TOO MANY EXTREME HIGHS & LOWS IN ONE WEEK

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Exercise total for 5 days. 

500 Curls w/ 20 pound dumb bells

300 Shoulder raises/Chest presses w/ 10 pound dumb bells

900 Crunches

900 Leg lifts

300 Squats   

450 Back flexes

1:20  hour of yoga over 2 days

It’s Thursday afternoon as I write this.

Why is everyone so against a person with a different perspective?  I may not like someone’s opinion but they should have every right to their own opinion.  Record amount of voters showed up for the election in the USA.  The highest amount since 1908?  You can’t say “get out & vote” expecting everyone to side with your opinion?  Whatever happens for the next 4 years, the votes are in so just stop worrying.  We’ve made it this far, maybe it’ll get better or maybe we’ll be tested & pushed harder?  I’m in Canada, I have been my entire life with only one week spent in the USA.  Our TV, phone, & internet was being switched over to a different company on Tuesday.  I didn’t see or hear anything about the election on Tuesday.  I can’t vote so I didn’t need to hear anything about it.  Until there’s a declared winner in the vote I have no intention of stressing about what the outcome will be.  In other words, “I’ll cross that bridge when I get to it” – Anonymous

I’m going to help out another family going through something similar we did when I got brain cancer in 2008. Kim’s childhood friend works in demolition (explosive demolitions).  He had an incident on Sunday at work & is now paralyzed from the waist down.  He’s married and has 4 young children.  If you’d like to read the story or donate you can do either by reading the following link to the go fund me page.

I thought about this family as I went to bed Wednesday night with tears in my eyes & woke up to continue silently crying Thursday morning.  Now that I’ve been on both sides of this type of situation & can sort of tell what a lot of people felt like in 2008,  I’m worried/wondering what they’re future will look like for them, just shakes me to the core.  I intend to donate as much I can. 

We’ve been tossing around ideas about cheap renovations to do here before we list the condo in 2022.   We even had an interior designer friend come in to look around & send us some suggestions.  When I heard the news about Kim’s friend that she keeps in contact with, I did what many people did when I had cancer.  I panicked & thought of selling a guitar to donate all of the money to a family in need.  Kim calmed me down.  For our Christmas with Kim’s immediate family, we’ve all agreed to donate $100 to the family instead of buying gifts for each other.  I plan to donate another $175 along with Kim’s extra donation.  We know what it can be like a few years down the road.  As I say this please don’t think I’m ungrateful for everyone’s help when I got sick.  I had 2 years of mortgage insurance & needed 2 ½ more years of money to pay our mortgage, that’s where a lot of the money went as well as rent for my room in my rehabilitation center $1000/month.  Things now are tight without my income so in a year or 2 I might sell a guitar & donate all of the funds when we donate more to this family in need.  I’ve only met the guy once or twice in passing since he lives 3 ½ hours north of here, in Kim’s home town.  I never want anyone to go through a similar situation that we went through.  Please donate if you can, it means a LOT to Kim, me, along with many other people we know & don’t know. 

Kim will likely be working this weekend.  She’s a desktop designer.  She has a full time contract job as well as 2 other companies that she does designing for 2 or 3 times a year.  She got the files for one of the other jobs Tuesday evening.  She worked 15 hours yesterday between her full time job and a part time job.

I went to the living room to finally watch TV Wednesday evening & now I know why the streaming TV is %50 off a month for 2 years.  The screen just goes blank for 5 seconds at random.  Good thing I don’t want to watch much TV since I’m in this room playing guitar or watching youtube videos about guitar.  The streaming box makes me not want to watch TV.  I’ll watch my 4 or 5 scripted shows, CFL, MLB, & 2 talk shows, nothing more since I can no longer fast forward through commercials but I can watch stuff from the last 72 hours.

I worked on a friend’s electric guitar on Tuesday.  He’s learning with an acoustic guitar but doesn’t own an electric guitar.  I found a used, more affordable Stratocaster for him.  Picked it up on Tuesday & did as much as I could to make it great.  Cleaned the body, blew out the electronic cavities, tighten the output jack & the tuners, oiled the fretboard, polished the frets, sanded off the fret sprouts, put on new strings and strung them to lock in place.  I tried adjusting the truss rod inside the neck but I wasn’t comfortable going any further with it than I already had.  It’s at a local shop for that, I don’t want to screw up his guitar.  My brother and I dropped it off & ended up visiting with the staff for over about 2 hours, we’ve known & dealt with them A LOT.  I should hear back from them by Wednesday at the latest.  I was expecting to have to replace some parts, but it worked out as is in the end.  That’s fun for me, making it better than it was.  I should do that with a few of my guitars?!  I may not have played guitar as much as I would have liked to, but I got to work on a couple instead.  Good trade off in the end!

Regina, Saskatoon, & Prince Albert (3 of the major cities in Saskatchewan) are now under the rule of mandatory masks today in public as of Tuesday’s announcement.  I’m fine with that, I think this is long overdue honestly.  We know this virus won’t just disappear since so many people prefer to carry on normally and think they’re invincible.  Meanwhile the other half of us are wearing a mask for other people.  Wearing a mask will protect me to a point, someone I encounter wearing a mask protects me even more.  It’s weird & frustrating how some people just don’t get it?  I have trouble seeing a mask as something to complain or throw a tantrum about. 

I’ve been avoiding all news this week.  Why was my A/C running at 7:10 pm in November in Canada……rrrrrright that climate change thing that’s a hoax like Covid?

I tried to watch some political news Thursday night and it’s just not worth it for me until the votes have all been counted.  This isn’t “Trump Fatigue” it’s “Election Fatigue” for me.  I’m guessing, this is NOT a fact, there will be a war either way?  If Biden becomes President there may be a civil war?  If Trump remains as President, I don’t think a world war is out of the question?  If Trump wins I’ll get hammered on rum & likely give up on humanity.  That last sentence is FACT.

Needless to say it’s been a stressful/dark/troublesome week & I can’t stop thinking about another family, with 4 children, going through a similar situation to ours in 2008.  I know already that I’ll be crying tonight (Thursday) & Friday morning when I wake up.  This is just so far from being fair to anyone.  It’s not stage 4 brain cancer but he’s paralyzed from the waist down with 4 kids, of which 2 are under the age of 3.  Hell, my lip is trembling & my eyes are watering now thinking about this.  I was in bed Thursday night before Kim (that’s a VERY rare occurrence).  She came to bed & immediately says “What’s wrong?”  I didn’t know how to sum it up in one sentence.  I’m tired & over stressed, & I’ve avoided election news!

