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490 Curls w/ 20 pound dumb bells

265 Shoulder raises/Chest presses w/ 10 pound dumb bells

850 Crunches

850 Leg lifts

300 Squats

425 Back flexes

1:00 hour of yoga over 2 days

Played around by extending my repetitions this week, nothing set in stone yet.  I was pissed off this week & pushed things to the maximum.

 

Learning on guitar “Trivium” the song “The Heart from your Hate”

 

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Sorry to start with.  I asked for more subscribers earlier this week and thanks for coming to read this.  Unfortunately this is not a typical happy post.  Bad week that got worse as it went on.  I let too many things influence my mood.  I’ve re-writen this 4 or 5 times but the same stuff comes out in different words.

 

I’m not a trend setter or influencer, I know that.  That’s really not something I’ve ever been.  I’m a 40 year old physically disabled white male.  About as bland as they come.  I keep my head down & try not to make any waves.  I’m home ALL of the time.  I eat healthy, I exercise 5 days a week, & I practice guitar.  I know I’ve inspired one person to change their life in a positive way, and that’s great!  It’s nice to know this has had a positive impact on someone’s life.

Am I ever going to be able to walk on my own?  I don’t think so, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to stop trying.  There are things I can’t do, that gets to me every once in a while.  I can’t help my friends do projects to their house, help them move, if I want to go somewhere I need someone to take me, etc.  I guess I just don’t like not being able to help with things.  I don’t want to be the one that needs help, but if I do, I’m not afraid to ask.

Yeah I know I have a VERY LONG list of things to do that I probably won’t accoplish in my life.  Other people are much further along than I am, yet many seem to think “Hey, he’s doing pretty good” and leave it at that.  I’m not content with myself personally.

I’ve learned that if you’re not trying to better yourself, you’ll likely get left behind.  So I’m trying to make up 4 ½ years I spent living in a hospital that set me back about 30 years or more, I KNOW I have a LOOOOOONG way to go & I feel like Kim & I are being left behind because of me.  The likelyhood of me being nothing more than a statistic becomes more apparent with each passing day.

I watch my local Regina, Saskatchewan news, Canadian national news,  Stephen Colbert, Jimmy Kimmel, & Ellen Degeneres.  On all of them, not nearly as much on Ellen, the majority of the show is about how messed up everything is.  Even on my local news I hear stories such as; this virus is getting worse, too many people aren’t following the social distancing rules because it’s summer & staying home doing nothing is too hard, the murder of George Floyd, Donald Trump enabled this evil & fumbled up this situation, murder hornets, a tornado by my wife’s hometown, a police officer shot an unarmed black man in Atlanta on the weekend after the man was searched and no weapons were found, & climate change denyers.  Did I miss anything?  Oh yeah there was a news story a while ago confirming that UFOs are real, nobody did anything about mass shootings, that topic was just glazed over when the next problem occurred, homelessness, & 3rd World countries, lets keep doing nothing so we can deal with 30 problems at once?  After all of that garbage & the STRONG possibility that Donald Trump will start a war, I stayed in bed on Wednesday & Thursday until 10:00 am, wide awake, tossing & turning & crying.  Today wasn’t any better.

I don’t hate America one bit so don’t get me wrong as I say this please? 

After some research & general knowledge, Canada is WAY different than America.  America has money, power, & Donald Trump.  If I have to pay more, live in a country with weaker influence, live in a colder climate, have health care, not have the same history of racism to NOT live under the “Law & Order” of Donald Trump, I’ll take that any day of the week.  Does Canada have racism among other problems?  YES, but nothing like what’s going on south of the border.  I’ve never read, been taught, or have seen anything like the mess America is dealing with in Canada.

If America is named the “Greatest Country in the World”, the rest of us are waiting & listening, but not much coming out of America is very useful?  I don’t watch Jimmy Kimmel or Stephen Colbert for news that sucks that I’ve already seen.  I watch them to be entertained & maybe have a laugh or 2.  More than ever the wind from America is blowing north to Canada.

I go on social media & people comment about their displeasure with the current American administration.  I state that I’m Canadian, don’t know what it’s like to live there but agree with the statement.  That same random individual will immediately respond telling me to SHUT THE FRONT DOOR or call me a name.  Now people in the USA want Canada’s help??????????????????  WTF??????

