WEEKLY EXERCISE TOTAL/MENTAL HEALTH/THE AGONIST

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5 day exercise total; 200 pushups, 600 leg lifts, 450 crunches, 150 tricep lifts, 450  squats, 300 back flexes.  Yoga & stretching for just over an hour on Thursday.  Today, YAY no water pressure.  Kim walked out the door for work & the water pressure died within 10 minutes.

I fell asleep to “Big Wreck” the 20th anniversary of “In Loving Memory of…”

I exercised to “Foo Fighters” the album “The Colour & the Shape”

NO POST UNTIL MONDAY.  LONG WEEKEND, SEE YOU THEN!

 

When I do my exercises I always try to at least hit my goals, if not exceed them.  By the time Thursday rolls around, I’m very tired.  My muscles on top of my shoulders are sorer this week than last week.  I’m not doing arms next week, 2 days of stretching & yoga next week.  I felt fine, started with my tricep lifts on Tuesday & almost cried in pain, I finished doing 150 of them, then my 200 pushups.  Pushups were fine.  Maybe yoga, stretching, & 200 pushups next week?  I am SO ready for the weekend.  My shoulders are killing me!  I took a muscle relaxant in hope of getting rid of this pain.  I have to make sure I can take certain medications with my regular pills.

All of these pills make me feel old.  I’m going to see a psychiatrist for my depression, not a psychologist.  A psychiatrist will chat briefly & prescribe medication.  I don’t think more pills are what I need.  As much as I don’t like talking about my mood or emotions, that’s probably what I need.  The first thing I’ll tell the doctor is that I would like to not have more pills.  The pills don’t seem to be helping much, if at all.

 

There’s supposed to be a TON of new albums out this year, yet only 7, 4 albums I had no clue about, have been released & I know of 3 that are in the mixing process.  Where is the new “Chevelle”, “Lamb of God”, “Anthrax”, or “Megadeth”?  “Tool”, “Big Wreck”, & “Alter Bridge” are done recording & now mixing.  I’ve got 2 standalone singles from “Big Wreck”.  I hope there is a bit of time between the releases.  I like to give each album a concentrated listen or usually 5 good listens to it before saying anything about it.  I had no clue about “Pink”, “The Damned Things”, “Sum 41” or “Devin Townsend” so those were pleasant surprises!  “Sum 41” won’t be released until mid-July.  Right now “Pink” & “In Flames” are my favourite releases of the year so far.

The 3 in mixing at the moment are the 3 albums I’m really anxious to hear, “Tool”, “Big Wreck”, & “Alter Bridge”.

I know all of this exercise is beneficial.  Right now I’ve got a “…beefy arm & a wing-a-ling….” Beefy on the right arm & wing-a-ling for my left arm.

I use my right arm mostly, my left arm shakes quite a bit.  If I go to fill my water bottle & get a glass of juice.  The water bottle has a lid so I carry that with my left hand, the shaky one.  The glass of juice will be in my right hand.

Did everyone catch the series finale of “The Big Bang Theory”?

 

THE AGONIST

A metal group from the province of Québec, Canada.  I own all of their 5 albums.  I bought their first album on CD when it was released in 2007.  They’re fronted by a female, in 2007 & now.  I think the original singer was replaced for the 4th & 5th album, I know she was replaced but I’m not sure when?  Both were capable of doing death metal vocals & singing.

I saw them on Much Music on the show “Loud” that I recorded since it was on at 3:00 am or some ridiculous time.  They’ve released 5 albums in total, the first 3 are no longer available on iTunes?

 

2007   ONLY ONCE IMAGINED

 

2009   LULLABIES OF THE DORMANT MIND

 

2012   PRISONERS

 

2015   EYES OF PROVIDENCE

 

2016   FIVE

 

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Stay safe out there,

Chris

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WEEKLY EXERCISE TOTAL/OBADIAH PARKER

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5 day exercise total; 200 pushups, 600 leg lifts, 450 crunches, 150 tricep lifts, 450  squats, 300 back flexes.  Yoga & stretching for just over an hour on Thursday.

Let me “Break it down” for you!

3 days of 200 leg lifts, 150 crunches, 150 squats, & 100 back flexes. 1 day of 200 pushups, & 150 tricep lifts.  Then Thursdays are yoga & stretching for a little more than an hour.

