HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

Bring it on 2020, out with the old & in with the new!  I’ve slimmed down & this year I plan to put on muscle while doing more walking & stairs.  I’ve decided this year will be a game changer.  Will I be walking?  Not sure?

I’ve already made some changes to my exercises, which I’ll explain in the next week.  As for this site, it’s going to change as well.  2 posts a week, every Tuesday & Friday starting Friday, January 10th.  Life is getting busier so the blogging time will be shortened after the next 2 posts.

Big year ahead!  I’ll turn 40, our 15 year wedding anniversary is this year, mid life crisis guitar to be ordered in the summer & many goals set out for myself.  Realistic goals, not big dreams.

With all of that being said, I’ve already made most changes to my exercise.  No need to wait for the New Year.  I changed things last week when I thought about how to improve my exercise.  No I’m not adding to the repetition amounts.  I plan to work smarter by making things harder.

As for those that want to tell me I can’t or shouldn’t do things to better myself.  Save your breath, I’m not listening.  I’ll figure it out for myself, I’ll be 40 not 4 in January.

HAPPY NEW YEAR,

Chris

WEDNESDAY DECEMBER 18, 2019 (HOLIDAY UPDATE)

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I had no intension of taking a break, exercise wise, over the holidays.  I changed my mind after the week off in November.  My sleeping pattern does not like all of this stress.  So I was awake half of the night Sunday, slept in Monday, felt lazy & tired ended up doing nothing.  Went to bed at 9:30 pm Monday night.  Got up to pee at 2:40 am, couldn’t fall asleep.  Got out of bed @ 3:20 am and did some stuff in the kitchen quietly.  Felt really tired around 8:30 am, crawled in bed.  Showered, had lunch & it was 2:30 pm.

All of this is not good for me.  My mind hasn’t known how to relax in the last 3 years or so, & it’s getting worse.  When I was in my rehabilitation program I was severely depressed & was put on an anti-depressant/sleeping pill to combat the negative thoughts in my head so I could sleep.  I’m not having negative thoughts now, I just feel like I have so much to do, but my body doesn’t want to keep up.  With the house being listed, its holiday season, & I put stress on myself to get as much done in a day as possible, I’m tired, a bit grumpier than usual & generally feel like I’m just wasting days by not exercising.

I hate having our house listed.  I’m physically handicapped with no driver’s license but when someone wants to see our place, Brewster & I have to disappear for the 30-45 minutes someone’s here.  Much easier said than done.  My parents are in town until they go on a trip about a week in to the New Year.  Then Kim will have to get us out of here.  With her being on contract, she doesn’t like to take time off since she doesn’t get paid if she’s not at work.  With all of that going on I’m more stressed than ever.  I’m not depressed or crying (like I was in my Rehab program), however I do feel anxious all of the time.

I guess we can add the fact that my brother has another surgery coming up shortly after Christmas.  The first one wasn’t enough.  I worry about him too.  He had back surgery for bone spurs on his shoulders that were causing his arms & hands to go numb at random times, 5 months of disability & some of that doing physiotherapy.  He went back to work for 2 weeks of shortened shifts & he’ll be heading to Saskatoon for a 2nd surgery, this time through the front of his body, because the numbing sensation came back.  Between my dad, mom, brother, & I, we’ve all had some type of surgery.  My parents have both had eye surgeries, mom’s had one knee replaced & soon another, my brother is dealing with his back surgeries, & I’ve had 3 brain surgeries.

As for the house being on the market, at this point I’ve lost all hope of the stars aligning for us to sell & find a new (wheelchair accessible) place in Regina in our price range.  They’re completely gone at the moment.  Our contract is up on December 31st.  I told Kim “Do what you want.  I’m out, I’m not looking.  If I need to disappear, that’s not my problem.  I figure we could be here for 5 more years, & I just don’t care.  We have nowhere to move to.  The entire reason we put this place up for sale was for a forever home that sold 3 weeks after we hit the market.  The contract at that time was to remove our place from the market if our dream house sold, & it did.  I’m out.  I’m not going to stop you or our realtor from looking, I’ll willingly see a house you find, but I’m not searching for something that is likely not there at the moment.  I’ll start house hunting online again in March”.  We’ve lowered the price once & that’s as low as its going.

