left leg is called an Ankle Foot Orthotic I have drop foot & I hyper extend my leg since cancer.  Never mind my shirt or what it says, it’s just what I happened to be wearing that day.  It from a “Lamb of God” concert I saw in 2006.  This song was the title of the tour…..

I’m really not looking forward to seeing one of my doctors in May for a few reasons.  I have to go for an MRI this time.  Not a big deal depending on which one they send me to.  I’m EXTREMELY claustrophobic.  The MRI machine at the hospital is VERY small.  My shoulders are too broad to shove my head & spine into that tiny, glorified X-ray machine.  The other one downtown at a radiology lab is much bigger & a fear free experience.

Another reason is that I’ve had it with her calling me FAT.  No wonder she was suspended, & I didn’t say a word to make that happen.  How do I respond to that when I have to go there?  “Sorry I’m not 5’0” tall & need 3 dozen cheeseburgers?”  I loved when she yelled that I’m fat down the hallway as I was leaving.  I might just walk in & say “Do I have cancer again? OK, see you later”.

I’m sick & tired of these RIDICULOUS ‘routine’ cancer checkups.  YAY, please poke me some more, I miss it so much.  This is how a rare cancer survivor gets treated?  I’m a statistic that comes up in a chart now?  Yay, I’ve always wanted to be a number!

Here’s what has been driving me crazy all week & was the reason for me not sleeping & second guessing myself to a point that I feel sick.  There was no right or wrong decision in this scenario, but I made the wrong one, if that makes any sense at all & it will cost us $1100.  I ordered the wrong guitar.  3 days after I ordered the super nice, fancy guitar the other one Epiphone ceased production on the 7 string I liked.  Had I known this was going to be the case, I would have ordered my only 7 string guitar & saved the extra cash for a trip with Kim.  Instead I ordered the PRS 6 string guitar.  If the 7 string wasn’t going out of stock soon, this wouldn’t be an issue.  Instead I’ve been doing what I do & overthinking my decision in whatever way possible.  I know this sounds ridiculous to others.  Other than a house or vehicle minus books & tuition for university & technical school, this is the biggest purchase I have or will ever make.

I ordered this guitar for 1/10 of the price of our brand new 2019 Toyota RAV 4.

Instead of this for less than half the price of the other one that will soon be extinct (below).

I’ve worried myself sick every night this week about this decision & it’s not helping at all.  These are both fantastic purchases.  I’ve researched both of them & decided these would complete my guitar purchasing.  There are so many other guitars out there but those are the last 2 I’d like.  I ordered the fancy expensive one too soon & feel a large knot in my stomach growing bigger every minute.  I could maybe cancel & change my order but we’d lose our deposit of over $200.  Kim likely won’t let me make a future guitar purchase anyways.

I got my first guitar in 2001 & was good enough to play rhythm guitar and sing 4 months later.  Things are harder/different now dealing with the lack of hand muscle.  My rhythm is fine, my tempo needs to pick up just a bit.  Practice, practice, practice!

I’ve never even thought of myself as a good guitar player.  Most times I think to myself that I haven’t even earned the right to own any other guitars?!

The entire guitar conversation has become a daily conversation in my head.  If I mention it out loud, Kim might hit me in the head with a frying pan?


I really like the new “Pearl Jam” single.  Full album to be released on March 27th!!!!


If you’re getting this through Facebook, give it a like or other reaction, or share it.  That’s the only way of promoting this site, since I’m not profiting from this in any way.


 “I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-David Grohl 

We’re all Global Citizens,


“Be kind to one another”-Ellen Degeneres


No such thing as a stupid question!  Feel free to ask me on Facebook or the website! links are there for a point of reference if you don’t know what I’m talking about.

Facebook subscription

Email subscription

I fell asleep to “Queen” the album “A Day at the Races”

I exercised to “Black Sabbath” the album “Heaven & Hell”


I had a list of albums that I grabbed this year, & it disappeared.  These are the albums of the year that stuck with me & are VERY memorable for me.  When I say “metal” do me a favour & don’t freak out about the vocals.  I don’t think I bought an album this year with ‘growling’ or ‘screaming’ on it.  A lot of metal vocalists are very well trained at their craft, even the ‘screamers’ out there.  It’s hard to do that.

I’m sure there were more albums that I bought, but these are the ones that caught my attention the most.




