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300 Curls w/ 20 pound dumb bells

180 Shoulder raises/Chest presses w/ 10 pound dumb bells

600 Crunches

600 Leg lifts

300 Squats while balancing on my toes.  (I fell…again…on Wednesday)

300 Back flexes

2 days of yoga


I fell asleep to “Tool” the album “Fear Inoculum”

I exercised to “Big Wreck” the album “…but for the sun”


I do go to bed around 9:30 pm, however I don’t fall asleep until around 1:00 – 2:00 am.  I’ve been getting out of bed in the middle of the night watching guitar lessons on or practicing song parts on an unplugged electric.  Just trying desperately to tire myself out.

I have trouble sitting still.  My brain is constantly thinking about what to do next.  Just when I think I’m caught up, I find something else that I should do.  Kim tells me to relax & watch a movie or some TV, honestly I don’t know how to relax, and I’m restless.

I watched a bit of TV this week, a hospital drama with a story about a cancer patient.  Immediately after the guy found out, he started crying his eyes out while hugging his wife.  All I could think was “Yep, I’ve been there”.  Then they spoke about how the patient & family live before they know about the cancer & after they know.  I couldn’t relate to that, I didn’t know.  I blacked out & a month later I woke up in the ICU.  It was a very weird experience, I knew something wasn’t right but I didn’t know what had happened or why I was wherever I was.  That month in a coma flashed by in the blink of an eye for me.

Everybody else is alert and worrying, meanwhile the person they’re worried about is clueless.  It’s weird when everybody is worrying about you & you don’t know why?  All of that garbage you her about cancer survivors going through & coming out OK on the other side.  I’ve been through a lot of it, but I’m still not all the way through it.

Best thing I can say about the coronavirus is, if you feel sick don’t worry about the outcome.  Do what you’re told to do & everybody around you will take care of the worrying part.  Remember that this virus has the highest death rate of 4% in China.  My brain cancer had an 85-95% chance of a death rate & was supposed to come back in 2013, it didn’t & I’m here.  Anybody with the virus is already ahead of me!  Stay positive & take care of yourself.  I know it’s easier said than done, trust me.

So people are worried about being quarantined for 2 weeks or a couple of months.  I’ve been quarantined since 2008.  I can’t drive.  On an average week I leave the house for maybe 3 hours?  I can’t get onto our balcony with my wheelchair.  If I want some fresh air I open the balcony door.  I don’t even get the luxury of driving to work.  I open the bedroom door & I’m already there.  I already don’t leave the house much.  Being quarantined for a bit isn’t that bad.

Just when I think this selling our condo deal is over, a place down the hall sells & we’re back in limbo.  Are we staying on the market or are we off?  I think we’re going to keep it on the market?  The place that sold was very similar in size, we’ll see what happens…

Sorry about the guitar babbling.  It’s a deep rooted passion of mine actually my only real hobby.  Guitar is what I like to do for my ‘me’ time.  So regarding the quarantine we’re all doing to keep as many people healthy as possible, welcome to my life!  I get up, have breakfast, exercise, shower, eat a little more, and avoid TV then play as much guitar as possible.

With my left arm being slightly weak from my cancer, I’m a bit slow along the fret board.  After a really good play through of a list of I gathered Wednesday night, I can say that it was a REALLY good day on the guitars.  Nothing I’ve ever played live before all newer songs, to me on a guitar.

Weird thing is I could play & sing this before, I can play it now & my arm has to move quite a bit for the verse & intro?

I figured this song out too.  It’s all up & down the fret board.  Never played or sang it before I always liked it though.

My amplifier & 4 effect pedals are in good shape & will keep me occupied & happy.  I’m pretty lucky that my current 4 electrics were all gifts.

Well this is a better picture of exactly what I ordered in January that should be here in August.  This will be the first electric guitar that I’ve ever paid for, the rest were gifts.  This is a PRS S2 made in Maryland, USA.  We saved for this for quite a while.