If you’re a fan of “Saturday Night Live” watch it for sure this week.  Comedian “Dave Chappelle” is hosting & my favourite band, “Foo Fighters” are the musical guest.  They’ve been teasing fans with parts of a song on their Facebook page. I assume it’s the first single from the album they finished recording in February.

“I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-David Grohl 

We’re all Global Citizens,

Chris 

“Spread love” –Ellen Degeneres 

HOUSE AT THE TOP OF OUR LIST

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I woke up late on Monday & I was sore & stiff.  I didn’t do my exercise, I just stretched for an hour before I turned on my computron.  Nothing is done on the interweb until I’ve had breakfast & exercised.  Wasted a day.

Today I got up on time.  Totally half asleep until I got roughly half way through my exercises.  Feeling much better & energized today!

I turned on the Canadian National news channel.  Covid numbers are on the rise, Donald Trump is pretty much encouraging vigilante justice on any protest, there are hurricanes on the East coast, & now the West coast is dealing with wild fires.  If I lived in the USA, I’m pretty sure I’d take 2 mental health days a week.  Yet I think it was a month or 2 ago that Stephen Colbert showed a poll of Americans 72% said that what’s going on is terrible while 28% thought everything was fine.  That’s an odd 28%.

I’m done buying guitars once I order the one in February.  We’re not suited for condo life.  A house or whatever Kim wants in the meantime.  Kim wants an attached garage so she doesn’t have to drag my wheelchair through the snow.  It has to be wheelchair accessible.  I’d prefer a finished basement & an easily accessible deck or patio in the backyard.  2 bathrooms, 2 or 3 bedrooms & hopefully delightful surprises of a bedroom & bathroom in the basement.  I can’t really help with renovations, although we’re sure some will be needed.

I look at guitars online for fun with zero intention of purchasing another until we are comfortable in a house, probably not even then?  If I wanted another guitar I’d have to play the 1 coming to me & the one I hope to order in February (both for a long time) to find out what I’d want or I’d have to be making money with my guitars?

I royally embarrassed myself on the weekend.  My brother, very laid back, brought over his new amplifier so I could hear it and he could try my guitars.  He got it all set up, grabbed a guitar and played through his amp.  He’s has always been a MUCH better player than me.  He handed me the guitar & I literally said out loud “What do I know?” I froze, I was clueless & then I played like crap.  I’m pretty sure he didn’t care that much, if at all.  I thought what I played was terrible & embarrassing.  I spent 4 years, if not more, rehearsing & playing live with him, but I choked in my house in front of my brother. All I can say is anxiety sucks!  I know that next time it will be much better, I know I can relax around any family members.

Kim & I did some math on the weekend regarding my RDSP (Retirement Disability Savings Plan).  Money will be tight until my amplifier & guitar are paid for, but afterwards we’ll have a little more room to breathe.  I have no plans at all in getting another guitar.  Our bank account agrees with me on this decision.

I’m glad I saw this review/demo of an Evertune guitar bridge.  I didn’t know what they were or why they’re such a big deal.  Now that I know what the purpose is, I’m glad I don’t/won’t own one.  Takes the fun/skill out of playing guitar if you ask me.

Saturday evening I actually felt relaxed for the first time in months or even years.  It was 10:00 pm, Kim & Brewster were in bed.  I had a rum on the rocks & watched a Blue Jays game in the dark.  I can’t remember the last time I felt that calm.  Seems that I’m always worried about what’s around the corner or what we’re gonna do at this point in the future.  It finally felt like I could just let go for a while.

A lazy fall Sunday!  Watched an afternoon baseball game while Kim was making beef barley soup.  Went for a drive to get out of the house, had soup for supper.  Played guitar, watched TV and called it day.

Learned this 1st one on Sunday night.  2nd one just kinda happened over the week, & I’m still kinda working on the switching to the important parts where 1 of 5 guitars stands out for a bit on this 3rd song.

Ended up just messing around in different tunings & figured out these riffs…

For some reason I usually finish up a few hours playing guitar with this song?

“I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-David Eric Grohl    

We’re all Global Citizens,

Chris          

“Listen to one another”-Ellen Degeneres

ALL IS WELL

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Exercise total for 5 days. 

500 Curls w/ 20 pound dumb bells

300 Shoulder raises/Chest presses w/ 10 pound dumb bells

900 Crunches

750 Leg lifts

300 Squats   

420 Back flexes

1:20 hour of yoga over 2 days

I just needed a break.  I’m feeling good this week and even upped some of my numbers during my repetitions went up this week.  Just feeling much better physically & mentally.  Muscles are sore but its Friday and it’s a long weekend!  I’ll be good to go next week!  I guess that’s my 2nd full week off this year, I was due.

I can see all of those exercise numbers staying where they are for quite a while.  My left arm is noticeably weaker than my right arm.  I notice it all of the time other than when I’m playing guitar.

I forgot since there are no CFL games this year & I gave up my season tickets.  I used to either take a few cans of food or $20 extra to a game where they have bins out for donations to the food bank.  Kim donated $25 to the food bank earlier this week.  I’m sure we’ll go through our storage unit & donate more clothes this year.

I shouldn’t say we don’t donate.  Kim’s in charge of the money here.  She’ll donate $20 to the legion plus whatever we donate to wear a poppy from November 1st until November 11th.  I always want to give more but we don’t have much more.  I don’t donate since I don’t own a credit card, Kim does from our shared income.  If I was to donate I’d be like Oprah.  “YOU GET $100, YOU GET $100, YOU GET $100, YOU GET $100, etc.”  When I was in the hospital a team of 10 of us raised close to $100,000 4 years for the Canadian Cancer Society.  I’m relatively cheap on most things, if I like what the charity is doing & had a credit card, we’d be seriously in debt FOREVER!

 https://www.youtube.com/embed/pviYWzu0dzk?version=3&rel=1&fs=1&autohide=2&showsearch=0&showinfo=1&iv_load_policy=1&wmode=transparent

Don’t get the idea that we’re going into debt for my hobby.  The guitar coming to me, hopefully sooner than later, is payed for & I’m about half way saved for the 2nd one that I hope to order in February.  Those savings & donating to a few charities won’t sink us.  Other than food, bills, Kim’s clothing, Brewster’s pills & vet bills, music, & guitar maintenance stuff.  We don’t spend money.  Charities often get a donation & if we’re a little tight for cash every once in a while, I just don’t add money to my guitar savings.  Once I get/save enough for my guitar to be ordered & amplifier, I’m done with luxurious purchases for at minimum a decade. 

https://www.long-mcquade.com/154076/Guitars/Guitar-Amps/Boss/Katana-50-MkII-Combo-Amplifier.htm

https://www.long-mcquade.com/12567/Guitars/Guitar_Effects/Boss/FS-6_-_Dual_Footswitch.htm

Maybe we’ll find a house next year in our price range?  If we do, the guitar & amplifier get pushed back.  After looking online earlier this week, I’m doubtful, I saw absolutely nothing on the market in our price range in Regina.  Not even something we wouldn’t look at.  I mean zilch, zero, nothing.  We both hope to find a wheelchair accessible house next year.  More than anything that’s easily at the top of our “wish list”.