“Opeth” the album “In Cauda Venenum”

Yeah it’s a progressive rock/metal/soft-rock album from the Swedish group.


“P!nk” the album “Hurts 2B Human”

You know who she is more than likely.  I do like her previous release “Beautiful Trauma” a bit more, but there was nothing wrong with this one!


“Dream Theater” the album “Distance Over Time”

Progressive metal out of the USA, no this guy doesn’t growl or scream.  He’s a classically trained singer.  Usually someone says “metal” and everyone else freaks out about the vocals being scary.


“Alter Bridge” the album “Walk the Sky”

Based in Florida.  6th album & living in Western Canada, I’ll never see them live.  I think they’ve done the Montreal & Toronto tour twice since 2004.


“I Built the Sky” the album “The Zenith Rise”

Instrumental metal that REALLY shocked me, in a good way.  I’ve never heard anything like it and this is their 5th release.  I’ve got this album & I’d like to get 2 other albums by them.


“TOOL” the album “Fear Inoculum”

The only reason this wasn’t my favourite album of the year was that it’s just SO long.  “TOOL” is a band that you listen to & focus on nothing else, like most music is meant to be heard.  There are so many layers to this album & 6/10 songs are well over the 10 minute mark.  I’ve only had time to focus on it once.  It’s not an album full of singles either, it’s an album.  “Fear Inoculum” is roughly 7 minutes longer than their 1999 album “Lateralus”.  The difference is that “Lateralus” has 13 songs opposed to 10 on “Fear Inoculum”.  I can listen to 7 songs on “Lateralus”, come back later & listen to the rest.  I don’t like doing that with “Fear Inoculum”, I want to listen to it from start to finish with no separation.  I don’t have 1 ½ hours to focus on an album every week?


“In Flames” the album “I, The Mask”

Another Swedish metal band.  If you want to call these vocals “screamy” go ahead.  They’re called a “Swedish melodic death metal band” emphasis on the ‘melodic’ portion though.  He sings with an odd tone.


“Big Wreck” the album “…but for the sun”

I thought this was just my favourite “Big Wreck” album, turns out it’s one of my favourite albums of all time by a Canadian band not well known outside of Canada.  They’re a rock band & if you’ve never turned on a rock radio station in Canada or if you’ve lived under a rock since the late 1990s, you’ve never heard of them.

Honourable mentions. Billie Eilish’s “When we all fall asleep, where do we go?”, “Of Monsters & Men” the album “Fever Dream”, Mark Morton “Anesthetic”, & “Jimmy Eat World” the album “Surviving”.

As for future out of province concerts, I’m going to scale that WAY back.  Too much money I don’t have.  There had better be a show in Calgary, Alberta or Winnipeg, Manitoba & no more than 2 out of province shows a year, if that.  Hopefully there are more shows here in Regina or 2 ½ hours away in Saskatoon.  I’ll go to Moose Jaw (45 minutes away) if they ever get an act that intrigues me.


“Paramore” news…


What else to expect in 2020?  Chevelle, Lamb of God, Megadeth, The Pretty Reckless, Stone Temple Pilots, Into Eternity, Third Ion, Foo Fighters, Evanescence, Testament, Trivium, and more?  Most of these are rumored releases.


HOLY SMOKES!!!!  “Stone Temple Pilots” already have a preorder for their acoustic album “Perdida” for full release on February 7th.

25th anniversary for “Foo Fighters” & from the looks of their Facebook page they’re recording or might have already?

Gave my guitars a good workout yesterday.  After 3 ½ months of 45 minutes to 3 hours a day, 5-6 days a week I’m pretty much back to where I was on guitar when I got sick.  6 Foo Fighters songs down, added in parts I’ve never attempted, very close on 2 Metallica songs, a few other simple songs down, new chords, a handful of other riffs too.  All rhythm & hooks, I’ve never played guitar solos.  Feels so gratifying!!!!!!!  I forgot how much I missed it!  You have no idea how happy I am with this!!!!!!  I was so happy I almost broke down with tears of joy!!!  Just a few seconds behind the real tempo but just a little more polishing to do.

I’ll figure out how to put some videos on here.  Something you should know first though.  I LOATHE photos, videos, and audio recordings of myself.  Take the amount you don’t like them of yourself and multiply that by 100,000,000,000 and you’ll be almost where I am.  It probably won’t happen often, especially since I don’t own a phone or any type of camera.

