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Exercise total for 4 days. 

500 Curls w/ 20 pound dumb bells

300 Shoulder raises/Chest presses w/ 10 pound dumb bells

600 Crunches

600 Leg lifts

200 Squats   

300 Back flexes

1:20 hour of yoga over 2 days

Nice short week.  Feeling good & detoxed from Thanksgiving.  Food I don’t typically eat & I had a glass of wine as well as a gin beverage of some type, good at the time but nice to get out of my system.  Sorry about the typos in any posts, my bad.

I still don’t like meeting new people the way I look now in a wheelchair with an iPatch.  I feel very awkward, socially anyways.  I was outgoing for a bit after high school.  Even had a bit of self-confidence for a while.

I had another shocking/pleasantly surprising moment during my exercises Wednesday morning.  I was about to start my squats & figured I try to just stand still with my hands a few inches away from my transfer pole.  Turned out to be the longest I’ve been able to stand on my own.  I’m pretty sure I’ll never walk on my own again, but that was a great event for me that morning! 

I try not to watch CNN & Fox news channel isn’t free with our cable package.  We did have a free trial period though.  I’m a Canadian that has seen both broadcasts.  I’m not a fan of either one even though I side with the left/democrats/CNN.  The 2 stations are further away from each other than I could ever imagine.  CNN tends to twist the knife in their favor.  Fox news seems to be fiction grabbed from dream land & reported as news.  Personally, I have no say on November 3rd.  I’d vote for a cold serving of liver before I’d even consider voting for Donald Trump.  Can’t say that I was ever a fan of his even before he became President.  What exactly has he done for Americans in a positive matter?  Has he ever put American citizen’s safety/health a priority?

He’s done some terrible things and denied them all.  He was involved & has been photographed in many of these situations that he has, conveniently, forgot.  He’s lied, cheated, withheld information, he’s ignorant & arrogant.  Even in Canada I’m tired of the lies & misinformation.  I not only have the effects of cancer & depression, I now have “Trump Fatigue”.   

I can’t vote in the USA Federal election since I’m a Canadian living in Canada, if I was in Russia I assume my opportunity to vote on November 3rd would increase.  Canada shares a border with America & I feel as though I’m too close to Donald Trump.  I don’t want a dictator for a neighbor.  So for the 10 or so Americans reading this, PLEASE VOTE HIM OUT OF THE WHITE HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!    I’m not OK with 221,180 American deaths (at the time of this writing) due to Covid & I don’t think anybody should feel different.

There’s a provincial election happening in Saskatchewan too.  Far less coverage of our election on the local news than the mess going on in the USA.  Finally on Wednesday evening news I watched a Saskatchewan Provincial debate and what did I learn?  Nothing!  A lot of yapping about what the other party can’t do.  You’d think most politicians would know by now that voters already know what the current party can’t/won’t do.  I’d like to know what a different leadership can do & what changes I’ll see.  Of course there was no talk about people with disabilities, as usual.  I’m supposed to vote today and I have no clue who to vote for?

Brewster had a visit to the vet last night.  He was already maxed out on pills for his heart murmur & things got worse for the little guy.  He has some type of disease that I’m not even going to pretend to spell & he’s on another medication for a bladder infection.  Between blood, urine, vet visit & medication, then we find out he has a bladder infection, his kidneys aren’t great, & some disease I’m not even going to try to spell.  We’re both a little stressed & worried about our little guy.  I’m just glad he’s not in any pain at this point, still worried about him A LOT!  The little guy is priority number 1 more than usual!  I didn’t sleep well, but Brewster did.  He was up & bombing around the place this morning.  Pretty sure we just spent a little more than a mortgage payment at the vet last night, we needed all of his heart pills again too.

I went deep this week & decided to learn the guitar for this song.  I’ll be working at this for a while.  I’ve got most of the pattern down, now I need to get it up to tempo.  I’m done picking songs to learn, I have a lot of tabs bookmarked to learn.

Sorry, LANGUAGE!!!!!!!!

If a person wants to wear any kind of shirt with a logo, band, or anything symbolic on it, I don’t care.  When you give it any attention, it’s free advertising for a brand!

