NOT ENOUGH HOURS IN A DAY

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450 Curls w/ 20 pound dumb bells

250 Shoulder raises/Chest presses w/ 10 pound dumb bells

750 Crunches

750 Leg lifts

300 Squats

420 Back flexes

1:20 hours of yoga over 2 days

In the last 3 weeks I have increased every exercise show above other than squats.

A lot of scales, finger exercise, & just using my pinky finger more!  Using my pinky finger for regular power chords instead of my index, middle, & ring finger, like I’ve always done.  Now I have to train my pinky finger to use it in everything!

 

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Kim has Thursday & Friday off next week & Wednesday is Canada day!  We have a 5 day weekend next week, so I don’t really want to spend my time on a computer.  I’ll put up a 6 month review of my weight, measurements, & exercises since January 1st for you on Wednesday.

Doctor appointment on Tuesday with my family Dr. just for refills. He told me “It’s good to see you.  You brighten my day”.  Really nice guy, I imagine he’s getting close to retirement.  It’s always good to see him too!  He’s happy to see me doing so well since he became my doctor while I was in the hospital innitially in 2008.  Great guy!

On Wednesdays I notice I feel the fatigue from Monday & Tuesday.  I start to get a little sore & I tend to lay in bed until 8:30 or 9:00.  This week I finally picked up on it, & I was pressed for time.  Practiced guitar for a bit & pulled out DVDs to send to my family cabin, since Netflix isn’t always great out there.  More shelf space now, less clutter.  One of the days when I just don’t have enough time to get everything done.

Well no coffee since Tuesday, May 19th & I don’t even miss it.  Also 1 ounce of alcohol a week or none since then too.  I don’t crave it either, I just need something other than a gallon of water everyday.  Going without that stuff feels great & right from the start I intended, & still do, to make it a permanent change.  This won’t stop after I purchase the amplifier, footswitch, & guitar.

I’m not about to rush out & buy anything right away.  I’ll have money for the amplifier & footswitch before I’ll be able to afford the guitar.  I’d like to have a few hundred dollars saved for the guitar before I get the amplifier & footswitch.  I’m thinking about getting the amplifier & footswitch in February?  After Christmas & my birthday in January, all the while waiting for my guitar ordered in January, expected delay with the virus though, after the innitial delay.

S2 Custom 22 Semi-Hollow Body Guitar w/Gig Bag - McCarty Sunburst

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https://www.long-mcquade.com/12567/Guitars/Guitar_Effects/Boss/FS-6_-_Dual_Footswitch.htm

I practice guitar so much now.  I won’t be better than I was necessarily.  I’ll be tecnically a better player, fixing bad habits & other things others won’t notice.  I can’t sing right now, I’m working on guitar stuff, but I’ll still be a rhythm/riff player with more knowledge than before.

I get into our office/guitar room/computer room & I say to myself “OK, 1:30 hours today” then it ends up being almost 3:30 hours Tuesday through Thursday then usually 1:30 more in the evening.  Friday through Monday I can watch my few TV shows whenever.  Ellen Degeneres is watched everyday though!  Late night shows are the next day.

This doesn’t make me feel any better.  He even said, as a devote Republican, he will not vote for Trump or Biden this year.  He said this in an interview with Stephen Colbert after having worked with Donald Trump for 17 months, I think he would know best.

I’m guessing this news is EVERYWHERE & not just in Canada.  The most noticable change should come from the top & filter down.  I hope the peaceful protests continue until there is a change.  I’m not turning this into an anti-Trump site, but we know he’s not going to make a change for the better.  If anything he’s fanning the flames.

As a neighbor to the USA, please vote in November.  Whichever candidate you choose to elect.  If I could vote legally in the USA election, I would.  I can’t being a Canadian but it’s EVERYWHERE.

Ther NEEDS to be a change!  Watching people die for something that should be a slap on the wrist is HORRID.  Black Lives Matter!  This isn’t rocket science, this is humanity, change it.  There’s nothing humane about this situation.  As I ay this know that there are plenty of great police officers.  There’s always a few bad apples that develop a sweeping stereotype though.

 

“Nothing but Thieves” new album Moral Panic to be released on October 23rd

 

“I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-David Grohl 

We’re all Global Citizens,

Chris

“Listen to each other” –Ellen Degeneres

“I FEEL LIKE SHIT BUT AT LEAST I FEEL SOMETHING”

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490 Curls w/ 20 pound dumb bells

265 Shoulder raises/Chest presses w/ 10 pound dumb bells

850 Crunches

850 Leg lifts

300 Squats

425 Back flexes

1:00 hour of yoga over 2 days

Played around by extending my repetitions this week, nothing set in stone yet.  I was pissed off this week & pushed things to the maximum.