I fell asleep to “Puscifer” the album “V is for vagina”

I exercised to “Devin Townsend” the album “Empath”

 

Apparently I won’t be seeing the doctor that tells me to “lose some weight” is not there anymore.  Our brother-in-law works on the servers for the cancer clinic at the Pasqua hospital.  It’s a long story that I haven’t heard as to why that doctor is not there.  I’ll be seeing a new doctor who’s been given my case.

Kim tells me that the reason I’ve had to continue with appointments is that it was because my previous doctor wanted me there.  More info for the story of how the chemo, radiation, & medication helped keep me alive.  I guess this is a double edged sword in some way.

It would be great if they got all of the info regarding what worked to keep me alive & help other patients & doctors with the entire story.  On the other hand I won’t have to deal with someone body shaming me once a year.

The body shaming didn’t bother me at all, I just found it odd & rude.  That was the only doctor that said that to me.  I graduated high school at 185 lbs.  When I went into the hospital I was 265 lbs.  I probably weighed 270 or 280 when I was released & kept eating garbage.  Right now I’m 230 lbs.  If I lose 20 lbs that would be great, any more than that, I’ll look like a bag of bones.

I’m 6’1” with a big frame.  That is the same thing for most of my relatives on my mother’s side of the family.  The majority of my T-Shirts fit me & I feel healthier since doing daily exercise & eating healthier.  I don’t really care how much I weigh as long as I feel good.  Losing 20 more pounds is more of a bonus than a necessity.

 

Trivium’s guess for the release of a new Tool album was WAY off!

https://loudwire.com/trivium-predicted-tool-exact-new-album-release-date/?fbclid=IwAR0NX367cofiVEnNG3u0nBwhl5SmbQsdZZhRGuQcvuYLTnR1BPXu6SM7YjE

I miss “Pantera” too.  I was late to the game.  They were all alive when I got into them through Corey McDonald in SIAST.  They were in different bands at the time though.

I don’t know if rock music needs/wants to be saved?  It’s there, just harder to find.

http://the-radical.com/2019/the-struts-interview/?fbclid=IwAR2ZOpSg2MF5SGFqUj1j_iOKxXhAGSyh1e-plcCQ8cqsbRIGAlhIMJ2s9Zc

REALLY?????????????????????????

https://thehardtimes.net/music/benefit-concert-to-save-guitar-center-features-97-dudes-playing-sweet-child-o-mine/?fbclid=IwAR2ek2mWT9aeE8W80hGsX6EUaN6sYwyB96plGvM0uyeWBH0nFx2WPlZw0Ao

At every home “Saskatchewan Roughriders” game, I hear the song below.  It’s from 1987.  LIVE IN THE NOW PLEASE!

Sorry, Guns n’ Roses aren’t for me.

When you live in Regina, Saskatchewan & have only been to 3 music festivals over 20 years ago.  Not being able to see a festival sucks but it’s the norm in the middle of nowhere.  You’ll be OK Miami.

https://www.rollingstone.com/music/music-news/ultra-music-festival-leaves-miami-833255/?fbclid=IwAR1_vDkhUu7rR8rKgmGQ-rCwQUqITFcGt62gSMmwko9G30l3pebVjoRYZg4

Today “Big Wreck” released only another single.  I was hoping it would be a preorder as well, it wasn’t.  I’m pretty sure they’re busy with the 2nd guitarist’s cancer though.  We’ve got 2 singles from the new album this new one first then the first single below it.  Much heavier than I’ve heard from them!

 

OBADIAH PARKER

Right at the beginning I’ll admit that I know nothing about him.  Acoustic guitar player & singer.  I can tell you after a brief google check that he’s American.  His name is Matt Weddle, Obadiah Parker is his stage name.  I own 3 EPs, 5 songs each.  They’re all cover well known songs.  He has 2 original albums on iTunes, I haven’t heard them yet.  He does have a band but it is very rare to hear them on the EPs……

 

2008   THE TIP JAR VOL.  1

 

2014   THE TIP JAR VOL. 2

 

2016   THE TIP JAR VOL. 3

This EP is very tough to find any videos from.  He does cover this song though…

How long are the Toronto Blue Jays going to continue this “Socrates Brito” experiment going?  He’s one of the worst hitters on bad team.  If a player’s batting average is 0.077, they’re very lucky to be on any roster.  An average of 0.250 is just OK.  Are they keeping him there because he can catch a fly ball?

