MENTAL HEALTH UPDATE/DEVIN TOWNSEND & DEVIN TOWNSEND PROJECT

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Music throughout the weekend.  “Pink”, “The Damned Things”, “Foo Fighters”, & “Big Wreck”

 

Moments after I posted Friday’s blog, I got a call from an office regarding my mental health.  I now have an appointment scheduled for June.  That’s the earliest they can get me in.  So things are moving but at a snail’s pace.

Friday evening I watched the Toronto Blue Jays game.  The 20 years & 1 month old much talked about Vladimir Guerrero Junior’s 1st big league game.  He even got a standing ovation for grabbing a slow foul ball & tossing it to a fan in the crowd.  Toronto must be a boring place?  That or that fans have been hearing about his offense since he was signed at the age of 16.  He went 1 – 4 at bat.  After a day of interviews, a press conference & then a baseball game.  I’d just want to go home & go right to bed, at whatever age.  Toronto fans in Toronto at the games should probably dial back the energy & let the guy play?  I have never heard of that much enthusiasm for any player EVER.  Calm down, he’ll play again tomorrow.

More baseball on Saturday during the day & today.  Kim’s setting up the place for a photo shoot today.  We went for appetizers & a couple of drinks at “Tommy’s Speakeasy” on Saturday evening.  My brother & 2 other guys from their band were playing acoustic cover songs.  I spoke with one of the volunteers that I’d see in the Acquired Brain Injury (ABI) program I was in.  Brief but good to see him.

Today is the 3rd & final game with Oakland in Toronto.  They get Monday off, then 3 games in Anaheim then 3 games in Texas.  Kim has a photo shoot in the afternoon, & I’ll be boiling eggs & making my veggie juice for the week.

 

Sting on the Tonight Show starring Jimmy Fallon

https://www.rollingstone.com/music/music-news/sting-walking-on-the-moon-tonight-show-jimmy-fallon-828247/?fbclid=IwAR0FVskmFACAMbDbAnI1g0hhd6BvU51ioNzXnRDOQngaAtluAD3yPSOfL74

Jimmy Fallon is the bee’s knees!  Get it………Sting…bee’s………oh gorsh I’m old!

Jimmy Fallon & Paul Rudd recreate their 1980s video!

No, I likely won’t see these 3 movies in the theater.  Brewster has intense anxiety separation issues, unless there is somebody around to take care of him.  My brother & I might go to Avengers: Endgame this week, we’ll see?

 

DEVIN TOWNSEND & DEVIN TOWNSEND PROJECT

He’s an unknown metal musician from B.C. Canada.  He’s unknown outside the metal listeners.  He recorded “Lamb of God” their album “As the Palaces Burn” album.  At the time the some of the members of “Lamb of God” had no clue who he was?  He was asked to mix the album & replied “Are you kidding me?  NO!”

He’s been around for quite a while as the singer & guitarist for “Strapping Young Lad”, “Devin Townsend Project”, & just released a solo album on March 29th.  His brand of metal is weird.  It’s like ambient noise or a Disney song with his vocals, a guitar, & usually a choir?  Here’s a song from the “Lamb of God” album he recorded, followed by his solo album & my favourite “Devin Townsend Project” album….

 

2019   EMPATH

 

DEVIN TOWNSEND PROJECT

 

2012   EPICLOUD

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He has many “Devin Townsend Project” albums & 6 “Strapping Young Lad” studio albums & a greatest hits album.  “Strapping Young Lad” is a bit too much for me.

 

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Why did this become a music blog?  “Because music is a BIG @#!$%^*&( DEAL”-David Eric Grohl

“I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-David Eric Grohl

“Learn from your mistakes & don’t repeat them”-Chris

Stay safe out there,

Chris

“Be kind to one another”-Ellen Degeneres

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EXERCISE WEEKLY TOTAL/JANELLE MONAE

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5 day exercise total; 400 pushups, 600 leg lifts, 450 crunches, 200 tricep lifts, 450 squats, 300 back flexes.

I fell asleep to “Soundgarden” the album “Badmotorfinger”

I exercised to “Nothing But Thieves” their first self – titled release

 

Right out of the gate, I have not been in a bad mood since early 2012.  My depression crept up on me & exploded last week.  My stubbornness is genetic, but that’s no excuse for it.  My depression showed me last week that, as hard as I try, I can’t control it.  So as of this post I have yet to hear anything from a psychologist or therapist.  Psychiatrists give you pills.