 

Learning on guitar “Trivium” the song “The Heart from your Hate”

 

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Sorry to start with.  I asked for more subscribers earlier this week and thanks for coming to read this.  Unfortunately this is not a typical happy post.  Bad week that got worse as it went on.  I let too many things influence my mood.  I’ve re-writen this 4 or 5 times but the same stuff comes out in different words.

 

I’m not a trend setter or influencer, I know that.  That’s really not something I’ve ever been.  I’m a 40 year old physically disabled white male.  About as bland as they come.  I keep my head down & try not to make any waves.  I’m home ALL of the time.  I eat healthy, I exercise 5 days a week, & I practice guitar.  I know I’ve inspired one person to change their life in a positive way, and that’s great!  It’s nice to know this has had a positive impact on someone’s life.

Am I ever going to be able to walk on my own?  I don’t think so, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to stop trying.  There are things I can’t do, that gets to me every once in a while.  I can’t help my friends do projects to their house, help them move, if I want to go somewhere I need someone to take me, etc.  I guess I just don’t like not being able to help with things.  I don’t want to be the one that needs help, but if I do, I’m not afraid to ask.

Yeah I know I have a VERY LONG list of things to do that I probably won’t accoplish in my life.  Other people are much further along than I am, yet many seem to think “Hey, he’s doing pretty good” and leave it at that.  I’m not content with myself personally.

I’ve learned that if you’re not trying to better yourself, you’ll likely get left behind.  So I’m trying to make up 4 ½ years I spent living in a hospital that set me back about 30 years or more, I KNOW I have a LOOOOOONG way to go & I feel like Kim & I are being left behind because of me.  The likelyhood of me being nothing more than a statistic becomes more apparent with each passing day.

I watch my local Regina, Saskatchewan news, Canadian national news,  Stephen Colbert, Jimmy Kimmel, & Ellen Degeneres.  On all of them, not nearly as much on Ellen, the majority of the show is about how messed up everything is.  Even on my local news I hear stories such as; this virus is getting worse, too many people aren’t following the social distancing rules because it’s summer & staying home doing nothing is too hard, the murder of George Floyd, Donald Trump enabled this evil & fumbled up this situation, murder hornets, a tornado by my wife’s hometown, a police officer shot an unarmed black man in Atlanta on the weekend after the man was searched and no weapons were found, & climate change denyers.  Did I miss anything?  Oh yeah there was a news story a while ago confirming that UFOs are real, nobody did anything about mass shootings, that topic was just glazed over when the next problem occurred, homelessness, & 3rd World countries, lets keep doing nothing so we can deal with 30 problems at once?  After all of that garbage & the STRONG possibility that Donald Trump will start a war, I stayed in bed on Wednesday & Thursday until 10:00 am, wide awake, tossing & turning & crying.  Today wasn’t any better.

I don’t hate America one bit so don’t get me wrong as I say this please? 

After some research & general knowledge, Canada is WAY different than America.  America has money, power, & Donald Trump.  If I have to pay more, live in a country with weaker influence, live in a colder climate, have health care, not have the same history of racism to NOT live under the “Law & Order” of Donald Trump, I’ll take that any day of the week.  Does Canada have racism among other problems?  YES, but nothing like what’s going on south of the border.  I’ve never read, been taught, or have seen anything like the mess America is dealing with in Canada.

If America is named the “Greatest Country in the World”, the rest of us are waiting & listening, but not much coming out of America is very useful?  I don’t watch Jimmy Kimmel or Stephen Colbert for news that sucks that I’ve already seen.  I watch them to be entertained & maybe have a laugh or 2.  More than ever the wind from America is blowing north to Canada.

I go on social media & people comment about their displeasure with the current American administration.  I state that I’m Canadian, don’t know what it’s like to live there but agree with the statement.  That same random individual will immediately respond telling me to SHUT THE FRONT DOOR or call me a name.  Now people in the USA want Canada’s help??????????????????  WTF??????

I don’t hate America or the people that live there.  I do think that as a country it is HIGHLY over rated though.  Greatness isn’t just rated on wealth & strength.

I watch videos like that & think to myself immediately that “I need to practice WAY  more”!  I already know that he’s WAY ahead of me on guitar.

This is what I do when I change strings of my guitars, always.  You’ve got to take care of them.  I never wipe my strings off until I play them, I always clean the back of the guitar neck when restringing it & most times that I play a guitar.