Well, exercise is done for the day so that means perfecting a few songs on the guitar until… “Star Wars” Episode 9 tonight with my pop!  He got me into this mess with VHS, now I’m getting us out of this mess at the theater!


If you’re getting this through Facebook, give it a like or other reaction, or share it.  That’s the only way of promoting this site, since I’m not profiting from this in any way.

“I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-David Grohl 

We’re all Global Citizens,


“Be kind to one another”-Ellen Degeneres


No such thing as a stupid question!  Feel free to ask me on Facebook or the website! links are there for a point of reference if you don’t know what I’m talking about.

Facebook subscription

Email subscription

Do you have a question about stage 4 brain cancer?  Ask if you do!


Music throughout the weekend “TOOL”, “I Built the Sky”, “Sevendust”, & “Chromeo”


To clarify Friday’s post; Things in Regina, Saskatchewan, Canada are taxed heavily!  7% Government Sales Tax aka GST & 7% Provincial Sales Tax.  The majority of stuff we purchase in Saskatchewan is 14% higher than America & our dollar fluctuates $0.75-$0.85 on America’s dollar.  Canadians pay a higher price on most things other than health care.  Example;  My father bought a 66oz. of Bacardi White Rum while renting a house in Arizona for a month, he left it there because almost full because it was cheap.  If it was here I could see that at least $80 or more.  Messed up since we didn’t get to vote in the USA federal election, nor did anyone else other than Russians.


Friday we watched the last however many episodes of “Atypical” season 3 on Netflix.  Kim’s parents came to town about mid-day on Saturday.  We all had supper here Saturday evening, James fixed a few issues I was having with my computer.  Too early for me for Christmas movies, but there was one playing Saturday night.  I missed it while getting things arranged on my computer.

Sunday morning Kim & Sherry hung out with their mom & went shopping.  Me & my Homeslice (Brewster) had breakfast, hung out & I finally had a bit of time to watch part of “The Cure” blu-ray, who I just got into believe it or not.  Kim got home around 2 pm.  I needed a refill on some medication & Brewster needed another appointment at the vet at 4 pm, he had an ear infection.  We picked up my refill at a pharmacy near a Dairy Queen.

There was a guy asking if we could get him something to eat, so of course we did.  He told Kim he didn’t want money, just something to eat.  We grabbed him some food & it was freezing outside.  I asked Kim if we could ask for a hot drink for him, but we were already through the drive-through.  Kim gave him her mitts & I offered my toque, he said he had a toque & declined.  I felt bad for him, he looked like he was still in his early 20s.

After that it was off to the vet.  Not good news.  Brewster’s ear infection was/is deep down by his ear drum.  He needed to stay there for a few hours since he needed to be sedated.  “Should we resuscitate him if he has heart failure due to his murmur?”  I can’t believe that was a question?  OF COURSE!

I was waiting in the car, since we didn’t think it would be anything major.  Kim came out to tell/ask me what to do.  Whatever it takes to make him feel better was the answer on both of our minds.  I thought nothing of it until after supper.  Kim was quiet & my mind was racing thinking the worst, “Was that the last time I’d hold him?  Is he going to go down because of an ear infection?”  I worried myself sick.  I was so relieved when we got the call to pick him up.  He typically NEVER barks, Kin said he was barking his head off when she went in to get him.

He’s home and he’s fine.  He had a lot of water & was growling at me before we got home for his food.  He’s pretty intimidating, all 12 ½ pounds of him.  I think he’s almost done his bronchitis medication (Kim gives it to him) & he’s doing much better.  Kim says to me “He’s already cost us as more than a guitar you wanted!”  Better to have some cash for a rainy day than a guitar, always better to keep Brewster healthy & happy.  Easy call on that one!  We both said if he needs $5000 of health stuff, we wouldn’t blink, that’s as true now as it was in 2006 when we got him as a pup.

Kim & Brewster went to bed while stayed up to do more stuff on my computer & watch some recorded TV from the afternoon.

3:30 am & up to feed Brewster at 9:30 am, I should go to bed earlier!  Brewster’s tired today too.  He was up & down all night drinking multiple bowls of water & of course peeing.  Kim went to have coffee with her parents, then off to get groceries afterwards.  I got up & didn’t really stop until noon.  Kim got home with groceries, I made my vegetable juice & finally hit the shower.