For the record I’m not getting a Core line PRS, WAY TOO EXPENSIVE!  I have an S2 model on the way here & I’m saving for a different S2.  2nd least expensive type they make other than the SE line from their factory in Indonesia.  Price wise it goes SE, S2, Bolt on necks, Core, Private Stock, & Artists line.

https://www.prsguitars.com/

As of mid-week I started working on 2 other songs along with the other 2.  I was practicing the tremolo picking at the start of the song & Kim obviously didn’t like it.  The door was latched pretty quick.  “THAT’S WHAT YOU GET FOR BUYING ME A 7 STRING GUITAR!  THANK YOU!”

The intro is a little tricky, but it has gotten much better since I’ve been just playing it randomly.

They’re all pretty different.  I can see the Trivium song taking a while & probably the Pearl Jam song since I’ve decided to learn lead guitar.  I’ve never even thought to play lead parts until recently.  I was a singer in a band that learned to play guitar to fill out the sound.  I can say that the Our Lady Peace song is learned & get’s played a lot because it’s fun along with numerous other songs.

I guess “Barstool Prophets” is good music for me to cook to!  I boiled noodles, Kim ran out for an ingredient for the rest of it.

2 back to back Blue Jay games today starting at 2:00 pm & the fridge is full of healthy stuff, condiments, & a little beer.  I’ll have to get rid of a beer or 2 today to free up some space!

“I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-David Grohl 

We’re all Global Citizens,

Chris 

“Listen to each other” –Ellen Degeneres 

ROUGH WEEK MENTALLY

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Exercise total for 5 days.

0 Curls w/ 20 pound dumb bells

0 Shoulder raises/Chest presses w/ 10 pound dumb bells

250 Crunches

250 Leg lifts

100 Squats

140 Back flexes

0 hour of yoga over 0 days

 

I forgot to take my night time pills Monday night.  I didn’t sleep at all until 4:30 am after I took my pills.  I didn’t exercise the rest of the week.  That exercise total is what I did on Monday.

That night of not sleeping threw me off of my routine.  My body & mind just yelled at me “NO, IT’S TIME TO JUST STOP FOR THIS WEEK & RELAX”.  Great, I don’t really know how to relax?  I should have seen this coming.  I knew I’d need to rest at some point & I was hoping the Labour Day weekend would do it for me but I guess my energy ran out before the long weekend.  I guess that’s also a perk for me?  I can shut it down when I need to, doesn’t mean that I like to.  Feels more like a waste of a week.

Personally, I’m just tired.  Even watching Blue Jay baseball (I watch as much of it as possible every year) feels like a chore since I really don’t watch TV.  I exercise 5 days a week, I play a TON of guitar & I watch a little TV.  You factor in eating, showering, random household stuff, & sleeping, that’s a typical 24 hours for me & sleeping is only about 6-7 hours of it.

I don’t know if I’m tired or ready to embrace getting older?  I just want to kick back grab a guitar & not think about anything for a while.  Time to do nothing at all.  I already feel like I’m so far behind everyone but I’m just tired of trying to catch up to everyone.  I’m not about to give up, I just need/needed a short break.  I may not make a lot of money but I still feel as though I need to earn that disability check.

As for my guitar being delayed, it really wasn’t a downer for me.  I chose to put a positive spin on it.  Sure I ordered it in January.  I also chose to go with a fancy PRS guitar, since I researched it & the company so much.  Knowing that part of the delay was due to them looking for a blemish free piece of wood for the top of the body on the guitar is exactly the reason I wanted a PRS.  Yep it’s not cheap & some people might think that’s a waste of money, but the fact that they’re looking for a nice piece of wood that will be ¼” thick when all is said & done, that tells me that they’re likely quite particular about everything else going into that guitar, which was in the research I did.

S2 Custom 22 Semi-Hollow Body Guitar w/Gig Bag - McCarty Sunburst

That guitar has been saved for financially & if everything goes according to plan I’ll be placing an order for a different PRS S2 guitar in February.  I know already that I don’t want anything else in the meantime or after I upgrade my amplifier.  I’m keeping it simple.  If it turns out that were in a pinch financially, that’s where any & all funds go to.  Less stuff for me means less stuff can go wrong or needs repair.  I should mention that Kim’s fine with me getting the amplifier now.  Now that I know PRS are backed up 10-12 months due to Covid and that there is a 90-180 day delay regardless.  I’ll put down the 10% to order it in February & hope to get the guitar in December or in early 2022.

Yeah that exact model & colour to be ordered in February hopefully.  Then save for this amplifier & footswitch.

https://www.long-mcquade.com/154076/Guitars/Guitar-Amps/Boss/Katana-50-MkII-Combo-Amplifier.htm

https://www.long-mcquade.com/12567/Guitars/Guitar_Effects/Boss/FS-6_-_Dual_Footswitch.htm

Once I’m done with those purchases, I’m done with big purchases for a LONG time!  I researched the crap out of that specific PRS guitar & the amplifier.  The guitar is more expensive & it’ll come first.

You can call me whatever you want.  I’m OK with my progress & it’ll continue.  I get to have some fun along the way & for me that’s being in familiar surroundings & playing guitar.  Other than purchasing music & guitar related maintenance stuff, I don’t spend money & I don’t make a lot of money.  I’ve chosen 7 or 8 bands that I’ll purchase CD recordings of, 5 or 6 bands I’ll buy on iTunes, stream a lot of other stuff, I’ve given up on going to live shows other than a handfull of groups that might be here or in the 2 neighboring provinces, we cutback on our cable & streaming services, we don’t go out for any meals & somehow we’ll still be in a tight spot financially in the future.  Oh well, so are a lot of other people.

I went all “Marie Kondo” on my stuff & realized I don’t really need all of this stuff now.  Family, friends, & guitars are a part of my daily life & happiness.

If I’m destined to be a hermit, so be it…I might as well enjoy it!  More than anything, I want to do the right thing by staying out of the way for other people, & not bother anyone.  Someone needs help, I’ll do what I can.  I don’t want much & I don’t think I have a lot to give, if you think I do, I’ll look for it.