I haven’t listened to this album in a long time.  I should change that!  Rick Beato will forget more than I’d ever hope to know.

Well I did it & again I didn’t like it.  Too many glaring mistakes.  We made 2 videos of me playing guitar, one with my Epiphone Explorer & the other on my new PRS S2 Custom 22 semi-hollow.  Kim noticed that I just instantly tense up with a camera in the room. 

I should mention that the video of “For all the cows” is with my PRS which I had setup with every string tuned down a ½ step, flat.  The song is not written that way.  I just like to play in that tuning. Eb, Ab, Db, Gb, Bb, Eb instead of the usual E, A, D, G, B, E.  They’ll both be on the Facebook page!  As for the actual playing, anxiety is at maximum & after 9 tries, I figured that was enough.

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I had to listen to some “Foo Fighters”, “Alter Bridge”, & “Big Wreck” after writing all of this.

I fell asleep to “Foo Fighters” the album “Concrete & Gold”, followed by “Big Wreck” the album “The Pleasure & the Greed”

I exercised to “Alter Bridge” the album “One Day Remains”


I’m back to it this week.  I guess my body either needed a break or took longer to recover than I had anticipated?

Little bit past the age of 14 human years & as of this past Friday night Brewster’s on heart medication every 12 hours & a humidifier from has been ordered.  We needed a humidifier for the guitars but this sped up the process.

A little after 9:00 pm on Friday we were watching TV.  Kim stopped everything to listen to Brewster, who was on the floor in his bed by her.  His breathing was weird, he sounded very congested.  Kim took him to the vet ASAP.  He had X-Rays done, temperature, & blood work.  His heart is enlarged, it’s pushing on his trachea causing him to cough, & his congestion was due to fluid in his lungs.  He has 30 days of medication for the fluid in his lungs, then the rest of his life on heart medication.  He goes back in 3 weeks for a checkup.

They didn’t get home until close to midnight.  I stayed up by the phone hoping all was OK.  All is well, he’s getting older though.

I’ve decided against upgrading my guitar amplifier.  20 watts through an 8” speaker is already louder than I’ll need now that I play at home.  Being in a condo at the moment prevents me from turning the volume up past 2 ½ out of 10.  I turned it up to 3/10 one day to see what one of the guitars could do.  Even that was too loud for me!  Amplifiers are much more efficient than they were when I was playing live.

I don’t like having a guitar I don’t play.  I have one I don’t play for a few reasons, I’d sell it to get a 35th anniversary PRS SE McCarty which is the cheapest PRS guitar built overseas but still $1300 Canadian + tax, if I lived in the USA it would be around $500-$800.  I prefer the colour on this but it’s not happening for many years if it ever does.  I assume these won’t have another appearance either.

I RARELY, if EVER, play the semi-hollow Fender Telecaster.  Very much made for blues or country music which I really don’t listen to or play.  It used to be all about the Gibson or Fender brands.  PRS or Paul Reed Smith has become well known for the company’s attention to detail & excellent craftsmanship after 35 years.  Gibson & Fender have both gone bankrupt in the last decade but have comeback without really changing anything.

I’ll be getting my 2nd guitar of the year in August (hopefully), & I’m still learning/playing the 7 string quite a bit.  The 35th Anniversary SE has totally different electronics from anything I own though.  Different pickups and 16 different electronic combinations/sounds.  I’m not going to have $1200 just sitting around to spend on a guitar so it’s likely a ‘NEVER GOING TO AFFORD IT’ situation.  I’ve looked at other guitars that just don’t suit my desires.  Guitars I’m not into or guitars I’d not play since they’re similar to what I have or will have by the end of August, which now seems “So far away”.  I wouldn’t just buy a guitar for the sake of buying a guitar!

A trip & hopefully a house have to happen first anyways.  If we can’t find a house this year, I give up on the house idea for a few years (not buy a guitar), Kim’s cool with taking a break from it too for a bit.

The Fender Telecaster is a treasured piece of art here & I keep it for sentimental value.  It was given to me by one of my very close friends while I was in my rehabilitation program.  I love the body shape of a Telecaster.  I love the dark wood stain body with the pearl pick guard.  It’s also autographed to me by one of my 3 favourite artists, Ian Thornley of “Big Wreck”.