I don’t think Trump will have problems with immigration.  I think fleeing Americans could be his biggest problem if he’s not impeached?

Unreleased song from “Prince” album ‘1999’

New “Taylor Hawkins and The Coattail Riders” video and album released on Friday, November 8.  Taylor Hawkins is the drummer for “Foo Fighters” and has 3 side projects where he plays drums & does lead vocals.  He also does the backing vocals in “Foo Fighters”.  This is from the third album released by “Taylor Hawkins and The Coattail Riders”.

YAY new “Sepultura” song!!!!!!

All of this crap happened & it could have been worse if no one was checking what Trump was doing?????????????


If you’re getting this through Facebook, give it a like or other reaction, or share it.  That’s the only way of promoting this site, since I’m not profiting from this in any way.

“I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-David Grohl 

We’re all Global Citizens,


“Be kind to one another”-Ellen Degeneres


No such thing as a stupid question! Feel free to ask me on Facebook or the website! links are there for a point of reference if you don’t know what I’m talking about.

Facebook subscription

Email subscription

Do you have a question about stage 4 brain cancer? Ask if you do!

My left shoulder was incredibly sore on Thursday, no exercise that day, just ice & stretching.


5 day exercise total; 1,500 crunches, 900 leg lifts, 300 squats, 300 back flexes, 0 pushups, 400 curls, 00 tricep lifts, 100 shoulder raises. TONS of stretching & yoga.

I fell asleep to “Into Eternity” the album “Dead or Dreaming”

I exercised to “Kelly Clarkson” the album “Meaning of Life”


I’ve learned that not every diet works for everybody. Sometimes it’s a trend that will work for some, but not others & some people will stick to it for how “Everlong”, some will go back to their regular eating habits & SURPRISE your body will revert to its former shape & size. “In the end” eat what makes YOU feel good & look the way YOU want.

As I say this, please know I’m not calling out/trying to offend anyone. We are often invited elsewhere.
Being a cancer survivor is weird. Initially everyone is really worried, once they think you’re OK people ‘seem’ to forget you exist & revert to their life as it was when you we’re sick & out of the picture. I’m not trying to call out anyone here, I kind of get it. 4 ½ years without the presence of anyone can be completely life changing. Kim & I disappeared for a long time. Now if the phone rings, if Kim gets a text or if I get an email that someone wants to come by we’re shocked. It feels very “isolated” here in a condo & in an odd way I understand. I’ve changed a lot & so have others. Everybody has different priorities now & me having to figure out the lay of the land in a wheelchair isn’t the easiest thing. If I can’t get around a friend’s place, our door is always open, especially if you bring rum! Specifically Bacardi Oakheart spiced rum, Baron Samedi spiced rum or Sangria for Kim, who drinks alcohol far less than me. It’ll take me longer than you think to consume it since it’s on the rocks & not often.

Surviving cancer is weird in many ways. ‘He’s alive, he’s OK, we did our job & saved his life’ maybe that’s what my nurses & therapists thought, & that’s all they were supposed to think, in my mind. Most of them became friends that went beyond their job to help me and they’re all people I have a TON of respect for, current friend or not.

What’s weird here is that after I was in the hospital & the Wascana Rehabilitation Center for an extended period of time, I’m alive & getting better, but we’re missing my full income. That’s not my nurses, therapists or doctors fault. Most things were covered by Canada’s health plan. Our mortgage was covered for 2 years. Rent for my room at WRC was $1000/month & not covered by anything. You need money to survive. My wife works a full 8 hour day, 5 days a week. I collect disability until I’m 65 and CPP for the rest of my life. Together they don’t amount to $28,000 a year. If there was a box on the ballot to check off for politicians to comprehend that, it would have been marked with my vote. I didn’t have that option & no candidate spoke about it. From what I can tell, people with extended term disabilities in the public are forgotten about by politicians. That makes no sense to me at all? So I’m a financial burden whether I like it or not? “Life’s not fair you idiot! Lighten up!” So because I’m not physically strong enough to get a job, I’m forgotten & I should be happy with that while being a burden too? No, I’m sorry, that’s not good enough! I don’t want to be a burden & forgotten. I’m sure I’m not the only one in this type of situation either. Because of cancer I have created many bad/unwanted/uncommon ripple effects. I don’t understand that? I do plan to get an online part time job in the future & contribute to society & earn a small paycheck.