I’ll be getting rid of a few things for cash that we could use.  My mountain bike that hasn’t been touched since my brother used it for the summer of 2008.  It’s only been used in the city.  Similar to this…

https://www.trekbikes.com/ca/en_CA/bikes/mountain-bikes/cross-country-mountain-bikes/marlin/marlin-5/p/33136/?colorCode=orange_grey

3 guitar effect pedals that I don’t use.  I don’t play live/loudly anymore, so I don’t need them.  Hopefully I can get $50 for each of them since they were $120-$180 new, when I had no other expenses.

After selling/trading that stuff in, I’m pretty sure the guitar & amplifier aren’t going to happen.  I feel like I tried to hard & people are dumbfouded that I want something nice?  I guess I can’t have nice things?  OK, I’ll stay in my lane, I’ll play my role.  Researching & getting excited about the guitar & amplifier was a waste of my time!  I’d rather not have nice material things I enjoy, a $2200 guitar & a $329 amplifier, than be the source of hate for other people.

I don’t have money or influential power, I’m physically disabled.  I’ll help the world by pointing out it’s MANY problems.  Justin Trudeau will throw money at them & Donald Trump will tell everyone lies about how perfect everything is.  I’ll keep an inventory of what issues need to be dealt with & what the new ones coming in are.  Everyone else, wake up the Federal leaders that were elected to do this sort of job.  Wake them up peacefully or they might hide in a bunker & lie about it!

Maybe if I didn’t care so much, I wouldn’t be so INCREDIBLY disappointed?  The news really bummed me out this week.

Sorry to disappoint anyone but there’s also no video of me playing guitar on the Facebook site for this blog.  I did one on Monday & didn’t post it because it was terrible.  I have played hundreds of times before cancer, but not really since.  I’m an idiot!  I’ll post some photos & a video of my ordered guitar when it gets here.  I don’t need a perfectionist to dissect my mediocre guitar playing on social media.  That’s not fun for me.  Maybe on my personal page sometime?  For now I’ll post a video that I watch more often than I should because it’s VERY well done & it makes me smile!

 

YAY new “Lamb of God” day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

“I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-David Grohl 

We’re all Global Citizens,

Chris

“Listen to each other” –Ellen Degeneres

LET’S TALK ABOUT CANCER

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My left shoulder was incredibly sore on Thursday, no exercise that day, just ice & stretching.

MONDAY IS A CANADIAN HOLIDAY TO HONOUR OUR VETERANS ON/AT 11/11 11:11. KEEP THEM IN YOUR THOUGHTS YEAR ‘ROUND!!! I’LL RETURN TO YOU MONDAY SOMETIME.

5 day exercise total; 1,500 crunches, 900 leg lifts, 300 squats, 300 back flexes, 0 pushups, 400 curls, 00 tricep lifts, 100 shoulder raises. TONS of stretching & yoga.

I fell asleep to “Into Eternity” the album “Dead or Dreaming”

I exercised to “Kelly Clarkson” the album “Meaning of Life”

 

I’ve learned that not every diet works for everybody. Sometimes it’s a trend that will work for some, but not others & some people will stick to it for how “Everlong”, some will go back to their regular eating habits & SURPRISE your body will revert to its former shape & size. “In the end” eat what makes YOU feel good & look the way YOU want.


As I say this, please know I’m not calling out/trying to offend anyone. We are often invited elsewhere.
Being a cancer survivor is weird. Initially everyone is really worried, once they think you’re OK people ‘seem’ to forget you exist & revert to their life as it was when you we’re sick & out of the picture. I’m not trying to call out anyone here, I kind of get it. 4 ½ years without the presence of anyone can be completely life changing. Kim & I disappeared for a long time. Now if the phone rings, if Kim gets a text or if I get an email that someone wants to come by we’re shocked. It feels very “isolated” here in a condo & in an odd way I understand. I’ve changed a lot & so have others. Everybody has different priorities now & me having to figure out the lay of the land in a wheelchair isn’t the easiest thing. If I can’t get around a friend’s place, our door is always open, especially if you bring rum! Specifically Bacardi Oakheart spiced rum, Baron Samedi spiced rum or Sangria for Kim, who drinks alcohol far less than me. It’ll take me longer than you think to consume it since it’s on the rocks & not often.

Surviving cancer is weird in many ways. ‘He’s alive, he’s OK, we did our job & saved his life’ maybe that’s what my nurses & therapists thought, & that’s all they were supposed to think, in my mind. Most of them became friends that went beyond their job to help me and they’re all people I have a TON of respect for, current friend or not.