As of today it is 6 years to the day that we moved into this condo.  Nothing wrong with this place, we’re just much younger than the average resident here.  My parents are young & I’m guessing they’re younger than the average person here?  I’d like to move, but I don’t see things working out for us in the near future.

We signed our mortgage papers at the bank on Monday, my name is on it but Kim handles the money here.  I saw what our mortgage payment is each month, & I’m thinking that guitar I was going to order is better off at the factory.  Kim disagrees still?  I don’t know what I was thinking to begin with now.  I cancelled my football tickets for next year, which is what I’d prefer to happen in for many different reasons, then wanted to buy a really nice/moderately expensive guitar?  The guitar’s still up for discussion despite me having a decent portion of the money already.

Everyone’s Christmas gifts have been purchased & are wrapped under the tree.  That stress is over.  What’s bugging me now is that I have possibly 30 years of exercise to cram in ASAP.  Even then I’ll likely be using a walker.  I’m disappointing myself.  Especially if I’m sitting around, doing nothing but thinking of what I need to do.

As for eating & drinking over the holidays, not much has changed in that department.  We drink store bought non-alcoholic light egg nog.  I occasionally put it in the few coffees I have a week & I’ve had 2 glasses of ½ egg nog, ½ skim milk, with a shot of Kahlua.  After the 8(?) Holiday sweets I’ve had so far, I’ve determined they just make me feel sick & I don’t need them.  So I’m basically still drinking a minimum of 3 liters of water a day, 2 eggs a piece of fruit & homemade vegetable juice for breakfast, lettuce wraps w/Turkey deli meat for lunch & a small meal at supper.  I also have 3 small snacks a day.

In the spirit of trying to help people out I’m helping a couple people learn guitar with me.  I know what to do, just have to get my left hand used to it again.  No I’ve never charged anyone.  I was ‘teaching’ two friends before cancer, so I figured I’d help a couple people out again.  I don’t charge anyone because A) They’re friends/family   B) I’m just a singer that learned guitar to be more comfortable on stage, my knowledge is very limited.  I’m happy to say that I can tell that there’s progress every day.

I was always a rhythm guitarist, but I’ve been doing mostly individual finger exercises & different scale patterns on the guitar to strengthen my hand.  It helped!  Things are getting much better!  Figured out the main guitar riff for this, wasn’t able to play it before cancer, I probably didn’t try enough.

Right hand rhythm works fine, left hand fretting needs some work, but it’s getting there!  More guitar practice as things are becoming more familiar with it.  Practice on the acoustic then play it on the electric.

One good night of sleep & today I got up on time, had a good workout and was able to manage my time better!  I plan to keep exercising next week, it will likely be a day or 3 of shortened exercise, 25th & 26th anyways.

 

What have I been listening to?  Pretty much anything but Christmas/Holiday music.  Still just not ready for it?

 

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IT’S 11:30 PM ON SUNDAY DECEMBER 15TH

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I should have called this site “the ramblings of a brain cancer survivor”, probably would have cleared things up for everyone.  I’m writing this & I’m not even sure that I’ll post it.  I think I’ve turned into a person that can’t live without stress?

I’ll turn 40 on January 30th, so it’s not that far away, that’s not what bothers/worries me at all.  I don’t know if it’s the few sugary Christmas sweets I’ve had, the slight increase in alcohol over the weekend or the fact our house is still for sale?  Whatever it is, I feel about ready to vomit.  I’m guessing it’s the house.

We’ve had 2 recent viewings.  One on Thursday & another this afternoon.  We’re not expecting to hear anything until Monday or Tuesday.  Every time that someone sees the house my stomach just starts to twist & turn the minute I hear about it.  I start to think “I need to do this, this, this, that, this, etc.”  Then we make ourselves busy for the next 45 minutes & return after the viewing so I can start thinking again “Did we do this, this, this, that, that, etc.”  This could easily explain why I’m awake still & can’t fall asleep, yeah I’m on medication to slow my thoughts down in order to sleep at night.  It’s a bitch when I forget to take them on the very rare occasion.

It’s a newish condo, in really good condition.  We’re the original owners & I have a couple of ideas as to why it’s not selling, but I’m also not a realtor.  I’m guessing the biggest reason is there are roughly 1,000 brand new condos in Regina (a small city).  This isn’t “Field of Dreams”, “If you build it, they will come” it’s Regina.

Whatever happened to the theory of “supply & demand”?  We have too much supply & no demand.  Condos are built, nobodies coming.  I’ve never even taken simple economics?!?!

