IS MY MENTALITY ATTACHED TO MY CANCER?/BILLY JOEL

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I fell asleep to “Trivium” the album “The Sin & the Sentence”

I exercised to “The Struts” both albums on shuffle.  If you enjoy “Queen”, I highly recommend them, their not as operatic, but slightly more pop instead.

Well, it was back to the grind on Monday.  No sinus cold to hold me back this week.  I’ve decided each Tuesday or Thursday will be yoga & stretching, the other day will be pushups & tricep lifts.  I need to stretch more, & I think the yoga, walking w/ my walker, squats, & leg lifts could all be beneficial to walking w/ my walker on my own.

As for my mental side of things, I don’t want it to be tied to my cancer but it is.  That’s no excuse for how I acted to people on the original link to this blog in 2011 & 2012, or when I blew up on an innocent victim last week.  The stress & frustration are more self-inflicted.  I always think to myself “This is my fault.  I should do more!  I should get better, faster!  Why am I not walking on my own yet?”

As for me being stubborn, that’s genetic through my mother’s side of the family.  I got that stubbornness & multiplied it by infinity.  Everybody else on that side of the family managed to deal with it properly though.  I feel like all through elementary & high school I bent over backwards, to make others comfortable & it doesn’t seem like anyone will bend for me at all, on the flip side of that no one should have to.  I know that’s not true, it’s “In my head”.

People might think I’m a victim or a hero………………….I’m neither of those things, I’m alive.  To those who say I’m “playing” the role of a victim.  I’m alive & I’m thankful for that.  I hope this makes sense, I’m a hero physically if that’s what you want to call me but I’m a victim mentally.  Everybody has the right to call me whatever they like.  “I’m just a little bit caught in the middle.”  I’m a victim mentally & I project it on others unintentionally without even knowing what I said.  I’m a victim, then I make others a victim.  More than enough of that.  I’m truly sorry & I don’t want to attack/hurt/victimize anyone from last week on.

 

I fell in love with Big Wreck when I turned 19 legal age to be in a bar. That was my first time seeing them. I’m 39 now & I haven’t missed a Big Wreck show in Regina, Saskatchewan ever.  I’ve seen them live at least 12-15 times. They instantly became one of my favourite bands, & still are!  Please help their 2nd guitarist, Brian Doherty, beat cancer by donating to this go fund me site please?

https://www.gofundme.com/brian-doherty-cancer-care-fund?fbclid=IwAR379Q2mDgpmwzvWiDd4XRczFo7qQ3VQw2eWZ8xOj6f9yS2qltyaUCIje88

Billy Idol & Bryan Adams tour, American dates only.  I could do with just Bryan Adams, but Billy Idol should be a good show too.  No, I can’t go.  If it’s not here, Saskatoon, Winnipeg, Calgary, or Edmonton, I’m out.  Depending on how many other show’s I’ve been to or have tickets to, our money tree is usually bare.

https://www.rollingstone.com/music/music-news/bryan-adams-billy-idol-us-tour-828546/?fbclid=IwAR3XCO_FdUEOoQqqjbX-FpvXbxXAXObw1JeeQp6D12iNpY9B3ZLxG9sR0XE

I’m the man baby here & I’m HIGH maintenance, I’m not even the eye candy here it’s Kim!  In order it’s Kim, Brewster, then me.  Kim’s HAWT, Brewster is furry & cute, & I’m just incredibly sweaty every day!

Remember “Woodstock 1994”?  That was a mess, probably a good thing the 50th anniversary of Woodstock was cancelled.

https://loudwire.com/woodstock-50th-anniversary-festival-canceled/?fbclid=IwAR1LuALPceBA9vedxczNWnxlUy6bHTd8v6UEezF9jTFBWIerav_L-mUqeQw

OK, why?

https://www.rollingstone.com/music/music-news/woodstock-50-organizers-committed-not-cancelled-828953/?fbclid=IwAR3IVx-H3x59HXbHeS2Nm_xbodyHg9IoeejQYdtFF45nkWPhBxrEhjrNG8E

LANGUAGE, IT’S LIVE MUSIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank goodness!  I can deal with roughly 6 of the groups listed.  The rest aren’t for me or I haven’t checked them out yet.

https://loudwire.com/heavy-metal-fastest-growing-genre/

14 years ago “Lamb of God” released one of my favourite albums “Ashes of the Wake”.  Why are they releasing a 15 year anniversary version on Friday?

https://loudwire.com/lamb-of-god-ashes-of-the-wake-anniversary/?fbclid=IwAR3uhtACd6QklxnlHU172JlZvZxvwZmBRQUsaiEcqrGVJ3LIPHalKZZlz2g

 

BILLY JOEL

He’s been around for as long as I can remember.  Seems so recently that “We didn’t start the fire” was just released, but I was in elementary school, 1989.  I remember going to a sitters place for lunch & after school, she had a son a few years older than me at the same school.  When that song was released, it was all he’d play.  We also listened to a lot of “The B52s” & “Fine Young Cannibals”.

Weirdest time I heard Billy Joel played was 4 of us heading to Saskatoon in my brother’s car to see a metal band, “Trivium”.  We all knew the words & sang along to Billy Joel’s “Greatest Hits” on the drive there.  I only have his double album of Greatest Hits, & the album “River of Dreams”…

 

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Why did this become a music blog?  “Because music is a BIG @#!$%^*&( DEAL”-David Eric Grohl

“I feel good about the good things, & bad about the bad things”-David Eric Grohl

“Learn from your mistakes & don’t repeat them”-Chris

Stay safe out there,

Chris

“Be kind to one another”-Ellen Degeneres

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