I’ve seen a psychiatrist & I’m on 2 anti-depressants in the morning & 2 anti-psychotics over night.  The pills are not enough though.  I need to speak with a professional who’s not a psychiatrist.

Tuesdays & Thursdays are the days of the week I despise.  Those days I find very difficult exercise wise.  Each of those days are 200 pushups & 100 tricep lifts.  I feel good after I get those exercises done.  Before I do them you probably would be better off not talking to me.  That’s why I do them ASAP after I wake up.

What do I do after my exercise each day?  My exercises take me about 1 ½ hours each day, then I watch the late night talk shows, Stephen Colbert & Jimmy Fallon.  Then a sports talk radio show on TV, maybe part of a movie, or just listen to music & stretch out on the couch.  If there’s something I can do around the house.  That always takes priority after my blog is posted.

Somewhere in there I have a small lunch of fish or a lettuce wrap with Dijon mustard, a slice of cheese & turkey deli meat.  Breakfast is always a hardboiled egg, a ½ glass of veggie juice, & a piece of fruit.  There’s always a shower in there too!  0% yogurt with blue berries for a snack or rice crackers & hummus.

When Kim comes home we watch “The Ellen Degeneres Show” & then I get to practice walking with my walker usually.  We’re still trying to make that a part of our routine.  I don’t usually want to do it, but I know I need to!  “Yay, more exercise” – said no one ever!

 

Article with guitar player Mark Tremonti of “Creed”, “Alter Bridge”, & “Tremonti”

https://www.ultimate-guitar.com/news/general_music_news/mark_tremonti_if_i_didnt_have_alternative_tunings_i_would_have_run_out_of_ideas_a_long_time_ago.html?fbclid=IwAR07WWFMAj9IPiCayeVUfewvQ_fOENwcRBU_hhY90m8l-_ZVqzhpXf0sA5I

Their songs don’t suck!  They’re just very similar.  I still have “Feed the Machine” on my list to purchase!

https://www.spin.com/2014/11/nickelback-songs-best-hits-list/?fbclid=IwAR1tSQFxFsuoTdl8HqIDWh-xc9VusOJ1LPKdq-BUFUzD5hG_TeJfMT-eZZg

Lars Ulrich did something good for a change!  I’m sure he’ll contradict himself, as usual, in a week or two.  ‘Streaming music is hurting the music industry’!  One week later ‘I have 9 iPods in my house, full of music from Spotify’!  I like Metallica.  Lars has always bugged me, even before the “Napster” ordeal, which he was right about.

https://loudwire.com/metallica-lars-ulrich-meets-autistic-fan/?fbclid=IwAR26OxNIgwD6rcYSgrdO0wctYsn13CnVBso8NyaFpdueV0xGKRJEdag6BIQ

Black hole or “Black hole sun”?

https://www.cnn.com/2019/04/10/us/katie-bouman-mit-black-hole-algorithm-sci-trnd/index.html?utm_term=link&utm_medium=social&utm_content=2019-04-11T00%3A15%3A08&utm_source=fbCNN&fbclid=IwAR2GRUDOA_iDIsMt_zCAleM40T2NDthaEpPrgxiH4Wl1cyjD2cOp2DtrUoo

I watched “Aquaman” on Thursday & it’s AMAZING!  I should have seen it in theaters.  I rarely see a movie in theaters now, but I should!

 

JANELLE MONAE

I saw her performance on the Grammy Awards, & thought “WOW!  A song that sounds heavily inspired by Prince!”  I got the album later that week.  I know nothing about her other than the album “Dirty Computer” is really good!  She has other albums out, 2 or 3 I’m not sure.  There’s not a song on this album that’s not labeled as explicit, so beware there is LANGUAGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

DIRTY COMPUTER   2018

 

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“Learn from your mistakes & don’t repeat them”-Chris

Stay safe out there,

Chris

“Be kind to one another”-Ellen Degeneres

BREWSTER EXCITED, NOPE/LENNY KRAVITZ

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I fell asleep to “Muse” the album “The Resistance”

I exercised to “Boston” self-titled album, followed by “Kelly Clarkson” the album “Meaning of Life”

 

Monday I got up & dressed in my exercise clothes.  I did my exercises. Then I wrote my “WEEKEND UPDATE” post, well I finished it.  All of the beginning music links was stuff I listened to on my iPod or in the car on my iPod coming back to Regina.  I grabbed those links Sunday night.

