“I FEEL LIKE SHIT BUT AT LEAST I FEEL SOMETHING”

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490 Curls w/ 20 pound dumb bells

265 Shoulder raises/Chest presses w/ 10 pound dumb bells

850 Crunches

850 Leg lifts

300 Squats

425 Back flexes

1:00 hour of yoga over 2 days

Played around by extending my repetitions this week, nothing set in stone yet.  I was pissed off this week & pushed things to the maximum.

 

Learning on guitar “Trivium” the song “The Heart from your Hate”

 

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Sorry to start with.  I asked for more subscribers earlier this week and thanks for coming to read this.  Unfortunately this is not a typical happy post.  Bad week that got worse as it went on.  I let too many things influence my mood.  I’ve re-writen this 4 or 5 times but the same stuff comes out in different words.

 

I’m not a trend setter or influencer, I know that.  That’s really not something I’ve ever been.  I’m a 40 year old physically disabled white male.  About as bland as they come.  I keep my head down & try not to make any waves.  I’m home ALL of the time.  I eat healthy, I exercise 5 days a week, & I practice guitar.  I know I’ve inspired one person to change their life in a positive way, and that’s great!  It’s nice to know this has had a positive impact on someone’s life.

Am I ever going to be able to walk on my own?  I don’t think so, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to stop trying.  There are things I can’t do, that gets to me every once in a while.  I can’t help my friends do projects to their house, help them move, if I want to go somewhere I need someone to take me, etc.  I guess I just don’t like not being able to help with things.  I don’t want to be the one that needs help, but if I do, I’m not afraid to ask.

Yeah I know I have a VERY LONG list of things to do that I probably won’t accoplish in my life.  Other people are much further along than I am, yet many seem to think “Hey, he’s doing pretty good” and leave it at that.  I’m not content with myself personally.

I’ve learned that if you’re not trying to better yourself, you’ll likely get left behind.  So I’m trying to make up 4 ½ years I spent living in a hospital that set me back about 30 years or more, I KNOW I have a LOOOOOONG way to go & I feel like Kim & I are being left behind because of me.  The likelyhood of me being nothing more than a statistic becomes more apparent with each passing day.

I watch my local Regina, Saskatchewan news, Canadian national news,  Stephen Colbert, Jimmy Kimmel, & Ellen Degeneres.  On all of them, not nearly as much on Ellen, the majority of the show is about how messed up everything is.  Even on my local news I hear stories such as; this virus is getting worse, too many people aren’t following the social distancing rules because it’s summer & staying home doing nothing is too hard, the murder of George Floyd, Donald Trump enabled this evil & fumbled up this situation, murder hornets, a tornado by my wife’s hometown, a police officer shot an unarmed black man in Atlanta on the weekend after the man was searched and no weapons were found, & climate change denyers.  Did I miss anything?  Oh yeah there was a news story a while ago confirming that UFOs are real, nobody did anything about mass shootings, that topic was just glazed over when the next problem occurred, homelessness, & 3rd World countries, lets keep doing nothing so we can deal with 30 problems at once?  After all of that garbage & the STRONG possibility that Donald Trump will start a war, I stayed in bed on Wednesday & Thursday until 10:00 am, wide awake, tossing & turning & crying.  Today wasn’t any better.

I don’t hate America one bit so don’t get me wrong as I say this please? 

After some research & general knowledge, Canada is WAY different than America.  America has money, power, & Donald Trump.  If I have to pay more, live in a country with weaker influence, live in a colder climate, have health care, not have the same history of racism to NOT live under the “Law & Order” of Donald Trump, I’ll take that any day of the week.  Does Canada have racism among other problems?  YES, but nothing like what’s going on south of the border.  I’ve never read, been taught, or have seen anything like the mess America is dealing with in Canada.

If America is named the “Greatest Country in the World”, the rest of us are waiting & listening, but not much coming out of America is very useful?  I don’t watch Jimmy Kimmel or Stephen Colbert for news that sucks that I’ve already seen.  I watch them to be entertained & maybe have a laugh or 2.  More than ever the wind from America is blowing north to Canada.

I go on social media & people comment about their displeasure with the current American administration.  I state that I’m Canadian, don’t know what it’s like to live there but agree with the statement.  That same random individual will immediately respond telling me to SHUT THE FRONT DOOR or call me a name.  Now people in the USA want Canada’s help??????????????????  WTF??????

I don’t hate America or the people that live there.  I do think that as a country it is HIGHLY over rated though.  Greatness isn’t just rated on wealth & strength.

I watch videos like that & think to myself immediately that “I need to practice WAY  more”!  I already know that he’s WAY ahead of me on guitar.

This is what I do when I change strings of my guitars, always.  You’ve got to take care of them.  I never wipe my strings off until I play them, I always clean the back of the guitar neck when restringing it & most times that I play a guitar.