I’m not financially rich by any means, so I’ll live within my limits, be fine with that, & carry on.  Will I ever walk again?  I have no idea, it seems as though any strength/muscle I gain won’t really affect my balance which is the issue, but being stronger won’t hurt.

I turn on the local Regina news or the Canadian National news because all I see everywhere else is based on what’s going on in America.  Wild fires, hurricanes, Republican National Convention, 184,471 deaths due to Covid-19 in the USA, murder hornets, what stupid thing the President did today, an innocent man shot in the back 7 times by a cop, a 17 year old with an assault rifle shooting into a group of people thinking he’s rightly joining Trump’s henchmen, etc.  Guess what’s on any Canadian news I try to watch?  The same thing.  What are they saying at the RNC?  “WHO WANTS 4 MORE YEARS!!!!”?  I live in Canada & I don’t even want 4 more seconds of what looks like a shit show from here.

Donald Trump didn’t start this.  He also hasn’t/isn’t doing anything to correct it.  He’s sent out an unidentified army to arrest innocent people doing legal peaceful protests while blindly looking away & I’m worried about what people think of me?  Donnie, look in the mirror and wonder what people think of you & what YOU haven’t done……YOUR JOB!

 

John Petrucci (Dream Theater) & Metallica’s S & M 2 came out today that I was waiting for & a buddy of mine recommended some Rancid (punk music) to me after I asked about this band.

 

“I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-David Grohl 

We’re all Global Citizens,

Chris

“Listen to each other” –Ellen Degeneres

I DON’T KNOW HOW TO RELAX

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What has been on heavy rotation for me lately, “Ghost Reveries” by Opeth, and “One Day Remains” by Alter Bridge.

 

We headed out of town after Kim was done work on Wednesday, July 15th.  We went to visit her parents, just south of Prince Albert, about a 3:30 hour drive.  It’s actually a hamlet with a population of less than 40 people.  Quiet & very relaxing.  I’d say it’s just as relaxing as my family’s cabin.  I can’t go out to the cabin anymore, it’s not wheelchair accessible in anyway.

Kim’s parents’ place is easier for me to get around in with my wheelchair.  The only issue is that it takes me a lot longer to adapt to my surroundings in a wheelchair.

The biggest issue was in my head.  I was in a VERY relaxed space, but I just felt guilty about not doing something.  I couldn’t stop thinking that I should be exercising, making my week of food, tending to our dishes, etc.

The first 2 of the 3 nights we were there I didn’t sleep well at all for some reason?  We’d go to bed around 10:00 pm every night, but the first 2 nights I was wide awake at 2:20 am then 5:00 am the second night.  I crashed hard for a solid 3 hour nap Friday afternoon & slept really well that night.

Don’t ask me why, my brain just doesn’t stop thinking about what I feel I should be doing.  I still feel as though I’m at least 20 years behind everyone.  I continue to think to myself that I don’t deserve a break since I have so much to do before I can even consider resting.

The only time I feel it’s acceptable to take a break is when Kim has time off, calendar holidays, if I’m sick (which actually feels like a waste of time to me), and when my body just yells at me in pain (another waste of time to me).

Even though I couldn’t feel relaxed, it was nice to go there to see them & Kim’s brother made it for supper on Thursday & Friday.  The bonus were the fresh homemade cinnamon buns!

The entire time we spent there I thought it was me just not being used to my surroundings.  I slept fine Friday night there.  We got home Saturday afternoon & I slept fine Saturday night.  Then comes Sunday night & I barely slept.  Got out of bed around 5:00 am.  Did a few things around the house (quietly), had my breakfast, & finished my exercise by 7:30 am.

 

When I practice guitar I use a metronome when I do scales & finger exercises.  I play rhythm stuff, so I don’t want the beat to change.  As stated in this video, there are 3 things that make up musicality.  Rhythm, melody, & harmony.  Go to 2:15 minutes in the video to hear what Paul Reed Smith has to say about that…

I’ve found that practicing unplugged REALLY helps, as does practicing on my acoustic guitar (which I need to do more often).  I see a week of Led Zeppelin coming at me!  “Kashmir”, “Whole Lotta Love”, “Houses of the Holy”, & more “Immigrant Song”!

Shipment date for this guitar ordered in January is still set for August 21st 2020.  Feels like a lifetime though!

S2 Custom 22 Semi-Hollow Body Guitar w/Gig Bag - McCarty Sunburst

I’m still saving for this guitar which would arrive 3 months after I place the order or 6 months if they’re backed up still due to the virus.  If everything works out, I hope to order it in the spring.

S2 McCarty 594 Electric Guitar with Gigbag - Whale Blue

I’m hoping an upgrade in paint colour won’t be too much extra, if it is I’ll stick with the ‘Whale Blue’ colour that’s offered.  I’d like it to be in this ‘Violet Blue Burst’ colour.

I’ll stop spending money & hopefully get this amplifier & footswitch in 2022.  Kim tells me to continue saving up for this.  I’d like to get this sooner than later, but I have a decent amplifier to use while I wait a bit.

https://www.long-mcquade.com/154076/Guitars/Guitar-Amps/Boss/Katana-50-MkII-Combo-Amplifier.htm

https://www.long-mcquade.com/12567/Guitars/Guitar_Effects/Boss/FS-6_-_Dual_Footswitch.htm

Quality over quantity.  I am VERY excited for my guitar to get here in August.  Probably looks like just another guitar to most people.  Even the salesman that’s helping me order it from the factory is pretty enthusiastic about it.

Guitar first, then the amplifier & footswitch later on.  This is as long as everything goes as planned & is perfect.  I think we can all agree that the world is far from perfect at the moment.

Definite progress during Monday’s guitar practice on these 2 songs.  Practiced parts of them on my acoustic over the weekend!

I gotta say that not being able to sing has made me attempt more technical guitar parts (to me) that I wouldn’t have even considered before.  I’m really not into solos though.  They just don’t seem as memorable to me.

With the President’s polling numbers are in the gutter, he could turn them around a bit if he’d just do his job & let Dr. Fauci speak as to how to deal with the virus.

I wish Donald Trump would swallow his pride, admit he’s wrong about the Coronavirus at least & help save lives.  Instead he’s done the complete opposite, almost to the point he’s encouraging death to the USA citizens.  Just a sad, screwed up situation.

Please wear a mask in public, practice physical distancing, & listen to health professionals & local government.  EVERYWHERE!!!!