After 3 days of me being away, I thought Brewster would miss me, boy was I wrong!  I came into our condo, & Brewster just looked at me as though he was thinking “Humph, he’s back I guess”.  Dad was helping me with some of my tiny bags, he came in right behind me.  Brewster was much more enthused to see my dad than he was to see me.

He was freaking out on Monday while I was making my veggie juice & boiling eggs for the week.  He even asked to be up on my lap.  He put his front paws on my knees for me to pick him up, which happens very rarely unless you’re Kim or her sister.  Kim told me that he really doesn’t like the sound of our instant pot when the steam is released.

So as of Monday I got as much done as I needed to for the week (food wise).  Kim relaxed on the weekend as I told her she needs & deserves to.

I was speaking last week about my mental health & specifically about my depression.  I mentioned that I was stressed, frustrated, & stubborn.  Both stress & frustration self-inflicted.  I always think, “I NEED to do more.  I can do better than this!”  I am my own worst critic, & brain cancer is what made me expect more from myself.   The stubbornness is in my genes from my mother’s side of the family, mostly my grandfather.

I’d exercise with equipment at my parents’ house in a short lived university student career.  I was in much better shape way back when.  I didn’t know how to study really, so I took WAY too many study breaks at home & spent my time exercising, mostly doing pushups, sit-ups, & dumb bell curls.

I’m no expert on any type of mental illness, I do understand that 1/5 Canadians deal with their own mental illness.  I don’t know of any that do on a daily bases, if I did, it’s not my story to tell.  I personally don’t find mine to be something to hide from anyone.

I guess those that have a mental illness will deal with it however they choose to?  I guess it’s the same way a gay person chooses to announce being gay.  Probably many issues mostly wondering/worrying how others will react.

So I hope you’ll join me as I go into this new adventure?

 

The 4 big albums I’m waiting for this year are follow ups to these 4 albums

2006   10,000 Days

2016   THE LAST HERO

2017   GRACE STREET

2015   STURM UND DRANG

 

I think it’s high time to get over “Creed” & move on to “Alter Bridge”!  They’re “Creed” with music lessons & a tenor singer with INCREDIBLE range!

I’ll take “Alter Bridge” 9/10 times.  I do enjoy the first “Creed” album quite a bit though.

 

LENNY KRAVITZ

I do enjoy some of his stuff, not all of it, but most of it.  He’s 54 years old & from New York.  He’s a solo artist/singer song writer.  Plays really good guitar while doing lead vocals.  Some of the stuff he does baffles me.  I only have 2 albums “Mama Said” & a “Greatest Hits” compilation.

 

1991   MAMA SAID

 

2000   GREATEST HITS

LANGUAGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!        

 

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Why did this become a music blog?  “Because music is a BIG @#!$%^*&( DEAL”-David Eric Grohl

“I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-David Eric Grohl

“Learn from your mistakes & don’t repeat them”-Chris

Stay safe out there,

Chris

“Be kind to one another”-Ellen Degeneres

EXERCISE WEEKLY TOTAL/BEN FOLDS FIVE

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5 day exercise total; 400 pushups, 600 leg lifts, 450 crunches, 200 tricep lifts, 450 squats, 300 back flexes.

I fell asleep to “Queen” the double album of “Greatest Hits”

I exercised to “The Struts” both albums on shuffle

 

Thanks for all of the positive comments they’re great!  I think that when I beat cancer, the positive thoughts & comments may have brought me to this depression thing?  I don’t blame any of you for those thoughts, I think I used them the wrong way?  I probably looked at them as “Hey, I beat cancer I’m a hero!  Listen to me!” what I should have done is stay humble, thanked all of you & carried on as usual.  Instead I let them go straight to my head, not what I should have done!

My depression shows as stress, frustration & stubbornness more than anything else.  I’m not this dark figure with a hood over my face 24 hours a day.  I may have changed a bit but I’m me.  I’m just a different version of me.  I’m happy & I like to goof off a lot.  I am definitely more stubborn.  That’s gene thing from my grandfather on my mother’s side.  For some reason I dialed it up to 100 instead of the natural 10?

I think with that stubbornness came a LOT of frustration.  In that, I wanted to be heard without acknowledging that others may have a different opinion on things.  I’m not a patient or understanding as I use to be.