For me he’s just a guy taking up space when there are 2 minor league players knocking on the door to play right field.  Heck they have 2 capable right fielders now.  Brito plays maybe once a week.  They’re going to trade 2 of their top pitchers, but keep Brito?  I don’t think you’d get anything in return if they traded Brito.  I say just cut him & move on.

 

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WEEKLY EXERCISE TOTAL/TRIVIUM

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5 day exercise total; 200 pushups, 600 leg lifts, 450 crunches, 100 tricep lifts, 450  squats, 300 back flexes.  Yoga & stretching for just over an hour on Thursday.

I fell asleep to “Iommi” the album “Iommi”

I exercised to “Daron Malakian & the Scars on Broadway” the album “Dictator”

 

I look at this cancer garbage two ways.  I could sit here, do nothing & complain about having to fix myself or just do my exercises & shut up about it.  I choose the latter.  I can complain about very few other things.  Not the little things I blow out of proportion.  I’m pretty sure I just need to calm down & not try to change anyone.  I could offer a suggestion if they asked.  Other than that I should just email or message people on Facebook to see how they’re doing & reply politely to any question.

I need to stop telling people what to do, & let them live their own life as they choose to.  As I always say “The more I shut my yap & listen, the more I’ll know.”  On the other side of that, don’t ignore people either.  I have just over 300 Facebook friends, yet I talk to mostly the people I see most often through email.  I’m not saying they’re not great people, I’m just saying I don’t reach out to them as much as I should.

 

Is Tool’s guitarist teasing us with a new song?  Possibly, I’m guessing?

https://loudwire.com/tool-adam-jones-new-riff/?fbclid=IwAR3uu1mzRmLyi39rfazncGWNnM0dQJ0OjDDXKoxd7sK5Gq5NlNDt1KqMZxU

Too funny to not share!  For the majority.

Why?  Doesn’t the church believe in not using any type of medically proven anti-biotics?

https://www.rollingstone.com/culture/culture-news/scientology-cruise-ship-quarantine-measles-outbreak-830304/?fbclid=IwAR0HTYtvn1wsplq6qE_0UOCkVF2WNDKR-fAbJVpaS6WJWaTHOihXgWeL-Fg

Tool has joined streaming sites.  I don’t know if their older stuff is on there, but they have a profile on streaming sites, at least Spotify.  I’m not sure about other streaming sites?

Well this isn’t pleasant news for anyone, especially Star Wars fans!

https://consequenceofsound.net/2019/05/r-i-p-peter-mayhew/?fbclid=IwAR2Kt7u1a2MiAszjshjpialO9z09c14R8XNdHS9zXuZ-KKTKiuQzWxkY-o4

53 is a very young age to die.

https://thehardtimes.net/culture/stacys-mom-dead-at-53/?fbclid=IwAR22gvdrdb0791ma5iKiTsLCyYl1t8YI_mkAd00BsfRzWZADKEKFtyBHGmQ

Hozier covered Destiny’s Child?

https://www.rollingstone.com/music/music-news/hozier-cover-say-my-name-829977/?fbclid=IwAR3Cx2u_UlnBG5Ld5aoDbH8ntLTt–4ZzzA2EiUdDPtpZgQcyy8bSRBmod4

Saw “Avengers: Endgame” last night with my brother.  I’ve always leaned towards the DC comic movies with a dark tone, but I do like both.  It was AWESOME!  Lots of action, really good dialogue including humor.

 

TRIVIUM

My brother-in-law turned me on to this group.  He heard a single on Much Music’s show “LOUD”, a metal video show that was hanging on by a thread as Much Music began airing more teen television programing.  The singer/guitar player & group founder is about my brother’s age, in his early 30s.  They’ve released 8 studio albums, they’re a very talented band but not every album is a Jem.

In order of release “Ember to Inferno”, “Ascendancy”, “The Crusade”, “Shogun”, “In Waves”, “Vengeance Falls”, “Silence in the Snow”, & “The Sin & the Sentence”.  I’ll give you 2 songs from each of my 4 favourite albums.