Our selling contract is up at the end of the month & at this point if it’s renewed or not, I couldn’t care less.  We’re going to the bank Monday, December 16th to renew our mortgage either way.  We’ve been on the market since late fall, & no offer despite the viewings we’ve had.  Every time we have a viewing, I worry myself sick.

I just checked online today that even if we sell the outlook of us finding a wheelchair accessible place has become INCREDIBLY slim, & they weren’t great before that.  I wish I was the type of person that didn’t worry about stuff so much.  I just want to throw up!  I was tired before & now I have a headache.  Stress &/or anxiety have become my middle name over the past 8 ½ years or so.  “Will I get cancer again?  What will happen if I do?  How will it all affect Kim and everyone else?  Did I do my exercises properly?  Did I practice this?  What should I work on tomorrow?  How long will this recovery thing take?  Will our place sell?  If it does where are we going to live?  Why isn’t there anything in our price range? Etc.”  I worry WAY too much!

Take your average holiday stress, add being stressed more often than not, and then add trying to sell your house with stuff piled up against that happening.  Once you do that, then you might be close to where I am?

Oh ya, I got a letter for another cancer check up with the doctor that calls me FAT.  I know what my response will be this time though “Thanks for noticing, do I have cancer?” “No?  Thanks, we’ll see you next time after I lose more weight, look like a skeleton & your body shaming me…….again.”

Great that I’ll have that appointment a week & a ½ after our 15th wedding anniversary!

I can deal with the wheelchair & eye patch thing.  After being given a 5-15% chance of coming out of a coma in 2008, when do these “routine checkups” stop, when do I get to live?  Am I going to be spinning my wheels forever?  Sure feels that way!

There’s a good chance that someone will give me crap for this, believe it or not.  That seems to be the normal reaction 75% of the time to anything I say or do, so I’m used to it now.

 

SORRY ABOUT THE LAME POST.  I TOLD YOU I’D BE BRUTALLY HONEST.

 

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MERRY CHRISTMAS, HAPPY HOLIDAYS, & ENJOY SOME TIME AWAY FROM WORK

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Let’s face it most people have lost sight of what Christmas is about, including me.  I’m a Christian so I can only speak about Christianity & Christian event, such as Christmas.  Right there I’ll admit I’m ignorant/uninformed regarding other Religions & none religious people.  What I’m about to say will could get me into trouble with others, but hear me out please.  We’re all atheists.  Why would I say that as a Christian who believes in God?  How many religions are there in the universe?  I don’t know.  Ricky Gervais (an atheist) explained it to Stephen Colbert (a Catholic).  This explains a portion of what I mean.

So, with that being explained & feel free to argue either side of it.  Why do people exchange gifts at Christmas?  Initially it was to celebrate the birth of Jesus, then it was Jesus’ birthday.  Now that all of us have lost sight of that, people just assume it’s what you do.  Spend money on others.  Some gifts have already been purchased this season.  These are my thoughts for the future.

I know this won’t reach everyone.  How about next Christmas we all save our money, spend it on ourselves or save it for whatever reason & just show up for others.  Maybe there’s a person or group you haven’t spoken with recently that you’d like to spend time with?  Show up, be where you’re needed or would like to be.  It won’t cost you anything more than possibly travel expenses.  You won’t lose anything, just contact whoever however & ask if you can meet with them.  It’s not religious, anyone can meet with someone at any time.  As a society we’ve already lost sight of the ceremonial Christmas act, & whatever spirit (Life in general included) flows through everyone, just show up & be there with someone.  If you want to bring a gift great!  If you don’t that’s OK too, you’re there!  Your presence should be a gift in itself.  You shouldn’t have to expect a gift on any occasion.

There are very kind people out there who will help when needed.  Some may not be able to help other than just being there for someone even at those times life can get busy.

I would have liked to be elsewhere for other people today, mourning the death of a family member.  I couldn’t be there.  I can’t drive legally and things came up for the people I was going with?  Sure I was disappointed at first, then I realized there’s nothing I could have done to change this scenario.

My psychiatrist had an appointment with me on Monday, I received a phone call just before I started writing this, and my appointment had to be rescheduled to February 10th.  Knee jerk reaction from me off of the phone “What was the point of making the appointment in the first place?”  I don’t know the details of the rescheduling maybe a personal matter came up.  The next available date was December 24th, that didn’t work with my schedule.  February 10th was the next available time & it works.