The left brake on my free wheelchair broke multiple times & after 2 or 3 separate times Sask. Abilities weren’t able to fix it properly for $50 each time. I got a different chair for just over $7,000 and $1000 of that was covered by our government & they’ll cover it once in a life time. The rest of it was paid out of pocket. My parents & Grandparents have helped out immensely with these expenses, I don’t want to go back to the well. I researched & I voted to see if maybe the Canadian Government would change, it didn’t. So for the next 4 years I get to be alive but not live?

I’m not someone looking for a handout of cash, this is my life & I guess I have to deal with it. I don’t want the Government to just fix my situation, just level the playing field a bit for everyone. I have a retirement disability savings plan. I can put in $5000 a year I think & it triples the amount. I can’t touch that money that I deposit for 10 years. So I’ll have some money in 9 years, until then my wife & I get to live as is & not do much of anything? Prices have gone up with inflation, I would think my salary would have as well, I’m not looking to be rich, I would like to make an income closer to what I was at when I passed out “in the meantime”.

I was head hunted by a different company & got a significant raise to stay where I was. I had some other issues with how the other company was being managed as well. I’m glad I stayed where I was, the other place no longer exists. I don’t know if they thought I could improve their chances of staying afloat? I was the youngest employee where I was, running 1 of the 2 larger printing presses where I was though.

I’m not going to be the poster boy for this, but I will support this cause. I’m not a person that gets into politics. I don’t like messing around in politics and I plan to stay away from it. That being said, I did send an email to the Canadian Federal Government asking about this issue. I got cancer, & it’s nobody’s fault. I’m not looking to get rich, I’m looking to make a similar wage as I made before I got cancer.

If you’re Canadian & want to voice your opinion on anything, this is the Governments website

There are people FAR worse off than I am & nobody pays attention to them, but that’s supposed to be ‘Not our problem’? A TON of people want food, water, & shelter. Why have I been whining about my situation for so long? They’re other people who are worse off than the rest of us.

What do I not like? Whiners, complainers, fake people & people who don’t do their job at a respectable level. I’m certain I am all of those things, but fake, on this post & the entire website. I guess that long road to recovery is longer than I thought. Call me whatever you want to, but don’t call me fake. I can handle whatever you throw at me other than fake.

I hear we may have out of town guests this weekend that would be FANTASTIC!

I use streaming music until the funds are there to purchase music on iTunes or CD. I personally refuse to attain music by streaming it. Same deal with texting & photos. I do not like either one of them, so owning a cell phone would make me a hypocrite in my eyes.

Like them or not a cell phone can be VERY distracting at times.


9 albums streaming right now, not cool with me. Hello iTunes, slowly, next year! Any streaming service could tank at any moment and I’d be left with nothing, that’s why I use iTunes, a minimal paying site.


I just found out about this band the other day. 4 albums in total, instrumental progressive rock (they’re classified as metal but call me jaded) with a couple of classical guitar & orchestral tracks too. I’ve never heard music like this! I grabbed their newest album on a streaming platform for a future purchase “The Zenith Rise”…


If you’re getting this through Facebook, give it a like or other reaction, or share it. That’s the only way of promoting this site, since I’m not profiting from this in any way.

“I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-David Grohl

We’re all Global Citizens,

“Be kind to one another”-Ellen Degeneres

No such thing as a stupid question! Feel free to ask me on Facebook or the website! links are there for a point of reference if you don’t know what I’m talking about.

Facebook subscription

Email subscription

Do you have a question about stage 4 brain cancer? Ask if you do!

I fell asleep to “The Darkness” the album “One Way Ticket to Hell…and Back”

I exercised to “Big Wreck” the album “…but for the sun”

I wrote it many times & didn’t like it & had no desire to put it into the world.

Brewster is doing well. He still has about a week & a ½ of medication to go. He rarely goes into a coughing fit. It’s down to about twice a day instead of every 30 minutes. I’m glad & pleasantly surprised at how much better he’s doing. He did end up costing us about $1000 this month for his tests & medication so we’ve had to make some changes to afford his vet bill.

There’s no such thing as a wheelchair accessible house on the market right now in our price range in Regina, so as far as I’m concerned that’s an impossibility at the moment. I’m not getting either one of the guitars I chose, since the funds aren’t there & likely won’t be for a while. Those two things I’m good with more importantly Kim & Brewster are healthy.