I find the neck of a Fender very uncomfortable.  The fret board is maple like the rest of the neck, the tuning pegs are odd & I’m just not a fan of the single coil pickups in it.  I can get the “rock” sound out of it, but I really have to adjust the way I play it.  It looks so good though, for that and sentimental reasons it’s hung on the wall as a piece of art that never gets played.  It’s a guitar I can’t part with.

Fender makes about 9 different neck radiuses.  I’ve tried 4 & haven’t liked one yet.  It is a VERY nice looking guitar though!  Ideally I’d get a different neck bolted on with different tuners & different fret board, I’d also have a Humbucker pickup in the bridge position.  At that point I might as well buy an SE for what it would cost?  I’ve convinced myself that as a stay at home guitarist, making no income, a PRS SE is unaffordable.  I’ll have to hear my PRS S2 first to see IF I’d ever consider getting another guitar in the VERY distant future. I’d look at a PRS SE first, the most affordable PRS on the market & likely shy away due to the price tag.

Dave Grohl, Ian Thornley, Foo Fighters & Big Wreck have been my favourite musicians & bands since they started.  Myles Kennedy & Alter Bridge have been added to the top of my list when Alter Bridge released their first album in 2004.

I watched a youtube video with lead guitarist, Mark Tremonti, of Alter Bridge who has a signature PRS model.  He gives a guitar away to an audience member at the end of every live show now.  I just want the opportunity to see them live!

So why didn’t I order the PRS SE 35th Anniversary McCarty?  I figured if I’m going to buy what is likely my last guitar, I want something completely different.  What features do I not have that the PRS I ordered does?  It is semi-hollow, the different pickups split between humbucker & single coil pickups, it has a tremolo bridge & bar, it’s a different yet distinct body style, yellow to red sunburst finish, & it has locking tuners.

The guitar I ordered is not a super expensive “Core” model or a least expensive SE model.  It’s in their S2 line which is built at the American factory with a few cheaper parts from the factory oversea, where the SE is built.  PRS implemented this S2 line to have a guitar at a different price point.

Hopefully I’ll find a part time online job in the meantime, something simple like data entry?  I’d still like to exercise in the mornings for a couple of hours.

As far as a house goes we have to sell first & find a place for us in a set amount of time.  I really don’t see this working out in our favor?  May destiny prove me wrong please?  We’re only looking for a one level bungalow in Regina with 3 or 4 bedrooms, it has to be out there somewhere? 1 or 2 of the spare rooms would be used as an office(s). Kim wants an attached garage so my wheelchair doesn’t have to go through the snow, & I can’t work on finishing a basement, so that would be ideal.  As far as I can tell that doesn’t exist in Regina?

We did put up some artwork in the living room.  8 vinyl Foo Fighters albums in frames.  Just awaiting the delivery of the “Wasting Light” record.  Hopefully it comes this week?  This album was released in April of 2011 as I was beginning to walk with my walker, well relearning how to walk, very shortly after I learned how to stand in my rehabilitation program while holding on to something for balance.

As for concerts, they’d better be in Regina, Moose Jaw, or Saskatoon, Saskatchewan.  Foo Fighters & Alter Bridge in Alberta, Saskatchewan, or Manitoba.  I’d like to see TOOL in either Alberta or Manitoba this year but I saw them 3 times on their last tour, 2006, 2007, & in Regina in 2010.  Alter Bridge are looking at doing some shows in western Canada for the first time, fingers crossed!

I’ll shut up about guitar.  It’s the only hobby I can do physically other than TV, movies, & listening to music.  I could ramble about Blue Jays baseball if you prefer but I can see that going over like a lead balloon!


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80 Curls w/ 20 pound dumb bells

40 Shoulder raises/Chest presses w/ 10 pound dumb bells

200 Crunches

200 Leg lifts

100 Squats while balancing on my toes.

100 Back flexes

No walking or stairs this week.