I was never a vocal person until University.  Until that time I kept my head down & tried not to stir the pot.  I was trying to get through school each day as quietly as possible.

3 things I’m grateful for A) my HUGE support system.  B) I have a roof & 4 walls around me. C) Canadian taxes that support me (sort of) to exercise.

 

It’s coming………………….. In October!  Big debate online over who’s the best Joker?  Out of the

Tool changed their Facebook cover photo on Wednesday!  Release date on the way???????  https://loudwire.com/tool-new-album-2019-change-logo/ More info today!

I can’t wait!!!!

I like the previous movies but number 4, it’s got quite a bit to live up to!

Yes, according to the president who shall not be named solved the reason for my cancer!  Hahahahahahahahahahahaha!

 

BEN FOLDS FIVE

Right off the top I’ll tell you that I don’t know much about him or his band.  Ben Folds plays piano & sings, the other 2 members play the drums & the bass.  Not super jazzy, but a bit to still be played on radio.  I own one CD of theirs & each time I listen to it, I forgot how much I like it.  Ben Folds was also a judge on a short lived singing show “The Sing Off”.  All of the groups were A Capella groups which bolstered the careers of “Pentatonix” & “Home Free”.  Here are a few songs from their 1997 album….

 

1997   WHATEVER & EVER AMEN

LANGUAGE!!!

 

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Why did this become a music blog?  “Because music is a BIG @#!$%^*&( DEAL”-Dave Grohl

“I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-Dave Grohl

“Learn from your mistakes & don’t repeat them”-Chris

Stay safe out there,

Chris

“Be kind to one another”-Ellen Degeneres

P.S.  Remember the days of Blockbuster video, when renting a movie on VHS was a thing?  Didn’t the label say “Be kind & Rewind”?

SERIOUS ABOUT MENTAL HEALTH/LIMBLIFTER

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I fell asleep to “U2” the album “Zooropa”

I exercised to “Dead Sara” the album “Dead Sara”

 

I made a joke or at least tried to on Sunday’s post?  I’m far less doom & gloom than I am most of the time.  The fact that I made an effort to make a joke is just how I am most of the time.  Example; I give blood for a blood test & I usually say “Kim….would you please hold my hand?”  Just as they’re ready to take blood for the test.

I take all of this cancer & depression talk very seriously.  When I make a joke is just to keep the mood light, not disown it!  If I didn’t, it likely would be doom & gloom more often.  Being able to admit my issues with my brain was the feeling of a HUGE weight being lifted off of my shoulder.  I know there’s a long way to go probably but I don’t want to be all doom & gloom through it.  That would likely add to the problem.

In complete transparency.  How incredible is Kim!?  No wonder Brewster picked her to be the first person he ever willingly went to when we bought him.  There’s one of the things Brewster & I have in common.  We both picked Kim.  “You chose a really good mommy little guy!”  That’s what I tell Brewster every day!  Yes I talk to my dog, but it’s a very one sided conversation.

I take my mental health very seriously.  I also look at it as another obstacle to overcome.  Is my mental health tied to my cancer?  I don’t know, but I don’t want it to be?  They say in baseball that usually a player that can’t do well on one side of the ball will fail on the other side of the ball.  I don’t agree with that & I’m proof that it’s not usual.  I couldn’t hit the broad side of a barn when I played.  On the infield I was a vacuum & wanted every ball to be hit in my direction!  So I don’t tie my mentality to cancer, at least that’s how I see things?

I NEVER want to play the cancer card.  That seems just wrong & a poor excuse for my behavior!

Kim got a hold of my doctor on Tuesday.  He said he’ll get it all done for me & refer me to a professional which I can’t seem to remember the name or place of at the moment.  So the ball has started rolling.  This whole thing is me not liking myself & that I hurt others with my words.  Not cool!  I don’t want to verbally/emotionally hurt anyone anymore!

If you’ve been reading this all along, you know I want just dig in & get started yesterday.  I just have to remain patient.

 

I think Apple just put the final nail in their own coffin?  Apples iTunes service, as of April 1st, will not allow any 3rd party music at all!  You have a CD to add to iTunes or anything from a friend?  Not going to play on any Apple software.  You have to get it from the streaming store on Apple Music or the iTunes store.  No this isn’t an April fool’s joke.  This has been coming for about 6 months or more.  If my classic iPod wasn’t still working fine, I’d jump ship download a reasonable free player & order CDs.