What’s weird here is that after I was in the hospital & the Wascana Rehabilitation Center for an extended period of time, I’m alive & getting better, but we’re missing my full income. That’s not my nurses, therapists or doctors fault. Most things were covered by Canada’s health plan. Our mortgage was covered for 2 years. Rent for my room at WRC was $1000/month & not covered by anything. You need money to survive. My wife works a full 8 hour day, 5 days a week. I collect disability until I’m 65 and CPP for the rest of my life. Together they don’t amount to $28,000 a year. If there was a box on the ballot to check off for politicians to comprehend that, it would have been marked with my vote. I didn’t have that option & no candidate spoke about it. From what I can tell, people with extended term disabilities in the public are forgotten about by politicians. That makes no sense to me at all? So I’m a financial burden whether I like it or not? “Life’s not fair you idiot! Lighten up!” So because I’m not physically strong enough to get a job, I’m forgotten & I should be happy with that while being a burden too? No, I’m sorry, that’s not good enough! I don’t want to be a burden & forgotten. I’m sure I’m not the only one in this type of situation either. Because of cancer I have created many bad/unwanted/uncommon ripple effects. I don’t understand that? I do plan to get an online part time job in the future & contribute to society & earn a small paycheck.

The left brake on my free wheelchair broke multiple times & after 2 or 3 separate times Sask. Abilities weren’t able to fix it properly for $50 each time. I got a different chair for just over $7,000 and $1000 of that was covered by our government & they’ll cover it once in a life time. The rest of it was paid out of pocket. My parents & Grandparents have helped out immensely with these expenses, I don’t want to go back to the well. I researched & I voted to see if maybe the Canadian Government would change, it didn’t. So for the next 4 years I get to be alive but not live?

I’m not someone looking for a handout of cash, this is my life & I guess I have to deal with it. I don’t want the Government to just fix my situation, just level the playing field a bit for everyone. I have a retirement disability savings plan. I can put in $5000 a year I think & it triples the amount. I can’t touch that money that I deposit for 10 years. So I’ll have some money in 9 years, until then my wife & I get to live as is & not do much of anything? Prices have gone up with inflation, I would think my salary would have as well, I’m not looking to be rich, I would like to make an income closer to what I was at when I passed out “in the meantime”.

I was head hunted by a different company & got a significant raise to stay where I was. I had some other issues with how the other company was being managed as well. I’m glad I stayed where I was, the other place no longer exists. I don’t know if they thought I could improve their chances of staying afloat? I was the youngest employee where I was, running 1 of the 2 larger printing presses where I was though.

I’m not going to be the poster boy for this, but I will support this cause. I’m not a person that gets into politics. I don’t like messing around in politics and I plan to stay away from it. That being said, I did send an email to the Canadian Federal Government asking about this issue. I got cancer, & it’s nobody’s fault. I’m not looking to get rich, I’m looking to make a similar wage as I made before I got cancer.

If you’re Canadian & want to voice your opinion on anything, this is the Governments website http://www.canada.ca

There are people FAR worse off than I am & nobody pays attention to them, but that’s supposed to be ‘Not our problem’? A TON of people want food, water, & shelter. Why have I been whining about my situation for so long? They’re other people who are worse off than the rest of us.

What do I not like? Whiners, complainers, fake people & people who don’t do their job at a respectable level. I’m certain I am all of those things, but fake, on this post & the entire website. I guess that long road to recovery is longer than I thought. Call me whatever you want to, but don’t call me fake. I can handle whatever you throw at me other than fake.

I hear we may have out of town guests this weekend that would be FANTASTIC!

I use streaming music until the funds are there to purchase music on iTunes or CD. I personally refuse to attain music by streaming it. Same deal with texting & photos. I do not like either one of them, so owning a cell phone would make me a hypocrite in my eyes.

Like them or not a cell phone can be VERY distracting at times.
https://loudwire.com/tool-warn-ejection-show-cellphone-use/?fbclid=IwAR2gvbsT7pORXbwM7X7S9ZtTvYPQKMzifsdqxc5on9wHd6xNEW2YneQqxgw

 

9 albums streaming right now, not cool with me. Hello iTunes, slowly, next year! Any streaming service could tank at any moment and I’d be left with nothing, that’s why I use iTunes, a minimal paying site.