1 day of yoga


I fell asleep to “Haley Williams” the album “Petals for Armor” EP, followed by “Royal Blood” the album “Royal Blood”


I still felt a bit nauseous Wednesday but went on with my exercises.  I’ve managed to keep food & water down since Sunday but as of Wednesday I still had the chills followed by intense sweating.  I think this climate change thing is SERIOUSLY messing with me.  Is it gonna be hot or cold out?  It’s February in Regina it should be -15 Celcius not +1 Celcius.  I can’t wait until its +12 Celcius outside so I can light up the A/C like nobody’s business, sit in the dark, play guitar, and watch baseball.

Really hadn’t recovered from being sick last weekend.  Thought I’d make it through the week though.  Woke up late am Thursday had breakfast & went back to bed.  Nothing in me at all.  I figured I’d rather be productive than just going through the motions & say “Good enough”.  Quality over quantity.

The guitar I ordered is another example of quality over quantity.  This video shows the difference between a lesser expensive PRS guitar & a top of the line PRS.  The one I ordered is somewhere in the middle of that price range, but still made at the American factory in Maryland.  I could have bought 1 mass produced $700 guitar & maybe a couple more in the distant future, or get a very nice, well made, fairly expensive guitar.  I went with the quality of the product here.  I have a few $700 guitars & they’re great, I have no complaints about them.  If this is going to be my last guitar purchase, I might as well go off with a bang!

I’m ecstatic about the guitar coming in April, bad timing though.  Brewster just got back from the veterinarian Wednesday night & now we see how much money we can squeeze out of our rock.  Vet bills, heart medication for the rest of his life, taxes, guitar, more vet bills, dog teeth removed, etc.  Yet our house is still for sale & that possibility is always looming in the background.  If I could cancel my guitar to free up some cash it would be done already.  Where is the money going to come from?  We’ll space it out as much as we can over the next 3 or 4 months.  His dental work isn’t a rush, but his heart medication is.

Breaking news, Thursday afternoon, regarding my guitar order, a blessing in disguise really.  Got an update moments ago.  My guitar has been delayed until late August.  Sounds like they have to make more guitars to fill the orders?  I expected a delay after hearing Paul Redd Smith saying they were flooded with orders in January at the trade show in California.  What this means for us is, more time for us to spread out our cash over a few more months.  Ended up being the best outcome for the situation.

Woke up late again today.  Had breakfast & I’m still aching & tired.  I’s hoping this is just my body’s way of saying “Too much!  I’m not used to this & I need a break”.  I’d like to get back on track next week.  I’ve even been too lazy to pick up a guitar & play with any productive effort.  I messed around on my acoustic for a bit since it weighs the least.  Waste of a week!


New “Trivium” April 24th!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Is it just me or does that guitar he’s playing on the couch look familiar?  Oh, hello, it’s directly to my left!

“Lamb of God” May 8th!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I didn’t even realize the “Haley Williams” EP was out already!!!!


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Music throughout the weekend. “Jimmy Eat World”, “Alter Bridge”, “Big Wreck”, “TOOL”, “Pink”.

We took Brewster to the Vet Friday afternoon, he’ll be 14 on January 31st. He started coughing, 3 or 4 smoker coughs in a row followed by a gag, that’s what it sounds like. They did some X-rays & his heart is only a bit enlarged with a serious murmur. The X-rays have been sent to a cardiologist & we should hear back either on Sunday or Monday. There’s a combo of 3 medications he’ll eventually need, likely one at the moment. Not the expensive one yet thank goodness. I wanted to make sure he wasn’t in pain, I thought it was more urgent than it actually is. We knew all of this was happening & assumed it was a right now thing. He’s getting old, & this stuff happens. We caught it in the early stages, so he’ll likely start on a cheaper medication Monday. The expensive one works out to $75/month YEESH! No price tag on his life though, as long as he’s not in pain.

He needs to put on some weight too. He’s not eating much at all unless he’s spent the day at doggy daycare. He loves wet dog food, it smells terrible. I mix some of his dry food with some wet food for him twice a day, then he’ll eat it. Straight wet food does NOT agree with his tummy.