 

Metallica are set to release their CD & Movie “S&M2” on August 28th (Symphony & Metallica) with the San Francisco Symphony Orchestra.  Here’s the single, a new acoustic song for this occasion.

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P.S.  I was practicing Monday night unplugged.  I finished up for the evening, I was feeling pretty good about my practice & thought I’d have a small bowl of ice cream while hanging out with Kim.  SHE ATE MY ICE CREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I was gonna hold off on buying the amplifier, but that changed instantly, so she told me to have a banana?!  She didn’t care about the amplifier, she ate my Ben & Jerry’s.

“I FEEL LIKE SHIT BUT AT LEAST I FEEL SOMETHING”

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490 Curls w/ 20 pound dumb bells

265 Shoulder raises/Chest presses w/ 10 pound dumb bells

850 Crunches

850 Leg lifts

300 Squats

425 Back flexes

1:00 hour of yoga over 2 days

Played around by extending my repetitions this week, nothing set in stone yet.  I was pissed off this week & pushed things to the maximum.

 

Learning on guitar “Trivium” the song “The Heart from your Hate”

 

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Sorry to start with.  I asked for more subscribers earlier this week and thanks for coming to read this.  Unfortunately this is not a typical happy post.  Bad week that got worse as it went on.  I let too many things influence my mood.  I’ve re-writen this 4 or 5 times but the same stuff comes out in different words.

 

I’m not a trend setter or influencer, I know that.  That’s really not something I’ve ever been.  I’m a 40 year old physically disabled white male.  About as bland as they come.  I keep my head down & try not to make any waves.  I’m home ALL of the time.  I eat healthy, I exercise 5 days a week, & I practice guitar.  I know I’ve inspired one person to change their life in a positive way, and that’s great!  It’s nice to know this has had a positive impact on someone’s life.

Am I ever going to be able to walk on my own?  I don’t think so, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to stop trying.  There are things I can’t do, that gets to me every once in a while.  I can’t help my friends do projects to their house, help them move, if I want to go somewhere I need someone to take me, etc.  I guess I just don’t like not being able to help with things.  I don’t want to be the one that needs help, but if I do, I’m not afraid to ask.

Yeah I know I have a VERY LONG list of things to do that I probably won’t accoplish in my life.  Other people are much further along than I am, yet many seem to think “Hey, he’s doing pretty good” and leave it at that.  I’m not content with myself personally.

I’ve learned that if you’re not trying to better yourself, you’ll likely get left behind.  So I’m trying to make up 4 ½ years I spent living in a hospital that set me back about 30 years or more, I KNOW I have a LOOOOOONG way to go & I feel like Kim & I are being left behind because of me.  The likelyhood of me being nothing more than a statistic becomes more apparent with each passing day.

I watch my local Regina, Saskatchewan news, Canadian national news,  Stephen Colbert, Jimmy Kimmel, & Ellen Degeneres.  On all of them, not nearly as much on Ellen, the majority of the show is about how messed up everything is.  Even on my local news I hear stories such as; this virus is getting worse, too many people aren’t following the social distancing rules because it’s summer & staying home doing nothing is too hard, the murder of George Floyd, Donald Trump enabled this evil & fumbled up this situation, murder hornets, a tornado by my wife’s hometown, a police officer shot an unarmed black man in Atlanta on the weekend after the man was searched and no weapons were found, & climate change denyers.  Did I miss anything?  Oh yeah there was a news story a while ago confirming that UFOs are real, nobody did anything about mass shootings, that topic was just glazed over when the next problem occurred, homelessness, & 3rd World countries, lets keep doing nothing so we can deal with 30 problems at once?  After all of that garbage & the STRONG possibility that Donald Trump will start a war, I stayed in bed on Wednesday & Thursday until 10:00 am, wide awake, tossing & turning & crying.  Today wasn’t any better.

I don’t hate America one bit so don’t get me wrong as I say this please? 

After some research & general knowledge, Canada is WAY different than America.  America has money, power, & Donald Trump.  If I have to pay more, live in a country with weaker influence, live in a colder climate, have health care, not have the same history of racism to NOT live under the “Law & Order” of Donald Trump, I’ll take that any day of the week.  Does Canada have racism among other problems?  YES, but nothing like what’s going on south of the border.  I’ve never read, been taught, or have seen anything like the mess America is dealing with in Canada.

If America is named the “Greatest Country in the World”, the rest of us are waiting & listening, but not much coming out of America is very useful?  I don’t watch Jimmy Kimmel or Stephen Colbert for news that sucks that I’ve already seen.  I watch them to be entertained & maybe have a laugh or 2.  More than ever the wind from America is blowing north to Canada.

I go on social media & people comment about their displeasure with the current American administration.  I state that I’m Canadian, don’t know what it’s like to live there but agree with the statement.  That same random individual will immediately respond telling me to SHUT THE FRONT DOOR or call me a name.  Now people in the USA want Canada’s help??????????????????  WTF??????

I don’t hate America or the people that live there.  I do think that as a country it is HIGHLY over rated though.  Greatness isn’t just rated on wealth & strength.

I watch videos like that & think to myself immediately that “I need to practice WAY  more”!  I already know that he’s WAY ahead of me on guitar.

This is what I do when I change strings of my guitars, always.  You’ve got to take care of them.  I never wipe my strings off until I play them, I always clean the back of the guitar neck when restringing it & most times that I play a guitar.

I’ll be getting rid of a few things for cash that we could use.  My mountain bike that hasn’t been touched since my brother used it for the summer of 2008.  It’s only been used in the city.  Similar to this…

https://www.trekbikes.com/ca/en_CA/bikes/mountain-bikes/cross-country-mountain-bikes/marlin/marlin-5/p/33136/?colorCode=orange_grey

3 guitar effect pedals that I don’t use.  I don’t play live/loudly anymore, so I don’t need them.  Hopefully I can get $50 for each of them since they were $120-$180 new, when I had no other expenses.

After selling/trading that stuff in, I’m pretty sure the guitar & amplifier aren’t going to happen.  I feel like I tried to hard & people are dumbfouded that I want something nice?  I guess I can’t have nice things?  OK, I’ll stay in my lane, I’ll play my role.  Researching & getting excited about the guitar & amplifier was a waste of my time!  I’d rather not have nice material things I enjoy, a $2200 guitar & a $329 amplifier, than be the source of hate for other people.

I don’t have money or influential power, I’m physically disabled.  I’ll help the world by pointing out it’s MANY problems.  Justin Trudeau will throw money at them & Donald Trump will tell everyone lies about how perfect everything is.  I’ll keep an inventory of what issues need to be dealt with & what the new ones coming in are.  Everyone else, wake up the Federal leaders that were elected to do this sort of job.  Wake them up peacefully or they might hide in a bunker & lie about it!