 

2006   ASCENDANCY

 

2011   IN WAVES

 

2015   SILENCE IN THE SNOW

 

2017   THE SIN & THE SENTENCE

You probably don’t care for metal & that’s OK.  I’ve been trying to avoid it on here, but that’s what I listen to most of the time when Kim’s not here.  As for “Trivium” you may not like them but between singing & playing guitar, Matt Heafy makes the impossible look easy, much like James Hetfield of “Metallica”.

 

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EXERCISE WEEKLY TOTAL/BARNEY BENTALL

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4 day exercise total; 400 pushups, 400 leg lifts, 300 crunches, 0 tricep lifts, 0  squats, 0 back flexes.

I can’t seem to shake this cold.  I start coughing when I do certain exercise or as much as I’d like to.  That’s the reason for the low numbers this week…..again.  My energy is still quite low as well.  My energy is still fighting my cold.

I fell asleep to “Foo Fighters” the album “There is Nothing Left to Lose” followed by “Lamb of God” the album “Ashes of the Wake”

I exercised to “Bush” the album “Sixteen Stone”

 

I’ll let you know that on weekends my food consumption isn’t always super healthy.  I figure, keep everything in stricked moderation.  Now with that being said, there are things that I used to eat that I can’t handle anymore.  Example; My first bite of anything chocolate makes me cough uncontrollably.  I eat chocolate, but not like I used to.  Anything battered &/or deep fried I’m very concerned about how I’ll feel in 30 minutes.  This is more about me getting older than it’s about having had cancer.  After a road trip or just eating junk food, my body just cries vegetables & water.  I just don’t do that too much.

My doctor does have me on heart burn pills though.  My heart burn got quite intense when I had cancer.  I have thrown up stomach bile after forgetting or running out of my heart burn pills.

At this point I thought I’d be walking?  Frustrating, but I guess I’m not done exercising.  I should change it up a bit with some stretching & yoga 2 days a week, instead of working on my arms.  2 days of yoga a week, then 2 days of arms a week.

I got a call from an intake program.  They asked me a few questions & told me they would pass on my info to a psychologist, therapist, or psychiatrist.  I have enough pills as it is & obviously they’re not enough.  If I have to see a psychiatrist, I hope this person will talk more than just prescribe more pills?

 

I got my 2 preorder albums today.  “Pink” – Hurts 2B Human & “The Damned Things” – High Crimes

POSSIBLE LANGUAGE IN BOTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Everyone deals with something mentally at some point in their lives, I think?  Even just mourning a death of a friend or family member.  Nobody is perfect, as hard as they try.

https://www.rollingstone.com/music/music-news/britney-spears-addresses-mental-health-rumors-instagram-video-826453/?fbclid=IwAR2oMsS4kQg1Y3b-9UvH6fDN9RkDXoI7lxJCpC1aj8QK9Ffm0vG_vpgR3WY

I would LOVE to have Myles Kennedy’s voice!

https://www.musicradar.com/news/myles-kennedys-top-5-tips-for-vocalists-you-live-and-die-by-your-placement-and-how-hard-youre-pushing?fbclid=IwAR1tkfy82tou8FZRvAZz-rXaOkfck4-Veq-rRAVIVj_Pqn4D7wne6_N7YW4

39 years ago Thursday “Black Sabbath” released the album “Heaven & Hell”.  Their first album with Ronnie James Dio.

 

BARNEY BENTALL

I don’t know much about him.  My dad was a fan & a guy in Grade 10 drafting with me, loved this album, the only album I have & it’s from around that time.  It’s from 1995.  Yes, I’m staring down the barrel of being 40, not that big of a deal.  So here we go…..

 

1995   GIN PALACE

 

Did you hear that the number 1 prospect will be playing 3B for the Toronto Blue Jays tonight?  I’ve been hearing about this every day since the beginning of the regular season (March 28th).  He’s 19 or 20 years old & his dad, Vladimir Guerrero, is in the Hall of Fame as a Montreal Expo.  I’ve heard WAY TOO MUCH about this kid.  No pressure kid, only the entire baseball world will be watching you.  His hype could likely hurt him?  If he doesn’t hit a home run tonight, many people will be disappointed.  Granted there are no big names on the roster at the moment other than starting pitchers that are already dropping like flies.