I’ve put the house hunting on the back burner. We have to sell our place first before we can offer on another. This is a wait & see situation, no point in stressing about something until it happens. It’s not on the back burner really, I’ve just figured there’s not much point in worrying about what I can’t do anything about.  A ton of new/empty condos in Regina, lot’s of supply, not nearly as much demand.
We have 3 places in mind. One is at the top of our price range & we’d need to see, in person, how my wheelchair fits. Another is priced higher than our range, but a possibility & the 3rd is a fantasy that would likely need a pile of work

Kim tells me she’s getting me a Christmas present. I said keep the cash & use it for something more important. She was going to give me money to start saving up for a guitar, I found 2 I’d like but don’t need. A house eventually & Brewster are far more important. The $2378 + tax for 2 guitars can wait, if I started now it could still take me a few years. I need to build up muscle in my fretting hand first anyways. It’s weird, I’m a beginner that knows too much. My mind is ahead of my hands.

Life in general feels that way at the moment. Most days my mind is racing to do things here, but I’m slowed down by being in a wheelchair & vice versa on other days when I get anxious to do something but have no energy.

I’ve been relearning guitar, so I learned the first time using a simple chord book & moved onto learning tab music. It tells you what fret & string to press down to play a chord, riff, or solo in a song. I know the chords & I know many songs. I’ve been using to learn this time & this is what I’ve learned. Every youtube individual has learned a different way. I learned in 2001, before youtube & after seeing all of these different ways to learn I’ve decided to relearn the way I need to. Relearn the 40+ songs I knew, I’m playing more by ear trying to relearn what I know & maybe I don’t do things properly but that’s how I play. As long as it sounds correct, I really don’t care what finger I’m using on which string. I am trying to use my pinky finger more than I used to though, gotta strengthen that finger!

The only thing I’ve seen on youtube about learning guitar which I somewhat agree with is ‘Buy nice gear’. All I need is a small practice amp, which I have. I bought it as a used amp from my brother, so it was reasonably priced & louder than I need. I don’t own a guitar over $1000 other than possibly the Fender signed by Ian Thornley of Big Wreck. I’ve shopped for 2 practical choices online, I don’t know if Long & McQuade sales people earn commission but if I end up buying one of the 2 someday it will be through Mr. Tim Roth of local metal heroes “Into Eternity”. Here are the links if you care to check them out?—Vintage-Sunburst.htm

A guitar can go up to $250,000, at least from what I’ve seen online? I don’t think it’s even near worth that much I doubt a guitar that much would be much different than a $3,000 guitar. If I had the cash, $2,000 would be the ultimate top price I’d even consider. I’ve played many live shows with a $600 guitar, & now I play at home. The guitars I chose are a “want” not a “need”. That’s why they are a last priority, under Brewster’s health & a house in that order.

Guitar was most of my Saturday, followed by the Roughrider game on TV in Edmonton. Yay, the Saskatchewan Roughriders won 27-24! Last game of the regular season next Saturday in Regina. My 2nd last game as a season ticket holder. There will be a home playoff game that I’ve/Kim has paid for already as of last December. (Way to go, hit the season ticket holders right at Christmas?!)

Just because I’m Canadian doesn’t mean I’m a hockey fanatic. I’m a hockey score board watcher. Saskatchewan doesn’t have a professional/NHL team. We have a junior hockey team in the Western Hockey League. The NHL heritage classic was this Saturday in Regina. An outdoor NHL game at the football stadium. If it involved either Edmonton &/or Montreal I would’ve inquired about using my season ticket seats for the game. The game is Calgary vs. Winnipeg, I’m out. I rarely watch hockey anyways. I only watch the Canadian Football League & the Toronto Blue Jays baseball team.

Today we are spending the day in the kitchen. I’ve boiled my eggs, Kim is making a lasagna for the week & when she’s done I’ll make a pitcher of vegetable juice.
TOOL almost started the studio on fire while recording the album “Fear Inoculum”
Yep, they released a new album on Friday, October 18th 2019. That makes 9 albums thus far. I have 5 of them. New album out the same day as a new “Alter Bridge” which I can’t stop listening to. “Jimmy Eat World” are a pop/punk band. More emphasis on the pop part, I guess guitar based pop with a slight punk/rock tilt is more appropriate? Anyways here are a few songs from their new album “Surviving”….

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