What am I trying to get at?  A person does not need to understand every minor detail that effects them.  They have to acknowledge that not everything works for everyone.

As an example; many people, including myself, don’t fully understand the #LGBTQ community.  I understand most of it as a straight person.  The thing is, you don’t have to understand it.  You have to acknowledge it.  Not everyone is the same as the next.  The part of that which I don’t understand I can acknowledge that others fell that way & it doesn’t affect me personally in any way.

Am I happy?  Mostly, I could do without the cancer portion but I acknowledge that it happened & my cancer could affect others.  That happened, I can’t change that or many other things.  Can I change other people or their views & opinions?  Maybe?  Do I need to?  Some, but only if they want to change.  I can change me and help others who want to change.  If someone is happy with how they are, there’s not much anyone can do for them other than acknowledge & be OK with the situation at hand.

Holiday tip!  If you can’t do any of this, drink alcohol if you’re of age.  You can be a quiet drunk or a loud belligerent drunk & blame it on the alcohol!

 

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WHAT WE’VE BEEN UP TO

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What I’ve been listening to lately, “The Darkness”, “Coheed and Cambria”, “I Built the Sky”, & “Alter Bridge”.

Where ever the picture ends up on here, that’s a portion of my Tuesday & Thursday exercise.  I don’t own a cell phone but Kim does.  She wants to do yoga with me when she gets home from work & took a few pictures that evening.

I ended up doing a lot of nothing from Friday, November 15th to Sunday, November 24th.  Started up the exercise again on the 25th.  Kim decided she’d like to do yoga with me on Tuesdays & Thursdays.  So I do some stretching & weights in the morning, then yoga when she gets home after work.

So far my eating habits have remained quite similar.  I know I’ll partake in some taste testing of holiday baked goods though, then perhaps during my big 4-0 in January.

Gotta get to the weights!  My T-Shirts are pretty much hanging on to me for dear life.  Other than the occasional light eggnog in a coffee, I’m still running sugar free, outside of natural sugar.

I’m not going to avoid holiday baking, just in moderation.

I intended to ask for a few things for Christmas & let Kim bank any extra cash for herself or whatever expenses we need it for.  Nobody was OK with what I was going to do with the cash, including Kim.  She insisted I save it for the guitar I want.  So I guess I’ll be ordering this guitar in the summer, in a McCarty Sunburst finish.  We’ve got to save up some cash until then.

https://www.prsguitars.com/index.php/electrics/model/s2_custom_22_semi_hollow_2020

As for the Epiphone 7 string, I’ll think about that in 8 years if I’m still into metal, although it does look pretty nice!  I was going to get this one since it’s a limited edition, Kim said to order the more expensive one though?  If I ever get a 7 string guitar, I hope these are still in production?

http://www.epiphone.com/Products/Les-Paul/Matt-Heafy-Les-Paul-Custom-7.aspx

I have been practicing my guitar constantly.  Mostly finger exercises to build up the strength in my left hand.  Usually 4-9 hours a week.  I was a singer that learned rhythm guitar to fill out a rock band.  Playing fast or soloing was never my thing & was beyond my ability.  Since my voice hasn’t caught up yet, I’m learning a bunch of new stuff to become a more versatile guitar player. I played my guitar “…until my fingers (almost) blead…” the last week and a bit.

The Christmas tree has been up since November 16th, little early for me but it had to go up sometime.  Now we can get some gift shopping done for what I will now call “The most (stressful) time of the year”.  I need lists people, I can’t read your minds?!

I’m usually really into the holiday season, no snow here yet, I need snow.  It was raining on November 24th, my parents’ 41st anniversary & Grey Cup 107.  There should be snow on the ground by now not “November Rain”.

Brewster’s feeling better now & done with his medications.  He even has enough energy to play for a bit twice a day.  He’s now back to day care once a week to play with other dogs.  He still gets very excited when he figures out where he’s going & can’t get in there fast enough.

Kim’s quite busy at work & is pretty tired after each day.  I think her entire department told their manager they need another person on staff?