I don’t hate America or the people that live there.  I do think that as a country it is HIGHLY over rated though.  Greatness isn’t just rated on wealth & strength.

I watch videos like that & think to myself immediately that “I need to practice WAY  more”!  I already know that he’s WAY ahead of me on guitar.

This is what I do when I change strings of my guitars, always.  You’ve got to take care of them.  I never wipe my strings off until I play them, I always clean the back of the guitar neck when restringing it & most times that I play a guitar.

I’ll be getting rid of a few things for cash that we could use.  My mountain bike that hasn’t been touched since my brother used it for the summer of 2008.  It’s only been used in the city.  Similar to this…

https://www.trekbikes.com/ca/en_CA/bikes/mountain-bikes/cross-country-mountain-bikes/marlin/marlin-5/p/33136/?colorCode=orange_grey

3 guitar effect pedals that I don’t use.  I don’t play live/loudly anymore, so I don’t need them.  Hopefully I can get $50 for each of them since they were $120-$180 new, when I had no other expenses.

After selling/trading that stuff in, I’m pretty sure the guitar & amplifier aren’t going to happen.  I feel like I tried to hard & people are dumbfouded that I want something nice?  I guess I can’t have nice things?  OK, I’ll stay in my lane, I’ll play my role.  Researching & getting excited about the guitar & amplifier was a waste of my time!  I’d rather not have nice material things I enjoy, a $2200 guitar & a $329 amplifier, than be the source of hate for other people.

I don’t have money or influential power, I’m physically disabled.  I’ll help the world by pointing out it’s MANY problems.  Justin Trudeau will throw money at them & Donald Trump will tell everyone lies about how perfect everything is.  I’ll keep an inventory of what issues need to be dealt with & what the new ones coming in are.  Everyone else, wake up the Federal leaders that were elected to do this sort of job.  Wake them up peacefully or they might hide in a bunker & lie about it!

Maybe if I didn’t care so much, I wouldn’t be so INCREDIBLY disappointed?  The news really bummed me out this week.

Sorry to disappoint anyone but there’s also no video of me playing guitar on the Facebook site for this blog.  I did one on Monday & didn’t post it because it was terrible.  I have played hundreds of times before cancer, but not really since.  I’m an idiot!  I’ll post some photos & a video of my ordered guitar when it gets here.  I don’t need a perfectionist to dissect my mediocre guitar playing on social media.  That’s not fun for me.  Maybe on my personal page sometime?  For now I’ll post a video that I watch more often than I should because it’s VERY well done & it makes me smile!

 

YAY new “Lamb of God” day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

“I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-David Grohl 

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Chris

“Listen to each other” –Ellen Degeneres

LAST LENGTHY GUITAR CHAT NOW THAT I’VE DECIDED

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I fell asleep to “Coheed and Cambria” the album “Good Apollo I’m Burning Star IV, Vol. 1 – From Fear through the Eyes of Madness”

I exercised to “Lamb of God” the album “Ashes of the Wake”

 

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I’ve been mostly inside when there is no pandemic for the last 6 years.  I say I want to do something & people are tired from work & would rather not.  I’d need a ride if I was to go anywhere.  I complain & am told that’s just the way it is.  Now everyone has been living my life for 2 ½ months because of a global pandemic/virus & because its summer they must get outside since it’s nice out and they’ve been inside for too long?  Let me repeat what I am told when I want to go outside “THAT’S JUST THE WAY IT IS”.  You could sacrifice one summer for numerous others or enjoy this summer & potentially die “That’s just the way it is”.  Right now I have no desire to go outside.  Is it really that hard to stay in the home you bought to live in and do anything you please in that home?  Maybe it’s me but I REALLY don’t understand it?

It’s Sunday & I’m still seriously tired & sore from last week.  Really windy today, I’ve been able to hear the wind since I woke up early this morning!

I admit that I changed after cancer, how could I not since it was BRAIN cancer.  Am I right most of the time?  No, & I don’t need to be.  Some people are saying to get a tricycle instead of a guitar.  I look at it this way.