I’ll be getting rid of a few things for cash that we could use.  My mountain bike that hasn’t been touched since my brother used it for the summer of 2008.  It’s only been used in the city.  Similar to this…

https://www.trekbikes.com/ca/en_CA/bikes/mountain-bikes/cross-country-mountain-bikes/marlin/marlin-5/p/33136/?colorCode=orange_grey

3 guitar effect pedals that I don’t use.  I don’t play live/loudly anymore, so I don’t need them.  Hopefully I can get $50 for each of them since they were $120-$180 new, when I had no other expenses.

After selling/trading that stuff in, I’m pretty sure the guitar & amplifier aren’t going to happen.  I feel like I tried to hard & people are dumbfouded that I want something nice?  I guess I can’t have nice things?  OK, I’ll stay in my lane, I’ll play my role.  Researching & getting excited about the guitar & amplifier was a waste of my time!  I’d rather not have nice material things I enjoy, a $2200 guitar & a $329 amplifier, than be the source of hate for other people.

I don’t have money or influential power, I’m physically disabled.  I’ll help the world by pointing out it’s MANY problems.  Justin Trudeau will throw money at them & Donald Trump will tell everyone lies about how perfect everything is.  I’ll keep an inventory of what issues need to be dealt with & what the new ones coming in are.  Everyone else, wake up the Federal leaders that were elected to do this sort of job.  Wake them up peacefully or they might hide in a bunker & lie about it!

Maybe if I didn’t care so much, I wouldn’t be so INCREDIBLY disappointed?  The news really bummed me out this week.

Sorry to disappoint anyone but there’s also no video of me playing guitar on the Facebook site for this blog.  I did one on Monday & didn’t post it because it was terrible.  I have played hundreds of times before cancer, but not really since.  I’m an idiot!  I’ll post some photos & a video of my ordered guitar when it gets here.  I don’t need a perfectionist to dissect my mediocre guitar playing on social media.  That’s not fun for me.  Maybe on my personal page sometime?  For now I’ll post a video that I watch more often than I should because it’s VERY well done & it makes me smile!

 

YAY new “Lamb of God” day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

“I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-David Grohl 

We’re all Global Citizens,

Chris

“Listen to each other” –Ellen Degeneres

LAST LENGTHY GUITAR CHAT NOW THAT I’VE DECIDED

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I fell asleep to “Coheed and Cambria” the album “Good Apollo I’m Burning Star IV, Vol. 1 – From Fear through the Eyes of Madness”

I exercised to “Lamb of God” the album “Ashes of the Wake”

 

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I’ve been mostly inside when there is no pandemic for the last 6 years.  I say I want to do something & people are tired from work & would rather not.  I’d need a ride if I was to go anywhere.  I complain & am told that’s just the way it is.  Now everyone has been living my life for 2 ½ months because of a global pandemic/virus & because its summer they must get outside since it’s nice out and they’ve been inside for too long?  Let me repeat what I am told when I want to go outside “THAT’S JUST THE WAY IT IS”.  You could sacrifice one summer for numerous others or enjoy this summer & potentially die “That’s just the way it is”.  Right now I have no desire to go outside.  Is it really that hard to stay in the home you bought to live in and do anything you please in that home?  Maybe it’s me but I REALLY don’t understand it?

It’s Sunday & I’m still seriously tired & sore from last week.  Really windy today, I’ve been able to hear the wind since I woke up early this morning!

I admit that I changed after cancer, how could I not since it was BRAIN cancer.  Am I right most of the time?  No, & I don’t need to be.  Some people are saying to get a tricycle instead of a guitar.  I look at it this way.

My point is right now everybody wants to get out since they’ve been stuck inside, that’s temporary.  When everyone’s back to a somewhat normal routine that desire will fade, and I’ll be in the same spot.  I’m sure I’ll be spending more time indoors playing guitar than I will be outdoors using a tricycle I have no desire for.  This isn’t an “Oh feel sorry for me?  I’m stuck inside all of the time” sob story, I’ve adapted to this now and I’m fine with it.  I was a guy, I got cancer, then a jerk, now I’m trying to evolve to the person I was before cancer.  Now I’m supposed to change on a dime because the weather changed?

I mentioned using guitar hack number 5 from this video last Tuesday…

…it works really well!  Instead of drinking all of that beer & feeling bloated.  We found a pack of 25 sealers/gaskets on amazon for $6.19.  Drink what you like & now you know where to get cheap, reliable strap locks.  I’ll have more than enough to share with friends.

My final purchase will be a PRS SE or S2 for sure.  I’m hoping for the S2 McCarty 594 or the backup of the aqua SE by the time I buy it, if there isn’t, we’ll have some extra cash for a rainy day.  If it wasn’t 90% different from anything I have, there wouldn’t be as much “desire” for it.  I’ve finally set up a monthly budget in order to save for this I can already see a few things I can eliminate spending money on.