After a week of not exercising & a week of exercising, I find that exercising makes me more aware around here.  I find that I manage my time better.  I also get up earlier to accomplish my exercise & other tasks for the day.  I got up at 6:30 am.  I fed Brewster, had my small breakfast (I eat 5 or 6 small meals/snacks a day), cleaned up Brewster’s bowl, & exercised.  It was only 9:30 am after all of that!  I checked my email & Facebook, had a bite to eat, showered, & had an early lunch around 11:30 am.  Spent the rest of the day practicing guitar for a few hours & watched some recorded TV.

I don’t typically post videos or photos on anything.  I don’t own a cell phone but my wife does.  I’m usually at home with no need or desire for a cell phone & if I’m elsewhere, I’m busy usually with someone else who likely has a cell phone.  An email or a Facebook message/notification will be there when I get home.  I’ve tried texting & I just don’t like it.  I find texting to be the lazy way of calling someone.  It’s easier to dial a number rather than type out a conversation on a tiny keyboard.  Cell phones & I aren’t friends.  They’re just not for me.

That being said, my speech isn’t great.  I’m hard to understand.  I feel like I have to exaggerate my lip movement to speak well & I ALWAYS forget that.  I’m also very quiet when I speak.  Since cancer I have very short breath support.  It’s gotten better, but at first my sentences were very broken in odd/random places.

Out to visit my uncle in Sask. Beach this week for lunch & a few games of cribbage with my parents.  Nice going out there, seeing someone I haven’t seen in a while in a very wheelchair accessible place (he’s in a wheelchair also & Kim hates cribbage).

Thursday evening we went to see our “niece’s” Christmas school musical.  I don’t even remember the entire “12 days of Christmas” & I just saw it?!  Great to hear kids singing this time of year.  I’m surprised the school got away with calling it a “Christmas” event what with everything having to be so politically correct!  I’m good either way, I know what I’m celebrating.  If you’re against that, all the power to you.

It also was a blizzard outside Thursday evening!  FINALLY………………….SNOW!!!!!!!!  I can’t stand the heat, I’ve been waiting for this since January!  I’m typically found wearing shorts, Kim made me wear pants = not a happy Chris.  I can’t even remember the last time I was outside for more than “5 minutes…”?  In retrospect, I should have gone with the shorts.  Our friends were up front to see their daughter.  We were at the back (wheelchair).  The parents at the back didn’t seem to care much.  They were mostly talking on their phone, texting, & visiting with other parents, that was utterly disappointing/heart breaking.

Well the snow is here, the house is decorated, the tree is up, I’ve seen a Christmas play by kids, & I still have resting Chris face.  What the hell is wrong with me?

 

I don’t see any issues with this?

She’s an American citizen, the impeachment is being done as stated by the Constitution & it’s well known that the democrats don’t want the current president re-elected.  So why is the guy so shocked by her statement?  Call me a dumb Canadian, but this isn’t breaking news.  I haven’t even watched American news in months.

 

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LAST OFFICIAL POST OF THE YEAR

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Music throughout the weekend “In Flames”, “Aladdin”, “Trivium”, & “Lamb of God”

 

I’ll be checking my email & Facebook as usual & I’ll likely pop in with the odd post here.  My routine will be similar, but with far fewer posts here.  After Friday, December 20th, I plan to relax & enjoy the holidays.  Hang out with family & friends.  All while practicing on my acoustic guitar, still have to build strength in my individual fingers on my left hand.  The better you are on acoustic, the easier electric guitar is.

I don’t plan on straying too far from my regular food intake, just moderation around Christmas goodies.  I’m at a point where I’ve lost a significant amount of body fat & have gained noticeable muscle.  I’d like to keep that trend going.

I was going to lighten up on the exercise sooner than later, but I’ve changed my mind.  Better to keep things at full tilt for a bit longer.

Well I didn’t make it to my brother’s group’s (Room 333) show at The Exchange Friday evening.  A LOUD rock show.  My dad & I had planned on going but both of my parents weren’t feeling well.  Stayed home with Kim & watched some stuff on the DVR.

Kim struggled most of the day putting up the Christmas tree.  Pre-lit fake tree with a string of lights out on the lower half.  3 trips to a hardware store & she finally just went with a string that are a different shade of white.  I figure once the tree is covered in decorations it won’t matter.

Just need some Christmas lists from others & then we shop & probably do some baking!

We ended up watching the live action version of “Aladdin”.  We rented it from iTunes.  I think we should cancel our “Crave” streaming site, that we rarely watch, & sign up for “Disney +” ASAP.  We have “Netflix” & “Amazon Prime” I’d dump “Crave” in a heartbeat.  For the amount of time that we actually watch TV, we spend for more than we have time to watch.