Maybe if I didn’t care so much, I wouldn’t be so INCREDIBLY disappointed?  The news really bummed me out this week.

Sorry to disappoint anyone but there’s also no video of me playing guitar on the Facebook site for this blog.  I did one on Monday & didn’t post it because it was terrible.  I have played hundreds of times before cancer, but not really since.  I’m an idiot!  I’ll post some photos & a video of my ordered guitar when it gets here.  I don’t need a perfectionist to dissect my mediocre guitar playing on social media.  That’s not fun for me.  Maybe on my personal page sometime?  For now I’ll post a video that I watch more often than I should because it’s VERY well done & it makes me smile!

 

YAY new “Lamb of God” day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

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WEDNESDAY DECEMBER 18, 2019 (HOLIDAY UPDATE)

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I had no intension of taking a break, exercise wise, over the holidays.  I changed my mind after the week off in November.  My sleeping pattern does not like all of this stress.  So I was awake half of the night Sunday, slept in Monday, felt lazy & tired ended up doing nothing.  Went to bed at 9:30 pm Monday night.  Got up to pee at 2:40 am, couldn’t fall asleep.  Got out of bed @ 3:20 am and did some stuff in the kitchen quietly.  Felt really tired around 8:30 am, crawled in bed.  Showered, had lunch & it was 2:30 pm.

All of this is not good for me.  My mind hasn’t known how to relax in the last 3 years or so, & it’s getting worse.  When I was in my rehabilitation program I was severely depressed & was put on an anti-depressant/sleeping pill to combat the negative thoughts in my head so I could sleep.  I’m not having negative thoughts now, I just feel like I have so much to do, but my body doesn’t want to keep up.  With the house being listed, its holiday season, & I put stress on myself to get as much done in a day as possible, I’m tired, a bit grumpier than usual & generally feel like I’m just wasting days by not exercising.

I hate having our house listed.  I’m physically handicapped with no driver’s license but when someone wants to see our place, Brewster & I have to disappear for the 30-45 minutes someone’s here.  Much easier said than done.  My parents are in town until they go on a trip about a week in to the New Year.  Then Kim will have to get us out of here.  With her being on contract, she doesn’t like to take time off since she doesn’t get paid if she’s not at work.  With all of that going on I’m more stressed than ever.  I’m not depressed or crying (like I was in my Rehab program), however I do feel anxious all of the time.

I guess we can add the fact that my brother has another surgery coming up shortly after Christmas.  The first one wasn’t enough.  I worry about him too.  He had back surgery for bone spurs on his shoulders that were causing his arms & hands to go numb at random times, 5 months of disability & some of that doing physiotherapy.  He went back to work for 2 weeks of shortened shifts & he’ll be heading to Saskatoon for a 2nd surgery, this time through the front of his body, because the numbing sensation came back.  Between my dad, mom, brother, & I, we’ve all had some type of surgery.  My parents have both had eye surgeries, mom’s had one knee replaced & soon another, my brother is dealing with his back surgeries, & I’ve had 3 brain surgeries.

As for the house being on the market, at this point I’ve lost all hope of the stars aligning for us to sell & find a new (wheelchair accessible) place in Regina in our price range.  They’re completely gone at the moment.  Our contract is up on December 31st.  I told Kim “Do what you want.  I’m out, I’m not looking.  If I need to disappear, that’s not my problem.  I figure we could be here for 5 more years, & I just don’t care.  We have nowhere to move to.  The entire reason we put this place up for sale was for a forever home that sold 3 weeks after we hit the market.  The contract at that time was to remove our place from the market if our dream house sold, & it did.  I’m out.  I’m not going to stop you or our realtor from looking, I’ll willingly see a house you find, but I’m not searching for something that is likely not there at the moment.  I’ll start house hunting online again in March”.  We’ve lowered the price once & that’s as low as its going.

As of today it is 6 years to the day that we moved into this condo.  Nothing wrong with this place, we’re just much younger than the average resident here.  My parents are young & I’m guessing they’re younger than the average person here?  I’d like to move, but I don’t see things working out for us in the near future.

We signed our mortgage papers at the bank on Monday, my name is on it but Kim handles the money here.  I saw what our mortgage payment is each month, & I’m thinking that guitar I was going to order is better off at the factory.  Kim disagrees still?  I don’t know what I was thinking to begin with now.  I cancelled my football tickets for next year, which is what I’d prefer to happen in for many different reasons, then wanted to buy a really nice/moderately expensive guitar?  The guitar’s still up for discussion despite me having a decent portion of the money already.

Everyone’s Christmas gifts have been purchased & are wrapped under the tree.  That stress is over.  What’s bugging me now is that I have possibly 30 years of exercise to cram in ASAP.  Even then I’ll likely be using a walker.  I’m disappointing myself.  Especially if I’m sitting around, doing nothing but thinking of what I need to do.

As for eating & drinking over the holidays, not much has changed in that department.  We drink store bought non-alcoholic light egg nog.  I occasionally put it in the few coffees I have a week & I’ve had 2 glasses of ½ egg nog, ½ skim milk, with a shot of Kahlua.  After the 8(?) Holiday sweets I’ve had so far, I’ve determined they just make me feel sick & I don’t need them.  So I’m basically still drinking a minimum of 3 liters of water a day, 2 eggs a piece of fruit & homemade vegetable juice for breakfast, lettuce wraps w/Turkey deli meat for lunch & a small meal at supper.  I also have 3 small snacks a day.

In the spirit of trying to help people out I’m helping a couple people learn guitar with me.  I know what to do, just have to get my left hand used to it again.  No I’ve never charged anyone.  I was ‘teaching’ two friends before cancer, so I figured I’d help a couple people out again.  I don’t charge anyone because A) They’re friends/family   B) I’m just a singer that learned guitar to be more comfortable on stage, my knowledge is very limited.  I’m happy to say that I can tell that there’s progress every day.

I was always a rhythm guitarist, but I’ve been doing mostly individual finger exercises & different scale patterns on the guitar to strengthen my hand.  It helped!  Things are getting much better!  Figured out the main guitar riff for this, wasn’t able to play it before cancer, I probably didn’t try enough.

Right hand rhythm works fine, left hand fretting needs some work, but it’s getting there!  More guitar practice as things are becoming more familiar with it.  Practice on the acoustic then play it on the electric.

One good night of sleep & today I got up on time, had a good workout and was able to manage my time better!  I plan to keep exercising next week, it will likely be a day or 3 of shortened exercise, 25th & 26th anyways.