My point is right now everybody wants to get out since they’ve been stuck inside, that’s temporary.  When everyone’s back to a somewhat normal routine that desire will fade, and I’ll be in the same spot.  I’m sure I’ll be spending more time indoors playing guitar than I will be outdoors using a tricycle I have no desire for.  This isn’t an “Oh feel sorry for me?  I’m stuck inside all of the time” sob story, I’ve adapted to this now and I’m fine with it.  I was a guy, I got cancer, then a jerk, now I’m trying to evolve to the person I was before cancer.  Now I’m supposed to change on a dime because the weather changed?

I mentioned using guitar hack number 5 from this video last Tuesday…

…it works really well!  Instead of drinking all of that beer & feeling bloated.  We found a pack of 25 sealers/gaskets on amazon for $6.19.  Drink what you like & now you know where to get cheap, reliable strap locks.  I’ll have more than enough to share with friends.

My final purchase will be a PRS SE or S2 for sure.  I’m hoping for the S2 McCarty 594 or the backup of the aqua SE by the time I buy it, if there isn’t, we’ll have some extra cash for a rainy day.  If it wasn’t 90% different from anything I have, there wouldn’t be as much “desire” for it.  I’ve finally set up a monthly budget in order to save for this I can already see a few things I can eliminate spending money on.

I went over the specs on the 2 guitars & made a pros vs. cons list.  For what I’d like it was a “landslide” for the S2 McCarty 594 in the Whale Blue colour.  So here’s the guitar I have ordered, & my future order of the S2 McCarty 594.  If you thought I was excited before, you should see me now that I’ve made a decision & have a goal!  Yes, they’ll sound different, that’s the intent.

S2 Custom 22 semi-hollow (ordered)

https://www.prsguitars.com/index.php/electrics/model/s2_custom_22_semi_hollow_2020    The colour I’m getting is different than in the video & my pickups (85/15) will not have a cover over them.

S2 McCarty 594   (saving for it)

https://www.prsguitars.com/index.php/electrics/model/s2_mccarty_594

SE Paul’s guitar

https://www.prsguitars.com/index.php/electrics/model/se_pauls_guitar_2020  (backup for the S2 McCarty 594 if it goes out of production)

So I’m hoping to place an order for the S2 McCarty 594 by late 2021 if not mid-late 2022 & it should arrive about 4 month after, unless there is a delay as there is with my current S2 semi-hollow which was to be here in April, then delayed until late August & then the virus/quarantine hit, so I’m not sure when it will arrive?  When it gets here is fine as long as nobody has to risk their health in making & shipping a guitar.  As for the price difference, it just means I’ll be saving longer for it & because it’s in the S2 line, I’ll have to wait for it to be made.

For guitar players without locking tuners or locking nuts, if you’re not stringing your guitar this way, I highly recommend it now that I’ve tried it!  Go to the 4:00 minute mark unless you need to see how to remove your existing strings.  Works on any type of guitar or bass!

WOW!  Young drummer drumming along to “Royal Blood” (band from England, drummer & bass player/singer)

https://twitter.com/Nandi_Bushell/status/1261979140686831618?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw%7Ctwcamp%5Etweetembed%7Ctwterm%5E1261989903568642050&ref_url=https%3A%2F%2Floudwire.com%2F10-year-old-girl-drummer-royal-blood-out-of-the-black%2F

You would think that now that I know what guitar will satisfy my desires I’d stop looking at guitars.  I’m done BUYING guitars, I’ll still look, probably not nearly as much, but it’s a hobby.  I like to see/hear what other players are into and why?

I didn’t get a lot of feedback on Friday so I checked out Phil McKnight on www.youtube.com.  He owns a guitar store, can do anything to fix a guitar, if not build one from scratch, & he did the review of Korean made vs. American made.  For guitar players I highly recommend checking out these channels on www.youtube.com Robert Baker, Rob Chapman (owner of Chapman guitars in the UK), “Music is Win” by Tyler Larson & “Know your Gear” by Phil McKnight!

 

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“Be kind to one another”-Ellen Degeneres

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I fell asleep to “Barenaked Ladies” the album “Gordon”

I exercised to “Chromeo” the album “Head Over Heels”

 

I REALLY need to stop watching/reading videos & reviews on this SE model PRS!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QHrn3qpout8 “A breakthrough in pickup design”

“…huge P 90 sound…” BONUS right there!  These pickups don’t have the LOUD annoying hum that vintage P90 pickups are known for.