 

I BUILT THE SKY
I just found out about this band the other day. 4 albums in total, instrumental progressive rock (they’re classified as metal but call me jaded) with a couple of classical guitar & orchestral tracks too. I’ve never heard music like this! I grabbed their newest album on a streaming platform for a future purchase “The Zenith Rise”…




 

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We’re all Global Citizens,
Chris

“Be kind to one another”-Ellen Degeneres

FOOTBALL, FAMILY, HOUSE SHOPPING, A SPECIAL DAY WITH KIM

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Music throughout the weekend.  “The Cure” X 2, “Big Wreck”, “Jimmy Eat World”, “Alter Bridge”

I thought the “Big Wreck” album “…but for the sun” was my favourite Big Wreck album.  It quickly became one of my favourite albums overall, the new Alter Bridge is very close to that as well….and it was just released on Friday!

 

I stated this on Friday “Ideally we’d be moving into our new house by mid-November, but it’s been purchased, we can’t change that, just move on & keep doing our thing.”  This is not correct.  Today it is closer to correct.

Ideally we’d have gotten our dream home & be moving in November 2nd & 3rd.  That’s not happening, since we have nowhere to move to.  We’re looking but wheelchair accessibility in a house is rare in a smaller city.  It may be out there, but it has to be good enough to make it accessible on a budget.

I was feeling guilty for the lack of exercise last week, so I did 300 crunches, 200 curls, 50 shoulder raises, & some yoga.  Brewster was at daycare on Friday.  He came home a little grubby & needed a bath.  He was really tired after daycare, as usual.

The Riders won their game Friday night, 2 games left in the regular season & a Western final home game isn’t out of the question……………..yet.

Well Saturday was a relaxing morning.  Kim got up way too early to clean the car in the garage after making a trip to Tim Hortons for her coffee.  Late in the afternoon we saw another nice house that was so not wheelchair accessible.  That’s 4 or 5 swing & misses now.  I assume that number will grow exponentially.  Great neighbourhood, really nice place, but very little room for me to get around.  We’re looking, it’s hiding somewhere?

Kim’s aunt & 2 cousins were spending the night at Kim’s sister’s place in town.  We went over for supper and a visit before they head home to Alberta in the morning.  Of course on the way home we pass a Tim Hortons!  I don’t think Kim can go past one without getting a tea or coffee, I should’ve told here I had to pee!

We got home around 9:30 pm.  We watched the last 3 episodes of “The Ranch” season 7 on Netflix.  WOW if there was ever a cliff hanger for the next season that was it!  I stayed up until shortly after 1:00 am desperately searching for a house on www.mls.ca I found some possibilities, but none of those have worked out so far.  If only stairs & steps weren’t my nemesis.  Me, defeated by a 6” step!

Alice Cooper is coming to Regina Monday, April 13th, 2020.  Tickets went on sale on Friday, & somehow there are no wheelchair seats left.  I find that odd, that’s the only bonus to being in a wheelchair!  Wheelchair seating never sells out, at ANY venue.

Sunday evening was more house shopping online.  Kim wants an attached garage with a direct door from the garage to the house.  We both know I need wheelchair accessibility.  I’d like a back deck I can get onto & let Brewster hang out outside.  12 online possibilities, 0 worth looking at!  Attached garage seems to be the biggest issue.  There are attached garages, but the entrance to the house is either the front or back door?

Monday is Kim’s day off before her actual birthday “Kim & Chris’ Day of Fun!”

Just the “DAY OF FUN!” is true.  Kim’s cool, do you think I’d be married to her for almost 15 years if she wasn’t?

Quiet day.  Kim didn’t feel much like venturing out & unless you like to eat & drink, there’s not much to do on a week day in Regina.  We took Brewster to daycare, went out to a local coffee shop, voted, came home & shopped online for houses to look at.  We found 3 in total, I think 2 of them are financial pipe dreams but are also move in ready.  Kim wants to look at them & see what they’d cost us though, looking can’t hurt I guess?  Out of the 12 I found online in our price range, Kim approved of 1.  It’s one of those ones that will be fine as is, but we could make it better.

Kim seems to make large purchases on her birthday, we’ll see if she repeats that again.  I might be living on macaroni………………….cheese is far too fancy!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

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We’re all Global Citizens,

Chris

“Be kind to one another”-Ellen Degeneres

MONDAY

Kim has Monday off since Tuesday is her actual birthday.  Which means I get to do girl stuff at Kim’s favourite places.  This also means no weekend update until Monday evening.  Oh yay we get to vote that day too!  I’m trying to be positive about that.

Take care & I’ll catch ya on Monday,

Chris