 

What have I been listening to?  Pretty much anything but Christmas/Holiday music.  Still just not ready for it?

 

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IT’S 11:30 PM ON SUNDAY DECEMBER 15TH

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I should have called this site “the ramblings of a brain cancer survivor”, probably would have cleared things up for everyone.  I’m writing this & I’m not even sure that I’ll post it.  I think I’ve turned into a person that can’t live without stress?

I’ll turn 40 on January 30th, so it’s not that far away, that’s not what bothers/worries me at all.  I don’t know if it’s the few sugary Christmas sweets I’ve had, the slight increase in alcohol over the weekend or the fact our house is still for sale?  Whatever it is, I feel about ready to vomit.  I’m guessing it’s the house.

We’ve had 2 recent viewings.  One on Thursday & another this afternoon.  We’re not expecting to hear anything until Monday or Tuesday.  Every time that someone sees the house my stomach just starts to twist & turn the minute I hear about it.  I start to think “I need to do this, this, this, that, this, etc.”  Then we make ourselves busy for the next 45 minutes & return after the viewing so I can start thinking again “Did we do this, this, this, that, that, etc.”  This could easily explain why I’m awake still & can’t fall asleep, yeah I’m on medication to slow my thoughts down in order to sleep at night.  It’s a bitch when I forget to take them on the very rare occasion.

It’s a newish condo, in really good condition.  We’re the original owners & I have a couple of ideas as to why it’s not selling, but I’m also not a realtor.  I’m guessing the biggest reason is there are roughly 1,000 brand new condos in Regina (a small city).  This isn’t “Field of Dreams”, “If you build it, they will come” it’s Regina.

Whatever happened to the theory of “supply & demand”?  We have too much supply & no demand.  Condos are built, nobodies coming.  I’ve never even taken simple economics?!?!

Our selling contract is up at the end of the month & at this point if it’s renewed or not, I couldn’t care less.  We’re going to the bank Monday, December 16th to renew our mortgage either way.  We’ve been on the market since late fall, & no offer despite the viewings we’ve had.  Every time we have a viewing, I worry myself sick.

I just checked online today that even if we sell the outlook of us finding a wheelchair accessible place has become INCREDIBLY slim, & they weren’t great before that.  I wish I was the type of person that didn’t worry about stuff so much.  I just want to throw up!  I was tired before & now I have a headache.  Stress &/or anxiety have become my middle name over the past 8 ½ years or so.  “Will I get cancer again?  What will happen if I do?  How will it all affect Kim and everyone else?  Did I do my exercises properly?  Did I practice this?  What should I work on tomorrow?  How long will this recovery thing take?  Will our place sell?  If it does where are we going to live?  Why isn’t there anything in our price range? Etc.”  I worry WAY too much!

Take your average holiday stress, add being stressed more often than not, and then add trying to sell your house with stuff piled up against that happening.  Once you do that, then you might be close to where I am?

Oh ya, I got a letter for another cancer check up with the doctor that calls me FAT.  I know what my response will be this time though “Thanks for noticing, do I have cancer?” “No?  Thanks, we’ll see you next time after I lose more weight, look like a skeleton & your body shaming me…….again.”

Great that I’ll have that appointment a week & a ½ after our 15th wedding anniversary!

I can deal with the wheelchair & eye patch thing.  After being given a 5-15% chance of coming out of a coma in 2008, when do these “routine checkups” stop, when do I get to live?  Am I going to be spinning my wheels forever?  Sure feels that way!

There’s a good chance that someone will give me crap for this, believe it or not.  That seems to be the normal reaction 75% of the time to anything I say or do, so I’m used to it now.

 

SORRY ABOUT THE LAME POST.  I TOLD YOU I’D BE BRUTALLY HONEST.

 

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MERRY CHRISTMAS, HAPPY HOLIDAYS, & ENJOY SOME TIME AWAY FROM WORK

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Let’s face it most people have lost sight of what Christmas is about, including me.  I’m a Christian so I can only speak about Christianity & Christian event, such as Christmas.  Right there I’ll admit I’m ignorant/uninformed regarding other Religions & none religious people.  What I’m about to say will could get me into trouble with others, but hear me out please.  We’re all atheists.  Why would I say that as a Christian who believes in God?  How many religions are there in the universe?  I don’t know.  Ricky Gervais (an atheist) explained it to Stephen Colbert (a Catholic).  This explains a portion of what I mean.

So, with that being explained & feel free to argue either side of it.  Why do people exchange gifts at Christmas?  Initially it was to celebrate the birth of Jesus, then it was Jesus’ birthday.  Now that all of us have lost sight of that, people just assume it’s what you do.  Spend money on others.  Some gifts have already been purchased this season.  These are my thoughts for the future.

I know this won’t reach everyone.  How about next Christmas we all save our money, spend it on ourselves or save it for whatever reason & just show up for others.  Maybe there’s a person or group you haven’t spoken with recently that you’d like to spend time with?  Show up, be where you’re needed or would like to be.  It won’t cost you anything more than possibly travel expenses.  You won’t lose anything, just contact whoever however & ask if you can meet with them.  It’s not religious, anyone can meet with someone at any time.  As a society we’ve already lost sight of the ceremonial Christmas act, & whatever spirit (Life in general included) flows through everyone, just show up & be there with someone.  If you want to bring a gift great!  If you don’t that’s OK too, you’re there!  Your presence should be a gift in itself.  You shouldn’t have to expect a gift on any occasion.

There are very kind people out there who will help when needed.  Some may not be able to help other than just being there for someone even at those times life can get busy.

I would have liked to be elsewhere for other people today, mourning the death of a family member.  I couldn’t be there.  I can’t drive legally and things came up for the people I was going with?  Sure I was disappointed at first, then I realized there’s nothing I could have done to change this scenario.

My psychiatrist had an appointment with me on Monday, I received a phone call just before I started writing this, and my appointment had to be rescheduled to February 10th.  Knee jerk reaction from me off of the phone “What was the point of making the appointment in the first place?”  I don’t know the details of the rescheduling maybe a personal matter came up.  The next available date was December 24th, that didn’t work with my schedule.  February 10th was the next available time & it works.

What am I trying to get at?  A person does not need to understand every minor detail that effects them.  They have to acknowledge that not everything works for everyone.

As an example; many people, including myself, don’t fully understand the #LGBTQ community.  I understand most of it as a straight person.  The thing is, you don’t have to understand it.  You have to acknowledge it.  Not everyone is the same as the next.  The part of that which I don’t understand I can acknowledge that others fell that way & it doesn’t affect me personally in any way.

