ROUGH WEEK MENTALLY

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Exercise total for 5 days.

0 Curls w/ 20 pound dumb bells

0 Shoulder raises/Chest presses w/ 10 pound dumb bells

250 Crunches

250 Leg lifts

100 Squats

140 Back flexes

0 hour of yoga over 0 days

 

I forgot to take my night time pills Monday night.  I didn’t sleep at all until 4:30 am after I took my pills.  I didn’t exercise the rest of the week.  That exercise total is what I did on Monday.

That night of not sleeping threw me off of my routine.  My body & mind just yelled at me “NO, IT’S TIME TO JUST STOP FOR THIS WEEK & RELAX”.  Great, I don’t really know how to relax?  I should have seen this coming.  I knew I’d need to rest at some point & I was hoping the Labour Day weekend would do it for me but I guess my energy ran out before the long weekend.  I guess that’s also a perk for me?  I can shut it down when I need to, doesn’t mean that I like to.  Feels more like a waste of a week.

Personally, I’m just tired.  Even watching Blue Jay baseball (I watch as much of it as possible every year) feels like a chore since I really don’t watch TV.  I exercise 5 days a week, I play a TON of guitar & I watch a little TV.  You factor in eating, showering, random household stuff, & sleeping, that’s a typical 24 hours for me & sleeping is only about 6-7 hours of it.

I don’t know if I’m tired or ready to embrace getting older?  I just want to kick back grab a guitar & not think about anything for a while.  Time to do nothing at all.  I already feel like I’m so far behind everyone but I’m just tired of trying to catch up to everyone.  I’m not about to give up, I just need/needed a short break.  I may not make a lot of money but I still feel as though I need to earn that disability check.

As for my guitar being delayed, it really wasn’t a downer for me.  I chose to put a positive spin on it.  Sure I ordered it in January.  I also chose to go with a fancy PRS guitar, since I researched it & the company so much.  Knowing that part of the delay was due to them looking for a blemish free piece of wood for the top of the body on the guitar is exactly the reason I wanted a PRS.  Yep it’s not cheap & some people might think that’s a waste of money, but the fact that they’re looking for a nice piece of wood that will be ¼” thick when all is said & done, that tells me that they’re likely quite particular about everything else going into that guitar, which was in the research I did.

S2 Custom 22 Semi-Hollow Body Guitar w/Gig Bag - McCarty Sunburst

That guitar has been saved for financially & if everything goes according to plan I’ll be placing an order for a different PRS S2 guitar in February.  I know already that I don’t want anything else in the meantime or after I upgrade my amplifier.  I’m keeping it simple.  If it turns out that were in a pinch financially, that’s where any & all funds go to.  Less stuff for me means less stuff can go wrong or needs repair.  I should mention that Kim’s fine with me getting the amplifier now.  Now that I know PRS are backed up 10-12 months due to Covid and that there is a 90-180 day delay regardless.  I’ll put down the 10% to order it in February & hope to get the guitar in December or in early 2022.

Yeah that exact model & colour to be ordered in February hopefully.  Then save for this amplifier & footswitch.

https://www.long-mcquade.com/154076/Guitars/Guitar-Amps/Boss/Katana-50-MkII-Combo-Amplifier.htm

https://www.long-mcquade.com/12567/Guitars/Guitar_Effects/Boss/FS-6_-_Dual_Footswitch.htm

Once I’m done with those purchases, I’m done with big purchases for a LONG time!  I researched the crap out of that specific PRS guitar & the amplifier.  The guitar is more expensive & it’ll come first.

You can call me whatever you want.  I’m OK with my progress & it’ll continue.  I get to have some fun along the way & for me that’s being in familiar surroundings & playing guitar.  Other than purchasing music & guitar related maintenance stuff, I don’t spend money & I don’t make a lot of money.  I’ve chosen 7 or 8 bands that I’ll purchase CD recordings of, 5 or 6 bands I’ll buy on iTunes, stream a lot of other stuff, I’ve given up on going to live shows other than a handfull of groups that might be here or in the 2 neighboring provinces, we cutback on our cable & streaming services, we don’t go out for any meals & somehow we’ll still be in a tight spot financially in the future.  Oh well, so are a lot of other people.

I went all “Marie Kondo” on my stuff & realized I don’t really need all of this stuff now.  Family, friends, & guitars are a part of my daily life & happiness.

If I’m destined to be a hermit, so be it…I might as well enjoy it!  More than anything, I want to do the right thing by staying out of the way for other people, & not bother anyone.  Someone needs help, I’ll do what I can.  I don’t want much & I don’t think I have a lot to give, if you think I do, I’ll look for it.

I’m not financially rich by any means, so I’ll live within my limits, be fine with that, & carry on.  Will I ever walk again?  I have no idea, it seems as though any strength/muscle I gain won’t really affect my balance which is the issue, but being stronger won’t hurt.

I turn on the local Regina news or the Canadian National news because all I see everywhere else is based on what’s going on in America.  Wild fires, hurricanes, Republican National Convention, 184,471 deaths due to Covid-19 in the USA, murder hornets, what stupid thing the President did today, an innocent man shot in the back 7 times by a cop, a 17 year old with an assault rifle shooting into a group of people thinking he’s rightly joining Trump’s henchmen, etc.  Guess what’s on any Canadian news I try to watch?  The same thing.  What are they saying at the RNC?  “WHO WANTS 4 MORE YEARS!!!!”?  I live in Canada & I don’t even want 4 more seconds of what looks like a shit show from here.

Donald Trump didn’t start this.  He also hasn’t/isn’t doing anything to correct it.  He’s sent out an unidentified army to arrest innocent people doing legal peaceful protests while blindly looking away & I’m worried about what people think of me?  Donnie, look in the mirror and wonder what people think of you & what YOU haven’t done……YOUR JOB!

 

John Petrucci (Dream Theater) & Metallica’s S & M 2 came out today that I was waiting for & a buddy of mine recommended some Rancid (punk music) to me after I asked about this band.

 

“I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-David Grohl 

We’re all Global Citizens,

Chris

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