P90 double coil pickups for guitars were developed by Gibson in 1946.  They’re known for having a LOUD hum.  After that multiple double coil pickups were created without the hum and are now called _______ Humbuckers

The TCI pickups are only available in the guitars above.  I’m a casual fan of John Mayer’s music although he is a great guitarist “Born & Raised” is a GREAT album.  If he & Paul Reed Smith were involved in creating these pickups, I’m all in!

Yeah, I’m streaming music now & cutting back on whatever I can to get this SE aqua PRS.  I’ve researched & this is the best bang for my cash, & it has the different bells & whistles I’m looking for.  Hopefully within 2 or 3 years I’ll be able to get one, if they’re still making them?  Kim’s undecided if she wants to go on a trip.  If she decides she wants to, at least I’ll have some cash to help out.  Sure the TCI “S” pickups in the SE model don’t sound exactly the same as the TCI pickups in the Core model, but a Core model is WAY over any amount I could think of for a guitar.  Like a minimum of $4900 + tax!!!!!!!??????

SE Paul's Guitar - Aqua

I continue to look at other guitars, but nothing measures up to this one!  I’ve looked at Washburn, Gibson, Epiphone, Fender, Squier, Jackson, ESP, LTD, Yamaha, Music Man, Guild, Gretsch, Dean, Indio, Godin, Warmoth, Peavy, Ibanez, B.C. Rich, Chapman, Kiesel, Charvel, Tokai, Sahana, companies I’ve never heard of from places I’ve never heard of, & after all of that searching & researching I’m sticking with PRS.  The others aren’t bad by any means but I can’t play more than 6 electric guitars, so it might as well be the right one.  PRS, while expensive, have won me over as a company that pays close attention to detail.

Despite all of this talk about a future guitar purchase, I am SUPER PUMPED about the guitar I ordered in January with 85/15 “S” pickups.  PRS reproduced a pickup built in 1985 exactly & mass produced for certain guitars in 2015 hence 85/15 “S”.  The “S” just means they’re made in the oversea factory, which I believe is in Indonesia now.

https://www.prsguitars.com/index.php/electrics/model/s2_custom_22_semi_hollow_2020

Want to know why certain types of wood are chosen for certain parts of a guitar build?  Pull this video to the 8:40 minute mark and let Mr. Paul Reed Smith take you to school with a wooden xylophone!

Maple and mahogany are likely the most expensive woods used.  The SE line has a paper thin amount of maple, S2 line has ¼ inch, & the uber expensive Core line has ½ inch of maple on the top of the body.  The maple is baked in an oven @ 350F to remove any fluid from the wood, it is then glued to the body made of mahogany, then cut to the shape.

https://www.long-mcquade.com/124878/Guitars/Electric-Guitars/Paul-Reed-Smith/SE-Paul-s-Guitar—Aqua.htm

I just had a FANTASTIC idea!  The “Paul’s Guitar” SE costs $1300 + tax in Canada.  If all of you BEAUTIFUL & WONDERFUL people send me $5 I’ll be well on my way to getting this guitar!  I’m so SMRT!  Subscribers & casual readers feel free to pitch in!  My website tells me I have 207 subscribers, I’m quite positive the subscriber amount is far less (180?), so send in the cash!   I can’t even type it with a straight face!  HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!  Keep your money!

Sunday evening I realized I need to kick this guitar stuff up a notch!  The first time I learned was because of “Foo Fighters”-“The Colour & the Shape” album.  I learned about 10/13 songs.  I’ve already got 2 ½ down, might as well learn the rest of the album & a few other songs.  I just need to focus on smaller portions of a song & put them together.  Intro, verse, chorus, bridge, solo, & the outro.  Learn each part & put it together.  Finish one or two songs, play them through each session & learn another.  Foo Fighters are great for learning rhythm & more!  Here I come!  This likely won’t happen as fast as I’d like it to, but it’s the most familiar stuff to me.  It’s not a matter of knowing what I’m doing, it’s more strengthening the muscles I need to do it.  The more I learn, the easier the next song becomes to learn.