I can’t see this mess lasting for long?  Gotta say I miss Steve Jobs!  Smarter than those he left behind at Apple, who was one of the leading tech companies, have been struggling since his passing.

April fool’s day!  He’s not running for president & Tom Brady isn’t retiring.

https://www.kerrang.com/the-news/dave-grohl-announces-2020-presidential-bid/?utm_campaign=loudwire&utm_medium=social&utm_source=facebook&influencer=true&fbclid=IwAR1aDilLjQktCVYIVjmQbb4_-Z2VfNwTeXIMj0P9GK5f9pGu1qB_uNPy9Ms

He wrote the song “Run” about running away from the president who shall not be named.

Alter Bridge’s 6th album is in the recording process.  Drums have finished being recorded.  I hope the wait “…won’t be long…”

 

 

LIMBLIFTER

“Limblifter” came out of the ashes of “The Age of Electric”.  One of the people that would fix the presses, The Print Doctor, is actually a brother to the drummer & guitarist/singer of the group.  I think they’re based in British Columbia now, but I’m not positive of that, take it with a grain of salt?  Last time I saw them was before I had cancer, probably 2006?  I have 2 of their 3 albums one of them is on CD….

 

1996   LIMBLIFTER

 

2000   BELLACLAVA

I only own those 2 albums but they have 3 I believe.  I might get their final album “I/O” that’s what they were touring for on their last tour before I went into the hospital.

 

I don’t want this to come off as funny.  FINALLY AFTER 2 SEASONS “SUPERMAN” IS GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I’ve been waiting for this move since early – middle of 2017.

https://www.cbc.ca/sports/baseball/mlb/jays-trade-kevin-pillar-to-giants-1.5081250?fbclid=IwAR2-QPoGgJSvC3ubn7giF6HhTCCW-3kSnc5PxFmYHo-sQVumYzoMnHoPiNY

 

The more you share this, the more readers I get.  No, I’m not profiting from this in any way.  I can’t tell who’s reading this but thank you! Word of mouth is the only way of promoting this.

Why did this become a music blog?  “Because music is a BIG @#!$%^*&( DEAL”-David Eric Grohl

“I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-David Eric Grohl

“Learn from your mistakes & don’t repeat them”-Chris

Stay safe out there,

Chris

“Be kind to one another”-Ellen Degeneres

WEEKEND UPDATE/THE AGE OF ELECTRIC

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Music throughout the weekend.  “Devin Townsend”, “In Flames”, “Mark Morton”, “Lamb of God”

 

I figured I’d just carry on as usual, I’ve always been a little wacky anyways.  My mood is far more level more often than not.  I like my workout physically & here’s hoping I can get to talk to someone who can help me with my head & get it back to normal.  I’d never hurt anyone physically unless they were intending to harm my family or friends.  If it’s a family member hurting another family member, they can figure that out on their own.

Of course I’ll carry on with this blog & exercises.  I think even the mental part of this could be somewhat to do with cancer.  I could be wrong though & I don’t want to play the cancer card as an excuse for my mental health, that wouldn’t be fair in my eyes.  I want to go through this as transparent as possible!  You get to see all of the upcoming blemishes & triumphs as usual.  I like that this blog is transparent.  I want someone/anyone else in a similar situation to read this & figure out what they need to do.

Honestly, metal music calms me down.  I guess it’s my mood that dictates my music choice for that moment?  I can listen to it & mentally try to make sense of the controlled chaos or just disappear into the sound of the music.  Same deal with Blue Jays baseball.  I know the Blue Jay players & they’re the only team I watch but this could be the same thing with any baseball team.  It’s a distraction for my mind.  I know the game to an extent.  If you’re not thinking about how many outs there are, what inning it is, or the outcome of what to do wherever the ball will end up on every pitch, you’re doing it wrong.

Kim says that since I can’t see anyone yet, I should try writing 3 things a day for 21 days, that I’m thankful for.  I can do that!  A) I’m alive.  B) I’m with Kim.  C) Our extended, immediate family & friends that are AWESOME!  A)  Brewster is a very well behaved dog.  B)  I was raised very well.  C)  I live in Canada without the rule of a wanna be dictator.