What I do not like is that I’m now streaming music, instead of purchasing my music. It’s suffering enough that some rock & metal musicians are making less than me & that’s flat out legal stealing to me. It’s legal so do what you want. For me I’m listening to music I own as well as “I don’t care” & “Who gives a crap, its disposable”. I’m over the fact that we won’t have nice stuff for a few years. Streaming music for me is the work of the Devil. “You paid $10,000 to make this album? Here’s a check for $2.50 this month” that’s just stupidity at its best. I hope whoever isn’t making money from streaming music pulls it from every digital platform and releases it only on physical platforms, CDs, vinyl & even cassette tapes. I have music on my iPod that I like & I have 12 disposable albums I don’t own and feel bad when I listen to it. If music becomes nothing but streaming online or if Apple doesn’t become a respectable music label. I’ll go straight to physical formats that I can own instead of ‘rent’. With that being said there will be little to no new music being purchased or streamed until after Christmas, yeah I loathe streaming music that much. If I can’t buy it, I might as well listen to the radio here!  I’d rather have the cash for gifts for others than listen to rented music.

As for the PRS guitar, it’s too expensive right now the limited edition Matt Heafy 7 string Epiphone is also expensive but not as much. A guitar around that much plus tax had better be perfect. The Epiphone 7 string will be the runner up for many years if not forever. For now I’ll look at the links I’ve book marked. It’s not like I’m a guitar virtuoso yet or before, I’m starting at square one, but I know too much, if that makes sense. I don’t NEED either one, I just WANT them, big difference between NEED & WANT! I’ve decided on a colour to stare at, McCarty Sunburst for the PRS guitar. Now I can “…dream in colour…”

All of the changes we’ve made are out of necessity & I’m good with that, we can afford Christmas gifts for others. That’s important to me. What would I like for Christmas? Money for a wheelchair accessible house in Regina, Saskatchewan, Canada that currently is not on the market. Better yet buy our house for the asking price & find us a place to move into? If we lived in the area of Buffalo, New York & were looking to spend the same amount of American money, we could afford a large house outside of the city that’s wheelchair accessible??!!??!!?? That’s what I get for watching HGTV!
Billie Eilish & TOOL had bigger debuts on the charts than Kanye. Does this mean anything? I see it as just numbers, not a trend, but that’s just me.

Neil Young walks to the beat of his own drummer. Turns down millions to play ‘Harvest’ that he wrote. He should be allowed to play what he wants if you ask me!

Neil Young Turned Down ‘Millions’ for ‘Harvest’ Tour

Well done Metallica! That will come in handy for those in California!
If you’re getting this through Facebook, give it a like or other reaction, or share it. That’s the only way of promoting this site, since I’m not profiting from this in any way.

“I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-David Grohl

We’re all Global Citizens,

“Be kind to one another”-Ellen Degeneres


No such thing as a stupid question! Feel free to ask me on Facebook or the website! links are there for a point of reference if you don’t know what I’m talking about.

Facebook subscription

Email subscription

Do you have a question about stage 4 brain cancer? Ask if you do!

5 day exercise total; 1,500 crunches, 900 leg lifts, 200 squats, 00 back flexes, 0 pushups, 800 curls, 00 tricep lifts, 200 shoulder raises. Stretching & even more YOGA.

I fell asleep to “Nothing but Thieves” the album “Broken Machine”

I exercised to “The Darkness” the album “Last of our Kind”

More yoga this week than ever, gets my triceps really good that why I didn’t do any with my weights. I do weights, yoga, & other intense stretches every Tuesday & Thursday. Yes, I fall, I still have no physical balance. I use a chair, table, or wall to balance myself when doing certain yoga poses. So far when I fall I’m just strong enough to fall with a bit of grace & haven’t seriously hurt myself. My back was bugging me Monday, I rested it, put some ice on it & did my squats on Wednesday & Today.
Wake up, have breakfast, exercise, shower, eat lunch, check my computer Monday & one of the guitars I chose is “no longer available”? It wasn’t even the “Limited Edition” guitar? The 7 string Epiphone remains, the PRS I originally chose was a 2018 and more than $1000 less. I do not own a 7 string guitar or a PRS guitar, which sound very nice. Gotta pick one & hope it will happen. Yes, I book marked them so I can stare at them & call them both “My precious”!
It’s been decided 1 PRS next year. Same guitar as featured below, different year, better price! I hope there’s a 7 string around in 10 years, heck, I hope I’m still alive & relatively healthy in 10 years! Now, to start saving! Is this a mid-life crisis purchase? I hope I live to be 80 or more! If I make it to 80 or not this is my mid-life crisis purchase. I can’t drive, so it’s a very nice guitar! This is a LARGE purchase for me, a onetime deal for sure!