He’s a kid!  Burry him in the batting line-up for a few days, he doesn’t need more pressure than he has right now.  Have him batting anywhere from 6th – 9th in the line-up & let him catch his breath.

My Blue Jay roster is close to filled through 2021.  Starting Pitchers; Stroman, Borucki, Sanchez, Panone, & _____.

Catcher Jansen, 1B Tellez, 2B Biggio, 3B Guerrero, SS Bichette, Outfield McKinney, Hernandez, & Grichuk.

Bench & utility players; Urena, Gurriel Junior, Alford, Maile.

Bullpen; Giles, Tepera, Biagini, Mayza, Gaviglio, _____, _____.  As for a Designated Hitter, I have no idea?

I’ve heard more about this kid than I have about Avengers End Game.

 

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“I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-Dave Grohl

“Learn from your mistakes & don’t repeat them”-Chris

Stay safe out there,

Chris

“Be kind to one another”-Ellen Degeneres

HAPPY LONG WEEKEND/CASEY ABRAMS

NOTHING UNTIL MONDAY & THEN THE FOLLOWING FRIDAY.

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3 day exercise total; 100 pushups, 400 leg lifts, 300 crunches, 0 tricep lifts, 0 squats, 0 back flexes.

I fell asleep to “Into Eternity” the album “The Sirens”

I exercised to “Black Sabbath” the album “Heaven & Hell”

 

A lot of tea, honey, & squeezed lemon going on here, along with cold fruit, water, cranberry juice & Sprite, & many cough candies.  Now about 2.5 weeks with no notifications from my “likes” on Facebook.  Why?  I don’t know?  I know I’m missing a lot of info!

Well Monday was a waste of a day.  Tuesday, I still had a bad cough but figured I should do some exercise.  Wednesday the good ol’ phlegm started to come down from my sinuses.  I did some exercise Tuesday, Wednesday, & Thursday.  Obviously not much if you look at the numbers though.  I probably should have slept on the couch this week?  I’ve been tossing back & forth in bed trying to get comfortable & probably making snorting sounds in my sleep.  Kim deserves a good night sleep or 5.

I shaved my beard off in November & I’ve remained clean shaven.  Last Thursday I  shaved & didn’t shave until this Tuesday.  WOW, I pretty much had a short beard, like I used to have.  I really don’t like shaving.  It’s almost summer though, maybe the beard will return in the fall or winter.  I can’t believe how fast it grows!

 

“Temple of the Dog” was released 28 years ago this past Tuesday.

Chris Cornell of the grunge band “Soundgarden” was roommate with Andy Wood who sang in a group called “Mother Love Bone”.  Andy Wood overdosed.  This album was made in his honour.  The members of “Mother Love Bone” became “Pearl Jam” with Eddie Vedder.  This is the only release from “Temple of the Dog”.

I hear there’s an online petition to name the black hole after Chris Cornell, since he wrote the hit song “Black hole sun” in 1994 with Soundgarden.

 

CASEY ABRAMS

Yes, he was on “American Idol” before the reboot.  He was voted off by the fans & saved by the judges.  He was done as the 6th man standing.  What do I like about “American Idol”?  That the fans get to vote.  What do I not like about it?  The judges have to deem the contestants who are good enough for the fans to vote on.  I don’t really need to see any of it until the finalé.  If I see the early stuff I say to the TV “Great, I liked contestant 79 better.  Where did they go?  They’re gone?  OK, so am I”.

This guy made it to number 6.  He played bass along with his singing of jazz, pop, & Nirvana’s “Smells like Teen Spirit”.  He was my favourite that year.  I think Scotty McCreery won that year though.  I’m not a fan of most country music though….

Now stuff from his 2012 release.  He has 3 or 4 albums on iTunes, I only have this first album of his.

 

2012   CASEY ABRAMS

 

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Stay safe out there,

Chris

“Be kind to one another”-Ellen Degeneres

EXERCISE WEEKLY TOTAL/BEN FOLDS FIVE

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5 day exercise total; 400 pushups, 600 leg lifts, 450 crunches, 200 tricep lifts, 450 squats, 300 back flexes.