S2 Custom 22 Semi-Hollow Body Guitar w/Gig Bag - McCarty Sunburst

All PRS guitars have a high gloss finish to them!  The other 2 I’ve shown photos of were bought before 2003 and are likely under $700.  I bought a bunch of effect pedals (5) I think for $120 each, a Wah pedal ($240), my acoustic ($500), & my big amplifier with 4 X 12” speaker cabinet for a total of $1200.  Not everything was a gift but the important stuff was.  This was all purchased when I was still living at home & had a disposable income.  That’s somewhere around $2100 of gear that was given away (I have some of it).  Nobody knew if I was going to live or die.  Once I survived nobody knew how long I’d be in rehab or what I’d be capable of after.  I was bitter for a bit when I started to play, in the end I’m glad someone put it to use.

I picked “Kermit” out of a flyer, when Kim & I were dating I took her to the music store to show her the cracked floor model of “Grohl”.  My Fender Telecaster was an unexpected, thoughtful gift out of the blue while I was in rehab, I was cancer free but very weak.  My 7 string was a gift from Kim since I just felt sick that it went out of production 3 days after I ordered my PRS.

This is out in Canada this year.  More electronic options to switch between, different pickups, different bridge, different tuning keys, & a different colour.  I hope something similar is around in 10 years?  This is the ‘low’ priced PRS SE made oversea.  Kim helped me save for the PRS S2, the more expensive one (above), then bought the 7 string for my birthday at the end of January with her overtime money.  I’ll be saving for this myself with many other priorities ahead of this purchase.  I wouldn’t even think about it if it wasn’t completely different.  Yes, I research these big purchases of mine.

There’s a different PRS that will do EVERYTHING.  I don’t want that guitar or any other for that matter.  Something that does everything takes the fun & difficulty out of it for me.  What, all of a sudden my practicing is useless?  This would finally complete my collection.  I know I said that before but I couldn’t & don’t need to justify another purchase after this.  There is such a thing as too many guitars, for me!

SE Paul's Guitar - Aqua

Here it is 2:00 am Wednesday night & I’m reading reviews about how great the value is for what you get from the PRS SE “Paul’s Guitar” (the guitar above) and all of the different tones & sounds you can get from it.  That doesn’t help me in any way!?

Here’s what I’m practicing on the 7 string at the moment.

I was going to tune each guitar differently, then I realized something.  The purpose, for me, is the different sound I get from each guitar.  Maybe when my ordered guitar gets here I’ll tune “Kermit” to flats again?

I seriously freaked out when 2 of my guitars fell over the other day.  I rolled my chair as fast as I could to see if everything was OK!  As far as inanimate objects go, you can take anything you want other than my guitars.  After irreplaceable people in my life, guitars are next.  They’re all look different, sound different, & are sentimental in their own individual way, they’re also all out of production & literally irreplaceable.  After playing through each guitar, 1 or 2 songs on each a few times through.  I just wanted to play more & get better on each individual guitar.

Each guitar is unique.  I’ll be playing something, take a short break & think to myself “I should practice this song now.  I’ll have to grab that guitar, it sounds better on that one!”  If I want to play a rock or grunge rock song I grab “Kermit”, if I want to play something pre 1980 I grab my Telecaster, if I want to play metal I grab “Grohl” & if something involves low B string then I grab the 7 string.  They each have a distinct sound & feel to them.

Any ways this was a gift from a very good friend while I was in my rehabilitation program.  This is the semi-hollow Fender Telecaster signed by Ian Thornley, the lead singer of “Big Wreck”.  I play it more now.  It has a great 1970s rock feel.  Really good for playing stuff like some “Led Zeppelin”, “Lynyrd Skynyrd”& “Kansas” etc.  I call this one “Ian”.



YAY a new tune from “Nothing but Thieves”.  Longer than I’d expect from a rather unknown/newer band.  They only have 2 full length albums & a short 4 or 5 song EP out.


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