I went over the specs on the 2 guitars & made a pros vs. cons list.  For what I’d like it was a “landslide” for the S2 McCarty 594 in the Whale Blue colour.  So here’s the guitar I have ordered, & my future order of the S2 McCarty 594.  If you thought I was excited before, you should see me now that I’ve made a decision & have a goal!  Yes, they’ll sound different, that’s the intent.

S2 Custom 22 semi-hollow (ordered)

https://www.prsguitars.com/index.php/electrics/model/s2_custom_22_semi_hollow_2020    The colour I’m getting is different than in the video & my pickups (85/15) will not have a cover over them.

S2 McCarty 594   (saving for it)

https://www.prsguitars.com/index.php/electrics/model/s2_mccarty_594

SE Paul’s guitar

https://www.prsguitars.com/index.php/electrics/model/se_pauls_guitar_2020  (backup for the S2 McCarty 594 if it goes out of production)

So I’m hoping to place an order for the S2 McCarty 594 by late 2021 if not mid-late 2022 & it should arrive about 4 month after, unless there is a delay as there is with my current S2 semi-hollow which was to be here in April, then delayed until late August & then the virus/quarantine hit, so I’m not sure when it will arrive?  When it gets here is fine as long as nobody has to risk their health in making & shipping a guitar.  As for the price difference, it just means I’ll be saving longer for it & because it’s in the S2 line, I’ll have to wait for it to be made.

For guitar players without locking tuners or locking nuts, if you’re not stringing your guitar this way, I highly recommend it now that I’ve tried it!  Go to the 4:00 minute mark unless you need to see how to remove your existing strings.  Works on any type of guitar or bass!

WOW!  Young drummer drumming along to “Royal Blood” (band from England, drummer & bass player/singer)

https://twitter.com/Nandi_Bushell/status/1261979140686831618?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw%7Ctwcamp%5Etweetembed%7Ctwterm%5E1261989903568642050&ref_url=https%3A%2F%2Floudwire.com%2F10-year-old-girl-drummer-royal-blood-out-of-the-black%2F

You would think that now that I know what guitar will satisfy my desires I’d stop looking at guitars.  I’m done BUYING guitars, I’ll still look, probably not nearly as much, but it’s a hobby.  I like to see/hear what other players are into and why?

I didn’t get a lot of feedback on Friday so I checked out Phil McKnight on www.youtube.com.  He owns a guitar store, can do anything to fix a guitar, if not build one from scratch, & he did the review of Korean made vs. American made.  For guitar players I highly recommend checking out these channels on www.youtube.com Robert Baker, Rob Chapman (owner of Chapman guitars in the UK), “Music is Win” by Tyler Larson & “Know your Gear” by Phil McKnight!

 

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350 Curls w/ 20 pound dumb bells

200 Shoulder raises/Chest presses w/ 10 pound dumb bells

400 Crunches

400 Leg lifts

200 Squats while balancing on my toes.

200 Back flexes

2 days of yoga

4 short planks

Walking distance – 420 meters = 1377.95 feet

There won’t be any stairs during this virus stuff.  I don’t really want to touch a public railing or clean them before & after I’m done.

I fell asleep to “Queens of the Stone Age” the album “Villains”

I exercised to “TOOL” the album “Lateralus”

I made the font size larger & now the spellcheck doesn’t work?  Sorry in advance.

It’s Tuesday evening as I write this.  Before I posted Tuesday’s blog, I slept in, & didn’t excersise until after I posted the blog.  I exercised to “Chromeo” on Monday & “Foo Fighters” afterwards on Tuesday.

I played my “Fender” Telecaster Tuesday evening & quickly learned the rhythm to this…

…none of the fast licks but the main riff & verse/chorus.  I opted on Tuesday to learn different bands/sounds on each guitar instead of just going from 1 album by 1 band.  Different stuff to learn with each different artist/band.  I found a set list of cover songs from my first band in University.  I’ll go through that to start.  Not all of our songs are on there, I’ll add to it as I go, I think we ended up doing about 40 cover songs & wrote 7 of our own?