 

Friday evening was the 2nd Blue Jays regular season game.  Our “niece” tells me every time she sees me.  “Uncle Chris, we don’t watch baseball in our house.”  She cracks me up!  Just the way she says it!

I’m not American or interested in politics in most cases but watching CNN “from a good safe distance” is very entertaining.

Before Saturday’s game, there’s only 160 games to go.  The pitching & very young players are doing a FANTASTIC job so far.  Even in their first game of the season which they lost 2-0 they played really well!  New, fresh people are good to see & I don’t have any expectations for them this year.  If they win 60-70 games I’d call it a success!  It will be a year full of “Growing Pains”

We watched “The Dirt” on Netflix Friday evening.  I prefer the book.  I’ve never been a fan of their music.  They did it for the wrong reasons if you ask me.  They did it for a life of booze, heroin, cocaine, & to have sex with every female they encountered.  I had 1 or 2 groupies in our first band & I couldn’t get rid of them fast enough.  “No.  I’m not coming up to your hotel room.  I’ve got a TON of gear to load up & a girlfriend.  You can kiss me on my cheek & find someone else to fool around with”.  Not something I’ll ever be interested in!

Kim stepped out to get a few things.  She has been cleaning EVERYTHING Friday & Saturday!  I’ll shout at her from the couch and ask “KIM DO YOU WANT ME TO DO ANYTHING?” & she always says no.  My weekends are quite easy that way.  Stay out of her way & don’t move until I’m told & I randomly ask if I can help with anything.

We finished the day with a spinach & strawberry salad & BBQ steaks.  I made my veggie juice for the week & a glass & ½ of a fruit smoothie.  We watched part 1 of the “Leaving Neverland” documentary, so not for kids!

Part 2 of “Leaving Neverland” this morning, a play date with Mitch & Rachel’s pup.  Toronto Blue Jays 4th game into the regular season & the Blue Jays are 2W-2L.  Better than I expected, but when you consider the small sample size & who they were playing against, this doesn’t really tell you anything yet.  158 games to go around the half way mark in the season is when you can really tell.

 

 

THE AGE OF ELECTRIC

Saskatchewan rock band that got 0:05 seconds of fame & broke up after 2 albums.  I believe they grew up in small town Saskatchewan.  I think the singer, Todd Kerns, is now playing bass for Slash.  The guitar player moved on to form a band called “Limblifter” with his brother or cousin on drums?  I only have “The Age of Electric’s” first self – titled album, I heard a lot of the 2nd album that our bass player, Rob Wirtz, in University had.  I’ll give you a bit of both albums in order.

 

1995   THE AGE OF ELECTRIC

 

1996   MAKE A PEST A PET

 

The more you share this, the more readers I get.  No, I’m not profiting from this in any way.  I can’t tell who’s reading this but thank you! Word of mouth is the only way of promoting this.

Why did this become a music blog?  “Because music is a BIG @#!$%^*&( DEAL”-David Eric Grohl

“I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-David Eric Grohl

“Learn from your mistakes & don’t repeat them”-Chris

Stay safe out there,

Chris

“Be kind to one another”-Ellen Degeneres

MENTAL HEALTH

We tried to call my doctor this morning but he’s off on Fridays.  Hopefully I can see him ASAP.  I want to get started on fixing my brain with the help of a therapist or psychologist right away.  I don’t want to hurt anyone physically or emotionally EVER.  I wasn’t that person before I was diagnosed.

How on earth did I not think of other people while bashing them privately!  I want to start this treatment immediately.  I know it wont happen as soon as I’d like.  Everything you’ve ever read on here is true.  Even when I talk tough, I’ll at least try to back up what I say.

For now I just want to get better mentally.  After posting the blog last night, which was much more difficult than I thought.  I just held Kim & sobbed uncontrollably, much like I am right now.

I feel like a monster.  I’m not angry or mad most of the time, but it is getting ridiculously bad.  I can’t control it by myself anymore.  I keep my dark feelings in, at least I try to & then I just explode.

I can think of 14 people that I’ve hurt with nasty emails out of nowhere.  I never even thought about how any of this would effect those people or Kim’s relationship with them.  I’ve at least tried & usually keep it in.

Thursday it just became impossible to do on my own.

I might drop the music stuff for a while since I’ll likely be talking more about my mental health.  If a blog isn’t posted on time, please don’t worry, it will be there, just a day or two late.

 

Thanks, this journey isn’t over yet I guess,

Chris.