I fell asleep to “Queen” the double album of “Greatest Hits”

I exercised to “The Struts” both albums on shuffle

 

Thanks for all of the positive comments they’re great!  I think that when I beat cancer, the positive thoughts & comments may have brought me to this depression thing?  I don’t blame any of you for those thoughts, I think I used them the wrong way?  I probably looked at them as “Hey, I beat cancer I’m a hero!  Listen to me!” what I should have done is stay humble, thanked all of you & carried on as usual.  Instead I let them go straight to my head, not what I should have done!

My depression shows as stress, frustration & stubbornness more than anything else.  I’m not this dark figure with a hood over my face 24 hours a day.  I may have changed a bit but I’m me.  I’m just a different version of me.  I’m happy & I like to goof off a lot.  I am definitely more stubborn.  That’s gene thing from my grandfather on my mother’s side.  For some reason I dialed it up to 100 instead of the natural 10?

I think with that stubbornness came a LOT of frustration.  In that, I wanted to be heard without acknowledging that others may have a different opinion on things.  I’m not a patient or understanding as I use to be.

I was never a vocal person until University.  Until that time I kept my head down & tried not to stir the pot.  I was trying to get through school each day as quietly as possible.

3 things I’m grateful for A) my HUGE support system.  B) I have a roof & 4 walls around me. C) Canadian taxes that support me (sort of) to exercise.

 

It’s coming………………….. In October!  Big debate online over who’s the best Joker?  Out of the

Tool changed their Facebook cover photo on Wednesday!  Release date on the way???????  https://loudwire.com/tool-new-album-2019-change-logo/ More info today!

I can’t wait!!!!

I like the previous movies but number 4, it’s got quite a bit to live up to!

Yes, according to the president who shall not be named solved the reason for my cancer!  Hahahahahahahahahahahaha!

 

BEN FOLDS FIVE

Right off the top I’ll tell you that I don’t know much about him or his band.  Ben Folds plays piano & sings, the other 2 members play the drums & the bass.  Not super jazzy, but a bit to still be played on radio.  I own one CD of theirs & each time I listen to it, I forgot how much I like it.  Ben Folds was also a judge on a short lived singing show “The Sing Off”.  All of the groups were A Capella groups which bolstered the careers of “Pentatonix” & “Home Free”.  Here are a few songs from their 1997 album….

 

1997   WHATEVER & EVER AMEN

LANGUAGE!!!

 

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Why did this become a music blog?  “Because music is a BIG @#!$%^*&( DEAL”-Dave Grohl

“I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-Dave Grohl

“Learn from your mistakes & don’t repeat them”-Chris

Stay safe out there,

Chris

“Be kind to one another”-Ellen Degeneres

P.S.  Remember the days of Blockbuster video, when renting a movie on VHS was a thing?  Didn’t the label say “Be kind & Rewind”?

EXERCISE WEEKLY TOTAL/COLDPLAY/THIS IS THE UGLY SIDE

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3 day exercise total; 200 pushups, 400 leg lifts, 300 crunches, 100 tricep lifts, 300 squats, 200 back flexes.  I had every intention of walking Thursday & Friday.   There were far more important things I need to deal with ASAP.

This is where things get ugly.  I’ve had manic depression for years.  I was called “Gay” or “Fairy” since I could ride my bicycle to elementary school if I was gay my life would be different than it is now in that Kim wouldn’t be married to me.  Two older kids from another school would hunt me down & verbally abuse me, I was NEVER physically abused by anyone.  This continued throughout high school.  I never told ANYONE.  Until just a few years ago, not even my parents.  This is not a sob story.  Thursday was the worst day I’ve had mentally more than ever.  In university my parents said I should talk to someone.  I did…..once.  I don’t know why or how cancer made my depression rear it’s ugly head again this week (I assume that’s what triggered it).

I’d never hurt Kim or disappoint her.  She’s my rock & the love of my life.  I’m very fortunate to have her in my life.  My depression affects many other people.  I keep my feelings in, & after so long they just explode.  I haven’t viciously attacked anyone through email since the first link to this blog that was also incredibly rude.  Thursday it happened again though & completely unprovoked.  I’ve realized that I need to get my act together & speak with a psychologist.  If I don’t, I can see a very small amount of people that would want to call me a friend.  I’m on anti-depressants & anti-psychotics, but that’s not really helping the issue, it’s masking it from others on some level.