I guess I’ll call this a ‘retraction’?  I said that P90 pickups were double coil pickups, they aren’t.  They’re slightly larger, louder single coil pickups.  You typically see single coil pickups on Fender Stratocasters.  Gibson created the P90 pickup to be louder, have a different sound & look since they were on Gibson’s first solid body guitar a 1950 Gibson Gold Top Les Paul.  Double coil pickups were made later on.  They were created to remain at the same volume level as the P90 but included the second coil to add the volume & reduce the hum, that’s why they’re now commonly called “Humbuckers”.  Here’s a Gibson Les Paul 1950 Gold Top with P90 pickups…

Les Paul Standard 50s w/P90 Pickups - Gold Top

Best PRS SE on the market, aqua it is, I’m saving up!  If Kim decides on a trip, the money goes there.  The SE model was introduced to the SE line in 2019 & modeled after Paul Reed Smith’s Core guitar, it’s not going anywhere.  If I could afford a $5000 + tax guitar I’d get the Core model in Violet Blue Burst.  That would take me a decade or more to save for & Kim might kill me if I tried to!!!????

https://www.prsguitars.com/index.php/electrics/model/pauls_guitar_2020

https://www.long-mcquade.com/124878/Guitars/Electric-Guitars/Paul-Reed-Smith/SE-Paul-s-Guitar—Aqua.htm

1 acoustic & 6 electrics are enough for me.  A PRS S2 on the way & an SE in the future & I’ll keep rockin’ n’ ROLLIN’ until I can’t anymore!  Your seeing these guitars a fraction of the amount of times I’ve looked at them!

S2 Custom 22 Semi-Hollow Body Guitar w/Gig Bag - McCarty Sunburst

I don’t necessarily switch guitars constantly.  The feel, shape, & sound of a guitar tends to dictate what comes next.  Example; my no-name brand green Les Paul aka “Kermit” feels & sounds great for most modern rock & a lot of grunge.  My Fender Telecaster aka “Ian” sounds best with blues, country, or most pre-1980 rock music.

Nope, I don’t need or want these guitars!  I’ve got my 7 string “Kiichichaos”, no-name Les Paul “Kermit”, Epiphone Explorer “Grohl”, semi-hollow Fender Telecaster “Ian”, an ordered semi-hollow PRS S2, & one day a PRS SE “Paul’s Guitar”.

All of these above are guitars I either don’t like the look or sound of, that’s why I’d say they’re not for me.  I find a floyd rose bridge to be more of a hassle/extra work on a guitar.  I’ve played 2 in my life & broke a string both times within 2 minutes.

Any & all youtubers I’ve been watching have helped me TREMENDOUSLY in relearning guitar after almost a 12 year hiatus!

If you like checking out guitars as much as I do, I recommend checking this blog out.  https://guitarbrat.music.blog/

 

Good things don’t change over night usually.  As with my exercise & guitar playing.  Practice, repetition & persistence are essential for the desired outcome.  Best thing for most people to remember ‘There’s always someone doing better’.  That’s what keeps me going!

I went walking this morning in our parkade.  WOW were my calves sore just standing up.  I guess the change in how I do my squats was a good thing?

When I find that somethings not working the way I had hoped, I take a different approach to it after multiple attempts.  I try to learn from my failures.  That doesn’t necessarily mean everything was terrible.  Take the positives with you & throw out the negatives, then adjust accordingly.

Example; My leg exercises aren’t helping my calves.  My thighs are doing well though.  I changed the way I do my squats this week to benefit both areas.  Only time will tell if I get the desired results?  I won’t know tomorrow, probably by the end of the month or a couple of weeks after that?

There’s no short cut that I know of for what I’m trying to do.  There are no instructions on how to overcome the effects of brain cancer.  I’ve got to continue to get better at what I’m doing.  I can’t just throw my hands in the air, walk away, & say “Ah, good enough!”  I literally can’t “walk” away…I should have said “roll”.

Since everyone is stuck at home, you might as well use this time to do all of those little things around your house that you never have time to do.  Don’t do them all at once though!  Spread them out, who knows how much free time you’ll have?  If you’ve already done most of the stuff around your house, was there anything else on your list to accomplish?  Don’t most people want to lose weight and get healthier?  Now’s the time!  What else do you have to do?

Call, text, Facebook, Tweet, Instagram, Skype, video chat, or email someone to participate with you.  That will make you accountable for meeting your goal that day!  Contact them before & after, have fun with it!

I know I yap about guitars a LOT, but there’s a reason for that.  I’m home with Brewster 9-10 hours a day.  I eat, exercise, shower, watch very little TV, & play guitar.  Until this past September I didn’t have much to look forward to the next day after I finished my exercises.  Now I have this hobby I LOVED doing back in my life for the first time since the beginning of February 2008.

I was watching this on “The Ellen Degeneres Show” the other day & did it Thursday (4 takes since I kept messing up the words) before I did my weight exercises.  I challenge Mitch Fraser, Cameron Rorquist, Sukhdeep Sandhu.  I’m only supposed to tag 3 people, but if you’re reading this, I challenge you.  If a 40 year old physically handicapped guy can do it, so can you!  I tried to sing a few different songs but messed up the lyrics the video is my 4th attempt.

My video is on the Facebook page.

 

The new album from thrash metal group “Testament” is GREAT!  “Titans of Creation”

EXPLICIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

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 “I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-David Grohl 

We’re all Global Citizens,

Chris

“Be kind to one another”-Ellen Degeneres