Kim gave me the OK for a reasonable PRS next year, so here’s hoping! Gotta start saving my pennies now! Thanks to Tim Roth at Long & McQuade for helping me in my search for the guitar I wanted!
I used to be able to play all the way through Foo Fighters’ 1997 album “The Colour and The Shape” on guitar, most of the 3rd album, all of the acoustic double album, & other songs in the mix, before cancer.

This one is available now & I’ll start saving for it ASAP. I’ll have to special order it in a burnt amber burst colour. This is a mid-life crisis purchase for me!

This was in the running but lost out, maybe someday, if they’re still around…& if I win the lottery…..I guess I should consider playing the lottery? Less expensive also. Go big or go home, once! Matt Heafy is the singer for “Trivium” metal music is fast & difficult for me on guitar, I’ll get there eventually for now 6 strings are enough to work with. It is the same guitar he plays in this video & on tour.

My priorities are Kim, Brewster, our family & friends, etc. Kim has different priorities, I guess?
Kim’s dental bill is payed off thanks to her father for helping out, she waited a long time for that (almost 24 years). She used her birthday money towards Brewster’s Vet bill. I thought I’d use my money for other things in the future, save it for a rainy day. She insisted that I use it towards a guitar! For me this is not only a mid-life crisis purchase & a nice work dealing with the cancer situation so far. It’s also a part of getting my old life back while improving it.
Kim works at a job she likes for decent pay. I exercise daily & try to recover while living on disability checks & Canadian pension plan checks that when added together don’t amount to anything above the poverty line. We tend to live in & out of debt. This is why luxuries are usually out of the question.
My Saskatchewan Roughrider season ticket is already paid for this year, so I’ll be at the game Saturday afternoon, & the home playoff game, which is paid along with the season tickets the previous December. That right there is $1000 a year + food & beverage. $6 for a watered down pop is as equally atrocious as a $9 generic beer. I refuse to spend $9 for a beer I can buy a 12 pack for $18 at the liquor store. I rarely drink beer other than a new flavour of craft beer. I usually have a pop & some popcorn or just chew gum to keep my mouth moist at the game, my pills give me dry mouth. I can pause the game here on TV and save on the cost of food & beverage.
A plus is to be able to just watch the game. Now it’s ‘Come for all of this extra stuff, & there’s a football game too’ I’m not a kid anymore, lights & games don’t do the trick anymore. More than I want & prices went up for the new stadium a few years ago, they’re not coming down.
I never watch live TV, EVER! “Oh, the game started? Thanks Kim, I’ll start it in ½ an hour”. Everything we watch is recorded. We’ll watch it when we have time. We’re busier than usual “around here”. No commercials that way.

My priority is to get better, sooner than later! Other than that, I shouldn’t NEED anything, it’s just stuff I WANT. Big difference between NEED & WANT! This guitar purchase will be a slap on the back as if to say “Hey, you’re doing alright. You gotta keep going, there’s a long road ahead still”. One day I’d like to find an online part time mundane job to do 4 hours a day/5 days a week, so I have time to exercise still.
Well whether this is settled or not. Please buy my house & I’ll love you long time…unless you’re not into that, then the safe word is sauerkraut & we can just cuddle in our PJs, eat popcorn, & watch movies. You’re the boss though, this is just a suggestion, nothing more.

I think this would have more to do with the style of music a person listens to. Biasedly though, I didn’t even know other bands had logos.

If you don’t believe in climate change, maybe this will sway you?

The Coming Flood: A Data Error Is Corrected, and Our Future Is Rewritten

System of a Down news. Drummer is less than thrilled with…..

TOOL rushed ‘Fear Inoculum’ release after a 13 year wait????????????

If you’re getting this through Facebook, give it a like or other reaction, or share it. That’s the only way of promoting this site, since I’m not profiting from this in any way.
“I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-David Grohl
We’re all Global Citizens,
“Be kind to one another”-Ellen Degeneres