I drink a small amount of alcohol on Friday & Saturday evenings.  I don’t smoke or use drugs, nor do I want to.  Eventually I’d prefer to be alcohol free.  I know I can do that without question.  I didn’t have any alcohol while going through my year in the hospital & very little near the end of my rehabilitation program.  I don’t want to talk about my mental issues, I need to.  Kim said she’d come with me.  I don’t want to be an irrational jerk to others, no one deserves that.  I told you I wouldn’t lie to you so there’s the ugly part.  I may be physically stronger but I’m mentally weak & sick of this feeling sneaking up on me.

I’m incredibly sorry to everybody I’ve hurt with my words.  Please don’t be alarmed or worried about me, think more about the people I’ve randomly blown up on.  They are the victims, not me.  I’m not suicidal at all, I’m just not me.

This is new territory for me & it took me far too long to realize it.  I NEED PROFESSIONAL HELP, & I intend to get help ASAP.  I’ll ask my doctor for a referral Friday morning if he’s available.  I don’t know if my health care covers the cost, & it doesn’t matter.

When Kim helps me with walking, I don’t listen to music.  It’s a distraction for me.  I have to stay concentrated on the task at hand.  Make sure my stride/steps aren’t too big, bend my knees, make sure my heel touches the ground first, control my walker/don’t let it get too far ahead of me, stand up straight, etc.  If Kim hasn’t seen me do anything wrong, I ask her if there is something I need to improve.  At the moment she says that all I need to do is build up my stamina.  I know what I need to focus on but I need an “outsiders” opinion in case I’m missing something.

Great book, OK movie.  I read the book in high school.

I read incredibly slow now.  Because of my iPatch & my glasses.  I had glasses before, in 1993, they were more for driving/distance because I couldn’t read the chalk board very well.  When I took the glasses off, things were much easier to read.  I could take these glasses off and read something in large print on a kindle though.

Before it would be 2 or 3 days later and someone would ask “How’s the book?”  “It was GREAT, I’m done reading it would you like it now?”  Now it’s “I’m on page 4.  I’ll tell you in a month or two.”

The books in “The DaVinci Code” series are WAY better than the movies.  The movies are also out of order.

I often forget how much I like this album.  This is their 3rd video from this album!

I don’t consider The Struts a glam rock band.  For me The Struts are similar to Queen, but less experimental/operatic. In the end they’re just FANTASTIC!

https://www.esquire.com/style/mens-fashion/a26952281/struts-interview-style-costumes-outfits-glam-rock/?fbclid=IwAR06tWGX4X_3wag94fA0Inr8Hfz8ph2RA2e6EQNMOnNB8Ua8VHFVkeE3pNI

I plan on buying these 2 albums from iTunes this year.  Neither of them are really my usual taste in music.  I do keep listening to them on our Apple Music account.

 

COLDPLAY

I own & listen to 3 of their albums.  Yes they’re English & I believe they live there currently as well.  The singer, Chris Martin, was dating or married to Gwyneth Paltrow & they had a baby quite a while ago named Apple.  They’re a fairly mellow band, but really good at what they do.  They’re actually one of all of the Foo Fighters member’s favourite bands.  You wanna talk Coldplay, ask the Foo Fighters what they think.  They came around to fill a void I had for “Radiohead” after Radiohead’s first 3 albums.  They sound nothing like Radiohead though.

They have 7 full length studio albums, an EP, & a Christmas album.  Here are 2 songs from each of the 3 albums I really enjoy…

 

2000   PARACHUTES   (THEIR DEBUT ALBUM)

 

2002   A RUSH OF BLOOD TO THE HEAD

Here comes that piano line that will stick in your head forever!  You’re Welcome!!!!!

 

2015   A HEAD FULL OF DREAMS

 

The more you share this, the more readers I get.  No, I’m not profiting from this in any way.  I can’t tell who’s reading this but thank you!

Why did this become a music blog?  “Because music is a BIG @#!$%^*&( DEAL”-Dave Grohl

“I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-Dave Grohl

“Learn from your mistakes & don’t repeat them”-Chris

Stay safe out there,

Chris

“Be kind to one another”-Ellen Degeneres