Today I get to pick out the 37 layers I’ll wear to the outdoor CFL Western final with the Saskatchewan Roughriders vs. Winnipeg Blue Bombers.

I wear shorts year ‘round if possible, I hate wearing full length pants, they drive me even further into crazyville.  I plan to come home after the game & peal down to shorts & a T-Shirt.

 

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EXERCISE & A BIG WRECK CONCERT

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Waste of a week.  Missed taking some of my pills on Monday & Tuesday which messed with my sleep badly.  Did my exercises Wednesday.  Went to see “Big Wreck” Wednesday night & the elevator was out of order.  3 flights of stairs down & 3 flights up that night.  My body has been sore the entire week, so I called it for the week on Thursday.

500 crunches, 300 leg lifts, 100 squats, 100 back flexes & stairs, oh so many stairs.

 

I fell asleep to “Alter Bridge” the album “Walk the Sky” followed by “I Built the Sky” the album “The Zenith Rise”

 

I’m a cancer survivor & I’m complaining about what?  A diagnoses like this would absolutely devastate me.  I got cancer before our 3rd anniversary.  This guy was on his honeymoon when he noticed the symptoms of ALS.  #AXEALS   Another disease that doesn’t care how healthy you are.  Not cool!  I survived, this guy & many more people want him to survive.  The REALLY sad thing here is that I’ve never heard of an ALS survivor.  Many people have survived cancer though.

When you see people in worse scenarios than you’re currently in & you’ve been whining & complaining about your own situation, it SERIOUSLY puts things into perspective.

A guy wants food at a drive-thru, done, no problem.  I was ready to go in & sit down with him, get him out of the cold, chat with him, have a warm beverage, some food, & see if I could bring him some sweaters in my closet later on.

A guy with ALS, all I could do is listen.  Maybe that’s what he wants other than the cure.

I see stuff like this & all I can think is “WOW!  I need to lighten up & start paying more attention to others”.  If I’m not part of the solution, I’m part of the problem.  Right now, I can listen, I can shut up & listen.  My problems are constantly getting better, & hopefully I’ll be able to help out in other ways eventually.   I’m alive, I’m surrounded by family & friends that love me, I’ve got a home, food, etc.

People want to leave a mark on the world, something to be remembered for.  Throughout this entire blog/website I’ve been complaining about my situation.  I’ve complained more than enough.  I want to be remembered as a person that tried & a person that would always be willing to help out others.  I’d help out others before cancer, so why not now?

Being on the other side of that scenario for so long has made me realize something.  Any size of help you can give is always more appreciated than you’ll ever know.  Hearing someone say “Thank You” or “God bless you” for something so small is something a person doesn’t forget.

Of course the bigger stuff I can’t do.  I could possibly volunteer somewhere or look for a non-profit organization to help out with in the future.  I can do some smaller things to A) Pay it forward   B) Pay it back to those that have & still are helping me.

I like my fitness, but I can’t just do that forever.  Kim & I have talked about going down & up a flight of stairs once a week.  Kim will have to assist me, so I can avoid cracking open my head.  Going down 3 flights the other evening was exhausting & much more difficult than going up, not sure why though?

 

BIG WRECK

The concert was FANTASTIC!  That was the 14th time I’ve seen Big Wreck since January 30th 1999.  They used to come through Regina about 4 times on each of the first 2 albums.  They broke up in 2002, then I went to the lead singer’s new band “Thornley” until 2012.  Even when I was in my rehabilitation program I went!  I wasn’t sold on the “Thornley” albums though.

2012 came & “Big Wreck” had re-established themselves with 2 of the original 4 members & 3 new members.  Unfortunately returning member/guitarist Brian Doherty passed away of cancer after recording their newest/6th album.

The band on stage seemed content though & the concert was great, including the opening group “Texas King”….

Big Wreck played 5 or 6 of their new songs.  Starting off with this new song.

Last year he says “I’m not going to play that song again”.  Wednesday night, they played it.

Set closer.

Encore.

No “Thornley” songs were played, but here’s a very brief look into their catalogue.

 

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 “I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-David Grohl 

 

We’re all Global Citizens,

Chris             

 

“Be kind to one another”-Ellen Degeneres