DEPRESSION SUCKS

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We’re done with painting our suite, other than behind the stove.  As of Monday all of the light fixtures are up.  As of Friday I avoided this room until late Sunday.  We didn’t paint this room so it still has blue/grey paint & the bulbs in the fixture are too yellow.  What do you get when you mix blueish walls with yellow lights?  Baby food mushed peas for a wall colour.  I’ve been SUPER depressed when I’d try to come in here, & leave within 20 minutes.  We changed the bulbs Sunday night & what a HUGE difference.  The rest of the suite has bulbs that are WAY TOO “yellow” and I regret changing any & all of them.  Fixtures look great, bulbs are nothing but “ugly” & immediately put me in a bad mood!

I can come in here again & play guitar for hours again.  While we’re on the topic of guitars, I realized something I didn’t want to know.  I can’t purchase the last 2 guitars I’d like to get.  I was hoping to buy the PRS S2 McCarty 594 followed by the Schecter Tempest.  I don’t want to settle on just another guitar, nor do I want to research a viable plan B.

If I did the math right I’d be able to save enough cash to order the PRS S2 McCarty 594 in early December of 2024 and pay for it when it gets here in 2025.  Meanwhile I’ll be purchasing NOTHING so I can save $5000 a year until I’m 50 & not touch that money until I’m 60.  After the McCarty 594 I was going to save for the less expensive Schecter Tempest, not gonna happen.  The little bit of money I have saved will go into my RDSP now.  Good thing I left the S2 McCarty 594 until the end??!!!???  Most times I’m not so SMRT, as shown once again!  Truth be told I’d be sad to not have any of the guitars I have, but I’m pretty lucky to have any in my possession!

https://www.schecterguitars.com/guitars/custom/tempest-custom-vwht-1-detail

The plan for our renovations is to try to sell this place in 2022.  If it doesn’t sell, or more likely that we can’t find a place to move, we’ll stay here & won’t have to change anything.  Which kind of sucks since we don’t have a spare bedroom here.

We’re 5 years late to the party but we finally watched “Hacksaw Ridge” on Saturday.  I had no clue that it was based on a true story that was a nice surprise!

This weekend youtube guitar channels were dead, Facebook was awkwardly quiet, I don’t watch NFL football at all, & I didn’t have any desire to be in this room with yellow lights until later on Sunday night.  I was REALLY bummed out all day Saturday & ended up sleeping for 3 hours in the afternoon.  I slept in Sunday until 11:00 am, then cooked my food for the week in the dark because the lights are just offensively yellow to me, slept for a bit on the couch & come Sunday night, 4 of our 8 channels were showing the Super Bowl & there was nothing I wanted to watch on the 5 streaming platforms we have.  My weekend was DEAFENINGLY quiet.

Kim disagrees with my thoughts for my money going into my RDSP, we’ll see what happens when I have to add $5000 to it at the end of the year?

Hopefully with so much of our renovations done we can put some of this stuff where it belongs & fill the recycling bin with empty light fixture boxes?  I really don’t like things out of place for too long.  This place has been a mess since December 26th.

All day Monday I was just trying to stay awake.  I forced myself to exercise & then stay awake.  I slept so much on the weekend that I was awake until 2:00 am Sunday night.  I slept REALLY well last night, got dressed & turned on the lights BOOM instant mood killer!  I’ll probably be in bed avoiding the light bulbs?  Now all of the exact same people are telling me I’m over reacting to the light bulbs!  It’s called a TRIGGER!  That same group of people told me 7 years ago when I was told to get over my anxiety and “just get over it” when I was presented with a lifelong say at home Covid like situation.  I don’t want to be in my home now, but I can’t go anywhere.

Yep, I’ve been listening to “Foo Fighters” & “Nothing but Thieves” since Friday, & no I didn’t get brain cancer again!

 “I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-David Eric Grohl    

We’re all Global Citizens,

Chris