I could be bitter & angry that I can’t do something I love as well as I used to be able to.  Being that upset & angry would get me nowhere.  I know that if I work at it, it’ll eventually come to me.  How do I know?  I said I was going to learn this song…

…as of Saturday I have the main riff & verse down.  It took me longer than I thought but I made it happen & it was completely new to me.  You’ve got more time than you’ll ever have (unless you have young kids), you can be angry that you’re stuck inside or use your time to focus on something positive & productive.  Whatever you end up doing, the choice is up to YOU.

In order to make some type of segue to the following Covid-19 stuff.  We’re all being told repeatedly to stay indoors, stay 6 or more feet away from others, & wash our hands.  You know what gets my hand muscles loose & ready to play guitar?  Washing my hands with warm soapy water!

Other than that, let’s get real for a bit.  Covid-19 is EVERYWHERE!  I very rarely listen to the radio.  I turned it on while sitting in the vehicle waiting for Kim & there was nothing but Covid-19 news.  I’m really tired of being told to stay inside, but I understand the need to get that out into the world.  There are likely numerous people who disobey the rules.  We could all sit around & call them names or hope they realize that they’re not just putting themselves at risk, but so many others as well.

I know it’s odd for most people to go with very little human contact & it can really bum a person out.  Almost everyone has a cell phone, a tablet, internet, face time, skype, zoom, etc.  If you’ve got it, you wanted it, now use it.  I thought nobody wanted to talk to anybody anymore “I’ll text you”.  Good luck, I don’t have a lot of that stuff, I don’t want it.  I call people or email them to see how they’re doing.  A lot of people have all of these ways to contact and interact with others but everyone’s depressed without human contact.  Might as well use what you have.

Remember that despite the efforts of others, your mood & attitude all boil down to what YOU make of the situation you’re in.  This is your time to decide if you can make it better for you & those around you or bring everyone around you down.  A friend, companion, spouse, therapist, etc. they can give you the tools to achieve what you want.  In the end YOU have to put those tools to use & make a difference to yourself.

Donald Trump estimates 100,000 – 240,000 deaths in America.  No one wants to see that or anywhere near that amount of deaths.  To avoid this & save lives is EXACTLY why everyone should listen to the health officials.

TO BE CLEAR I AM NOT A HEALTH OFFICIAL!  LISTEN TO THE ACTUAL PROFESSIONALS!

I mentioned that “I don’t want a guitar slapped together in a panic”.  More importantly I meant to say that I don’t want to see the death toll rise for any reason or excuse.  I can wait for a guitar, life is FAR more important!  My guitar was ordered on January 15th, it’ll get hear eventually.

Everybody wants instant gratification, I’m just as guilty of that as anyone.  My guitar was supposed to be here this month, as of March 2nd it was delayed until August.  I’m positive that with this virus stuff it’ll be delayed even more.  I’d like it to be here already, I’ll likely appreciate it more when it gets here because I’ve had to wait that much longer.  I know they have my order & waiting won’t hurt me.

Kim went to get groceries on the weekend.  I can’t tell you what life is like out there?  As the day progressed Kim’s mood went down.  She’s the cheerful optimistic one in this relationship.  It really started to bother her and I could understand why as she told me about the protocol at the grocery store.  All I could do was hold her.  Probably didn’t help that we finished “The Morning Show” on Apple TV+.  Great show, sad ending.

Kim, Brewster & I went for a drive on Sunday evening to roll down the windows & get some fresh air, made a HUGE difference.

KEEP YOUR CHIN UP!!!!  IT’LL GET WORSE BEFORE IT GETS BETTER.   

 

I’ve got a handful of album releases I’m waiting for this year.  There are 2 that have release dates.  “Trivium” – “What the Dead Men Say” on April 24th & “Lamb of God” – “Lamb of God” on May 8th!  My sister-in-law’s birthday, followed by our 15th Anniversary, & then a Friday with some new “Lamb of God”

More album release dates to come that I’m waiting for anxiously!

“Testament” released a new album on Friday, I need to give it a good listen still.  I’ve listened to it sporadically over the weekend and really like it (Thrash Metal).  I don’t post reaction thoughts though, I still need to digest this one a bit!

 

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Chris

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