Am I happy?  Mostly, I could do without the cancer portion but I acknowledge that it happened & my cancer could affect others.  That happened, I can’t change that or many other things.  Can I change other people or their views & opinions?  Maybe?  Do I need to?  Some, but only if they want to change.  I can change me and help others who want to change.  If someone is happy with how they are, there’s not much anyone can do for them other than acknowledge & be OK with the situation at hand.

Holiday tip!  If you can’t do any of this, drink alcohol if you’re of age.  You can be a quiet drunk or a loud belligerent drunk & blame it on the alcohol!

 

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I’M MAKING SOME CHANGES FOR THE BETTER

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I’m not counting Monday since it was more unpacking & getting settled at home as well as just playing my guitars.

4 day exercise total; 600 leg lifts, 800 crunches, 200 squats, 200 back flexes, 130 pushups, 750 curls (10 pounds), 550 tricep extensions (7 pounds), 400 shoulder raises (7 pounds).  Stretching & yoga.

I fell asleep to “Billy Joel” his double album of Greatest Hits, followed by “Elton John” another Greatest Hits album.

I exercised to “The Agonist” the new album “Orphans”

 

 

 

I’ve made a conscious decision to change my habits in general for the better.  I plan to almost stop drinking, sell the clutter of stuff I have but don’t use, & make an effort to just feel better in general.  I’ll still drink alcohol socially, just not a little bit every weekend.  I’ll just continue to drink more water (which I put a bit of apple cider vinegar in now), eat more fruit & vegetables rather than red meat, I’ll just be EXTREMELY conscious of what I put into my body.  I’m relatively healthy when it comes to food & beverages, now I plan to kick it up a notch or 2.

All of this aside, I’ve decided I’m done having season tickets to the Saskatchewan Roughrider home games, a luxury we don’t need, save some cash for more important things.  I think I’m done going to the family cabin also, just too much work since it isn’t wheelchair accessible at all.  These 2 things are being done with a heavy heart.  I figure, I’ll be 40 years old in January & it’s time to grow up.  All part of being a better husband, father to our dog, & a better individual.  If I’m better, maybe others will follow?  Everybody I know is a VERY good person, but there’s always someone doing better than someone else.

I worry about too many things, mostly money!  Don’t have much of it, so I worry about it, every night.  Before cancer & more now that we’re a one income household.  I bring in my Canadian pension & disability, but that’s below the poverty line.  Kim works but she’s on contract.  If she’s not there she doesn’t get paid, sick or on vacation & she bought a benefits package.

Someone told me I was dealt a bad hand.  I looked at it that way & I was bitter for longer than I needed to be.  Then I realized that no one can make you happy other than yourself.  I now understand what this means…

What does this tell me?  I can lead a horse to water but I can’t make it drink the water.

I’m happy in general, but I can do better.  I worry about everything WAY TOO MUCH!!!!!!  No wonder I toss & turn so much for hours before I fall asleep.

Another reason for all of this change is that, my physio & occupational therapists told me they wanted to make me perfect.  Nobody’s perfect but I intend to try ASAP.  That’s what it should say on my tombstone!  “I tried”.  Sorry, that was deep & intense.

Now I’m torn.  I do think the Matt Heafy Les Paul Custom Epiphone 7 string might still be the one.  Problem is A) I have a 6 string Les Paul knock off & similar pickups in an Epiphone Explorer.  B) I do not own a PRS, or any 7 string guitars, which mean more options for tuning.  I’m still leaning towards the Epiphone though.  I used to be a gear head, now I’m all about actual guitars.  I’m selling some of my gear at some seriously discounted prices, since most of it was purchased new in 2001!  These 2 would complete my guitar collection.  I play at home, not live like before.

https://www.long-mcquade.com/22227/Guitars/Electric_Guitars/Gibson/Matt_Heafy_Les_Paul_Custom_7_String_Electric_Guitar.htm

https://www.long-mcquade.com/100345/Guitars/Electric-Guitars/Paul-Reed-Smith/2018-SE-SVN—Seven—7-String-Electric-Guitar—Gray-Black.htm

I know I’ll have to save up & sell some other gear I don’t use.  I’m hoping that after Christmas & my birthday in January I’ll have a good chunk of the cash for likely the Matt Heafy Custom 7 string Epiphone Les Paul?  Matt Heafy is the singer from “Trivium”.

I now don’t think either of these are going to happen for me any time in the near future.  A few other more important & expensive priorities first.  Then MAYBE a guitar?

 

I feel like my old self, but maybe even better?  If someone needs help, I can at least listen.  If someone doesn’t want feedback, I’ll shut my yap.

 

New “In Flames” video!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

See the cost these musicians paid for these albums!  That’s why I’ll pay the small fee of $9.99 per album on iTunes or buy the odd CD.  I’m sure streaming multiple albums or songs a month isn’t hurting anyone, other than streaming site owners aka the new rich people!

https://www.kerrang.com/features/the-most-expensive-rock-and-metal-albums-of-all-time/?utm_campaign=loudwire&utm_medium=social&utm_source=facebook&influencer=true&fbclid=IwAR0WUKF4VReNDaa9s6N7F2X9Psqmtzs16yGr6QalruKJ7l4PxJIbu7MsT-Q

Alter Bridge keeps themselves busy.  If you keep tabs on the band this is no surprise.

Good grief!  I’m still digesting “Fear Inoculum”!  Another Tool album would be great, but I’m also more than happy with their catalogue as it is.  I can hear something new with each listen!

https://loudwire.com/tool-danny-carey-timeline-motivation-next-album/?fbclid=IwAR0GpVwLZalrG6BNnwk9okTpnforQ8m1xHxSee0mw2y4QQiEUyQAm43nJY0

YAY!!!  Dave Mustaine aka Megadeth

I agree with quite a bit of this!!!!  Lamb of God should be on here twice instead of once.  I LOVE the song “Laid to Rest”!

https://www.kerrang.com/features/the-50-best-album-openers-in-metal/?utm_campaign=loudwire&utm_medium=social&utm_source=facebook&influencer=true&fbclid=IwAR0DjDwfzHUHVJ6iLrcCw9Kly-d9KWxx-BB7YtWYdAt-fijtnQ4ZNUgeP6M

No album stuff today, I have much more to come.  I also have 3 releases to come this year.  Extreme metal album today, progressive metal next Friday & “Alter Bridge” on October 18th.

 

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“I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-David Grohl

We’re all Global Citizens,

Chris

Be kind to one another”-Ellen Degeneres